poohsmom1984’s BodyBlog

So after the 4th I made a commitment. Not to myself cuz that wasn’t workin, but to the Great One. God. THE ULTIMATE ONE, the MAN! I told him that I had the strength and that I had more strength and will thru him. So I made a promise to him of eating clean and working hard. That is what I am doin. So far so good. This is day # 3. Protein pancakes pre-workout was great although I cant seem to push thru this oatmeal w/ protein powder. YUCK LOL. I wanted to make today a resistance day but unfortunately because I took a fat burner I was wired by the time I hit the gym and had to do some running. Ran 3 miles and hiked up a few flights of stairs and felt a lil better afterwards. I know that I can do this. My stomach is looking so good already. LOL I notice my results quickly  its all motivation. Alternate motivations sources. THIS BIG ASS PHOENIX that I will get tattooed on my back soon, I want it to extend to my side too. I’m so exctied. Gotta put up some new pics. I need this month to focus, getting a new IPHONE in a few weeks will post some pics with it.

I finally made some. Followed Ava Cowan’s recipe + a half scoop of protein powder…..the verdict…..

Not bad….actually better than what I expected and cooks up quick! Unfortunately….I didn’t have any freakin sugar free syrup so I just used the regular stuff. I have a mostly cardio session tonight at the gym anyhow. Gonna be there doing cardio for pretty much an hour. Then a little leg and ab focus. Thats tha plan….But yea try those pancakes they are fab. BSN cinnamon roll protein powder would be a PERFECT mix in for them too!

Gonna be focusing more on toning and not size. Mid Section definitely needs help soo…..ABS, BACJ, LEGS, gotta be worked. For the month of July I’m gonna try a new workout routine. Since I’m satisfied with my size for the most part, I’m gonna focus on resistance. Cardio will only be done for about 15 minutes after my resistance workouts. Not gonna pay attention to the calories. Gonna see how this works out. Intense All-Cardio sessions will be done on Friday Nights and Saturday mornings with my cycling classes. Wish me luck and we’ll see how this works.

I will speak for myself here but I know this does not just apply to me, to those who read this…you can either admit to this or you can ignore this. We workout; we put a lot of time and effort forth to build or try and build these amazing physiques, but what’s the point in trying if we are not supporting the workouts with the right food. I have been busting my ashy asscakes in the gym these last few weeks and every night I have to snack, nope can’t do a protein shake in the middle of the night, I need FOOD! Like a piece of chocolate or some Ice Cream or some ritz crackers or some wheat thins and a few breaths letter after I inhale whatever snack I’m snacking on, I realize that my workout meant nothing. This time I’m writing about it only to admit to myself and the world that I’ve been cheating myself. I hope that this will help me to change my habits. I’m not snackin it tonight. This will be the test. I know that I can do this. If I can push myself to a 8 minute mile run, I know that I can fight off some dumb ass food cravings. Its all in my head. LMAO food is becoming my new sex, since I  haven’t gotten any in over a year LMAO maybe after I get some which should be next month when I go see my hunny, I won’t have any cravings….keep your fingers crossed….LOL keep it pushin like always…

Because Muscle Milk Light….even with cookies and cream added….SUX! Its way tooo frickin lumpy…..I’m in the processing of moving right now so my workouts are pretty much wack right now….they probably won’t get any better until we get moved in…so most likely we shall start my intensity back up on Monday of next week….probably early in the mornings again….before work. Today tho…I will hit GNC and pick up some BSN….CVS for Fish Oil and Hair and Nail vitamins…not much to say today…I have free weights at home so I’m lunging and lifting every night….mostly back and stuff…

