Just 1 Fat Chick on a Diet

Last night I nearly passed out and got very dizzy flush and nauseous after my spin class. Which is unusual since I do spin regularly and usual go very strong. I also was an hour late this morning due to oversleeping. Its as if my body is trying to send me a serious message.

I also felt after getting off the bicycle a considerable amount of pain in my knee. I had felt it on Thursday; a lighter form of the same pain and ignored it. Thinking it was maybe just a little ache. Now it is worse. I am FIVE WEEKS from my goal and doing so great.

I have been training hard to try and reach my goal by Nov 12th to be in my 130s. I have been spending 6-7 nights at the gym and working 1-2 hours a night, burning over 2500 calories a week, minimal. Since I started training for this cruise I already lost 8 lbs. I am terrified of a set back.

Its really killing me to think about stopping, but I am so nervous to continue because I dont want to end up with a torn ACL or something of that nature. I’m going to do some research to see what it is I am feeling and hopefully I can continue to progress, or else I may need some recovery time! Wish me luck!!! As for tonight, relaxation since it is my off day anyhow. I will measure my recovery and see if Thursday spin is still in the cards. I am praying.
 

I’m 153 lbs. F*CK YEAH! Enough said… :0)

Sometimes I struggle with the two loves of my life. Number one obviously being my boyfriend of three years and number two my excersize routine and in turn myself. I am struggling to get to my goal by November. Hitting the weights, doing the cardio, planning the diet and preparing my food everyday and night. And its time consuming. I have been at the gym every night after my 12 hour workday. Yesterday I sacrificed the most comfortable, relaxing stolen moment of snuggling with my baby for 20 minutes, to go to a spin class and sweat til I felt like I might pass out.

I dont mind working for this. I love every second. But Mon-Fri I work from 7:30-5:30/6 not to mention the 1 hour commute each way and to not be able to come home and spend the few hours left in the day with Kevin has been my biggest opponent in terms of progressing. Then Saturdays, he’s working til 3:30 (I am also at the gym while he works) and we get sat night and sun morning together, until Sun dinner with his mother andback to work again. My body feels wonderful….my mind and heart is lonely. I guess food hasnt been the only sacrifice in order to be thin. I just hope I can reach my goal soon and not have to work AS intensely to maintain.

OK I think what I am doing is very similar to the ketogenic diet of high fat and protein and low carb, but I’d really like to know more!

 I am cycling calories as follows

Mon 1500

Tue 1200

Wed 1800

Thur 1200

Fri 1500

Sat 1800

Sun 1500

Right now I have my macronutrient ratios at

Protein: 40% Carbs:25% Fat:35% and each day my macro. ratios are steady ie. high calorie days are still at 25% carbs, but obviously I am taking in more carbs with more calories. Looks like this…

Macs @ 1500
                       CARB PROTEIN FAT
GRAMS PER DAY 93g 150g 58g

@ 1200

                    CARB PROTEIN FAT
GRAMS PER DAY 75g 120g 46g

@ 1800

                    CARB PROTEIN FAT
GRAMS PER DAY 112g 180g 70g
Of those carbs 20-35 g are usable/fiber. More carbs obv more fiber. And under 12 g of sat fat a day!

Is this somewhat like the keto diet? If not should it be changed. What is the general opinion of the keto diet. If my diet and the keto are not similar, do you think I should stick to my own diet? I need opinions!! I only have 8 weeks left!!!

Ok so today was the last day of my bad streak. I am writing this for my accountability. I am going to start reconstruction my diet again tomorrow. :0) I’m going to get right back into it. 9 weeks til the cruise and its my time to shine! Thanks to a lot of advice from other people on the last blog and some wonderful profile comments I feel ready. Not to mention, some browsing for Halloween costumes! :0)

 But mostly what put a halt to my pity party. My friend Candice sent me a msg for my birthday saying (thank you for being continually motivating and encouraging. You inspire me and I wish you the best on your birthday) It made me really think. This is no longer just about me. I have learned so much and have tried my best to teach others as a go. Sparking a group of people who I care about to try and make changes in their lifestyles and diets. That is my biggest inspiration, being an inspiration to them. I cannot let myself fail, and show them that it is ok to not keep pushing when it gets hard. It would be unfair of me. The show must go on!

So today, I had my pizza AND chinese and a starbucks latte.(FAVORITE CHEATS) I know…totally sounds like the opposite of what I just said. But its a last goodbye for some time and now its time to get serious. I enjoyed every last bite and am bloated like a blowfish. And happy….ready to move forward. I am so close….

First off let me start with this : AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! A scream of complete and entire frustration. After 3 months of struggle finally down to the 155 mark and it felt amazing and then…went on vacation for 3 stinkin days for my birthday and anniversary. Decided to let the diet rest and enjoy my time with my bf without constantly worrying. I guess I enjoyed it too much

 7 LBS TOO MUCH!! Yeah…3 days=7 lbs…after it taking 3 months to lose 5. Its a little disheartening for someone who normally works her tail of 4-6 days a week training and running and going to classes that zap all of my free time for my social life. 3 days…and all that works goes down the ****ter. I feel fat and bloated and fat…and annoyed..And the worst part about it is it feels impossible right now to curb this eating frenzy. Today I ate:

2.5 servings!!! of chicken nuggets (thats 17 chicken nuggets yeah…)

a can of tuna w/ mayo and cashews

1/4 c macaroni salad

5 LARGE raviolis

5 bagel bites

a bowl of cereal with milk

1/2 cup corn

1/8 cup edamame

roasted peppers

cottage cheese

peanut butter and an apple

a kashi granola bar

a gourmet fat free muffin (like the fat free matters)

and a cup of juice.

I AM STILL HUNGRY. I tell you what..I’d make one hell of a bulimic at this pace. I have a bottomless stomach. I’m going to go kill myself now. Was gonna run, but just dont have it in me. I guess we’ll try and plan for tomorrow and see if this very hungry caterpillar can keep from being a very fat one…

I have started focusing more on my cardio as I have seen that every time I weight train I continue to gain 2-3 lbs almost immediately.(like next morning or even that night!!)

I know the whole thing about muscle weighing more than fat and blah bleh..but really I am looking to lose another 20 before I start really toning up. Its frustrating to see the scale go up at all. I have my calorie deficit down to a science where I should be losing 2 lbs a week easy. Calorie cycling to keep my metabolism from slowing and eating clean along with working out like an animal. First week was a breeze dropped 3 lbs and now back up 2…

 I want to know why I see these increases 2-3 days following weight training?? Whats the scientific reason?? and should I just completely cut it out of my training schedule until I get down to my goal weight! I feel shameful not lifting weights, but I want to be lean first!!! I want a toned body, but I reallywant to see that scale hit 135 before this cruise. Not to mention I want to be victorious in this biggest losers challenge. I have promised myself I would use the cash if I won to do nothing other than stock up on clothes for my cruise! Help please! :0)