Mid-May already?!
Thank you for your wonderful well wishes, everyone! Sorry I’ve been MIA, but this week posed a couple of challenges for me, the first and foremost being that I finally told my roommate that I wanted to move out (something I’ve wanted to do for awhile, but I have a hard time saying no or letting people down). Without getting into the petty annoyances, we just have two very different lifestyles - I’m an early bird, like peace and quiet, really love my alone time, love my job, etc., while she pulls all-nighters, parties a ton, complains about her job a lot, and bangs/slams doors and cupboards (okay, I guess this can be considered a petty annoyance, but even though I try not to take it personally since I know half of the time it’s her job, it’s still kind of disruptive to the home for me). I guess I’m getting set in my ways and just getting too darn old for roommates. So I’ve been dealing with that, because as funny as it sounds, it felt like a break-up since 1) we’ve been friends since college and 2) I usually moved because of circumstance (i.e., another job at a different city) rather than the actual person. And even though we might not move until December (financial reasons on her end though it would benefit me too since Hawaii is coming up), I’m still very excited about it and obsessively checking local ads and places (oh, and um, working! 
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Another challenge is that I have to get an outpatient procedure done. As grateful as I am that it was found, I think I found myself facing my mortality and looking introspectively about my life, its history and direction, what it all means, etc. from my commute home until it was time to sleep (and also during my cardio sessions). Though I’ll always fight for my life and strive to always be optimistic (something that I feel comes naturally though life experiences taints it cynically somewhat over time), I’m not necessarily afraid of death, either, and just figure come what may. Kind of silly, but I guess my head’s been in the clouds about that these days.
But, I still managed to gym it every day except today (cardio portion: 6 miles run, 25ish bike but I’ll re-confirm with my notes), and this guy actually came up to me one day and said that though my form was 95% correct (doing tricep extensions), I twist my neck ever-so-slightly at times so just keep an eye out on that. Ever since, I’ve totally been eyeing my neck and see what he meant, and my neck/upper shoulder pains have been alleviated ever since! I haven’t seen him since, but hope to so I can give him his props!
Hee, and the guy and I had a minor altercation, but it’s since been resolved and the relationship strengthened lately due to the triple rites of passage - the burp, the fart, and the queef!! The last being extremely embarrassing, as I believe it’s probably what a beluga whale would sound during its mating call. His response, "glad I got out of the way in time, that coulda poked an eye out!" SO romantic.
Going to catch up with all of you tonight/tomorrow, especially since a lot of people are on new routine/supplement adventures, so I can’t wait to read about it! I missed you and hope life is treating you well! xo
May 15, 2008 at 3:11 pm
we missed you too pixi! Glad to hear things are going well for you
May 15, 2008 at 3:30 pm
You sound optimistic, wonderful and full of life.
But yet, I am concerned.
I really hope everything best for you pix. You are a strong person, with a great support system…here and there….knowing that- I am with you through your journey, the good times and the rough!
Take care, my friend!
May 15, 2008 at 3:49 pm
Oh goodness, so glad that the form check has stopped pain, that’s rad. Procedures can be scarey Hope all goes well.
I couldn’t imagine living with someone too different from me, I’m lucky I never had to endure roomates as an adult except my wife and she sometimes can get under my skin but fortunately not very often.
"glad I got out of the way in time, that coulda poked an eye out!" Yikes! if it’s gonna take out one of his eyes…I don’t have to think too hard on what was going on there…. err, I mean uhh nevermind….
May 15, 2008 at 6:43 pm
Pixi! You were SO missed!! I have had one of those weeks where the normal ‘Optimistic Nessa-ness’ was just really lacking! I’m slowly bringing myself back up! Life does that sometimes…..
I know how hard it is to live with room mates! I’m actually going to be living with my sister-in-law in Texas this fall while my brother goes to Icrack for a second T.O.D. I think - I am hoping that we live well together for the year as it would mean not worrying about finding a place for the kids and I…and of course saving money!
Glad everything is o.k. health wise!! AND partner wise too!! Growing together is always a challenging and beautiful experience…dispite the queefs….roflmao
May 15, 2008 at 7:39 pm
Taking a step back, looking at the big picture as well as the introspective one, is something that should be done daily. Let’s face the facts here, it’s because people do not look inside and ask "what’s it all about" periodically enough, that much of humanities perspective towards living life is not as it was intended: To make a difference each day, to leave our mark, to answer the challenge, to thumb our noses at adversity, to improve life for our sons and daughters…….to BE!
May 15, 2008 at 7:41 pm
Pixi, it is so good to see you staying positive during such stressful times AND making it to the gym. This website is such a great support system, though. Who would have thought you could find this type of support on a bodybuilding Web site?! Sending super positive vibes your way, girl!!!!!
May 15, 2008 at 7:50 pm
You continue to grow up. First you leave one bad relationship, now you’re finally saying adios to a bad roommate, It’s about time. Hope all goes well with your outpatient procedure. It’s really cool that your pains were resulting from bad lifting form, and now you’re cured. It’s a miracle. Keep moving forward and enjoying life. You rock Pixie.
May 15, 2008 at 9:46 pm
Amen to the roommate situation! I feel the same way about roommates unless they are also like me–fairly quiet, go to bed early, etc. Also, did I miss something re: outpatient procedure? I hope your health is ok? You really do have a great attitude. Stepping back and reflecting from time to time is good…
May 16, 2008 at 9:20 am
PIXI!! You posted!! Glad you got the whole room mate thing settled. I know it’s not until December but at least she wont be hit with a surprise around the holidays!
I hope this outpatient procedure is nothing serious. You are a very strong woman Pixi! My wife had an exploratory surgery a year or two back and it was hard to not "assume" what the doctor would find. Everything turned out okay but I still had my crazy thoughts. Your head is in the right place and you know I will be here to give you cyber-hugs anytime you need them!
It’s amazing how small changes in your form can make such a difference. I saw a guy doing two things last night that I had to comment on. He was bench pressing (obviously too much weight) and when he pressed up, his lower back and butt came off of the bench and his head would lift up….WTF?!! Wait a minute dude. You may hate me for calling you out but….I laid it on him. Hopefully he will listen to my advice and let an injury or annoyance recover.
May 16, 2008 at 10:49 am
Pixi! How blessed you are that the doctors identified a problem and that they are working on treating it! Your attitude and optimism regarding it is fantastic, and wish you the very very BEST with it! Your body is strong, but your mind is stronger, so I know whatever the deal is, it’s going to have one hell of a fighter in you!
Glad to hear you’ve worked out a solution with your roomie - it must have been a toughie to deal with, given the circumstances, but it sounds like it will end amicably. 