Man O Man I absolutely hate them and as I get closer to my dream body the damned stretch marks wanna just reveal themselves! Men, be glad you don’t have to deal with this too! It sucks, even when I am my goal size unless I can come up with 25 thousand smackers for plastic surgery, my dreams of wearing a bikini will never come true. Thats a funky wack reality, right? I’ve never ever worn a bikini in my whole life! Never ever. Always wanted to, but never have because I’ve always been chunky. And unless I hit the lotto or something I probably never will. So what’s the point or workin so hard? It makes you feel better, so what I can’t wear a damn bikini I can wear a cute one piece, check out guess.com they do make one pieces cute now! And leaving something to the imagination is always a plus too! So why not continue, plus there are sooooo many cute jeans and shorts out there, thank god I ain’t got the marks on my legs or thighs! But in short, stretch marks SUCK, and this lil belly pouch ain’t the business either! I guess I can blame my lil one for that though, so I’m not mad about it! She’s worth the stretch marks and the belly pouch!

Running….its been there the whole time and I’ve been overlooking it. I’m so addicted to running now. Treadmill, beaches, parks, neighborhood running is so therapeutic to me! I can’t stop. Right now I can run 3 miles non stop under 30 mins about 6.4 mph, not too bad but can be better. I want to be able to run 5 miles nonstop at this pace. I think it would take me almost an hour though. I just try to make sure I’m good on my breathing and I get in there and handle my biz. Its a beautiful thing. I’m still dieting and stuff but I don’t really have much more to lose so I’m just coasting. Today and from here on I’ll eat clean, but I cheat every now and then, just not completely over doing it when I do cheat. Also when cheating make sure u bust that hiney before or after you cheat, it kinda balances out so you don’t gain so much! learned that too. But yea now that I’m pretty much 15 pounds away from my goal the struggle ain’t ending but maintenance and really really getting to know and understand "my" body and how it really works based on what I do to keep it together.

Yea yea…this is supposed to be about my body transition but with the changes that we try and make to our bodies don’t think that everyday drama doesn’t come along with the freakin package! Yea it sucks! My boyfriend turned out to be a sucker, so normally when I’m depressed I cry and eat something super good! But last night……

I gripped a treadmill and I ran to numbness. Running can be therapeutic and the lactic acid burning in my glutes hams, calfs, and quads made it worth it. Tha pain I guess is what aided me…..Instead of piggin out and ruining everything I’ve been working for I’d rather run to breathlessness for relief.

We are indeed much more than what we eat, but what we eat can nevertheless help us to be much more than what we are.  -Adelle Davis

To me this means that….not everyone that eats crap is crap but @ the same time if made a habit, it can make you into something that you’re not which would be unhealthy….unhealthiness; though not unhealthy in the mind, physically, you may be a walking time bomb.

As for the EX, well, my feelings are still hurt…I would like to go on a long run right now just thinkin about it at this very moment, but unfortunately I must wait until after work ……I’m taking it one day at a time and I will find something to lift my spirits soon….but for now focusing on bettering myself with school, my baby girl, and my physical goals! DRAMA SUCKS!

I just purchased a new pair of Guess Jeans! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They are too small however, the goal is to fit them. I am now working tirelessly to fit into them. No food or extra carby cheesy greasy nothin is more important to me at this point! Its a must. I must wear them, I must master them….

My word….

All we have as individuals is our word. If you don’t have your word ya ain’t got nothin’! I will fit into those jeans. I will bust my ass to no avail until I do. I will not sit on my tush and soak up the couch as long as I have weights to lift and a gym to go to

The jeans are mine, I own them, I will wear them and I will look damn good in them. That is the plan….now watch me.

I only worked out twice this week Friday and Saturday, kinda lame so I plan on bustin my ass this week….So I will be goin to the gym tonight and tomorrow morning and for the rest of this week, I gotta get on my grind if I want my jeans to fit, I need to be an 11 12 and I can barely fit the 13…..lol so that will be my motivation! GUESS JEANS GUESS JEANS GUESS JEANS!!!! I also ordered the 6 week body makeover thing I wanna see if it works for me….so wish me luck on that too….Keep it Pushin!