Bye Bye Bodybuilding
I am putting to sleep my goal of entering a figure competition, a goal I’ve had for over 10 years. And it took me this long to realize that although it was one of my goals, it was not one God had planned for me. I have a form of thyroid disease, I have exhausted adrenal glands and chronic fatigue syndrome, and I don’t see them going away in the future. My whole endocrine system is messed up, I have hormone imbalances and I cannot gain any muscle. Look at me, I’m a skinny wimp, is this what someone is supposed to look like after training with weights for 10+ years?? And please don’t tell me I am doing something wrong because I’ve done IT ALL! Diets, training, rest, protein, you name it, I’ve done it and it didn’t work. Because my body just isn’t hormonally balanced to have an athletic physique. I look at women who train with weights for only a few months and already entering competitions and I thought "how did they do that?" And here I am struggling day after day just to gain on ounce of muscle and lose an ounce of fat.
I thought God would heal me of my ailments, but he did not. Instead he is keeping me humble and I must rely on him to supply my daily spiritual strength to get through the day. I am very thankful that I only have the minor illnesses that I have, because many people have it so much worse.
When one door closes, another opens. Right now I am stuck in the hallway looking around wondering what I am doing and which door is going to open. I know the plans God has for me are far above the ones I had for myself. And now I realize he was waiting for me to take the first step and close the door before he shows me a new path.
I will still workout on a fairly consistant basis, don’t get me wrong, I’m not about to turn into a couch potato eating chips all day. I like being thin and healthy and having mini muscles, but competitions just aren’t in my future. Bodybuilding will always hold a fond place in my heart and I admire all those who enter into this world, willing to do whatever it takes to change your physique, be healthy and become a great role model for those around them.
For now I bid adeu, and wait patiently for the future where I will soar on eagle’s wings. God bless.
June 20, 2009 at 2:58 pm
Keep your head us sister and never give up. He always answers our call, maybe not in the time that we want, but we do get an answer.
June 20, 2009 at 3:00 pm
Sometimes obsticles are thrown into your path as a test of faith. I woudn’t throw away what you want just yet. Your request will be heard when asked with enough confidence, passion and heart.
June 20, 2009 at 3:07 pm
i agree with M.X, maybe God had to put you through adversity before he would reward you with your goal. If I recall some people wondered in the desert for 40 years before finding the promise land. Also please , please remember- God’s theory is not of human or scientific reasoning. Just when you give up on him he is right around the corner telling you I love you if this is what you want to follow just believe and watch him work. i am not an evangelist but when you see people who were supposed to die withing two weeks and god gives them 25+ years is proof of this. i aint here to "Preach" to you neither but just when you think you’ve unturned every single stone- their is another stone which may have your goal at hand. ASK and ye shall recieve maybe someone with the knowledge will be sent to you to cure your ailment……..
June 20, 2009 at 3:08 pm
Hello Pink378, after reading your very humble and graceful exit from the sport of bodybuilding, I can’t help but admire your courage and spiritual maturity on this matter. You’ve given me both hope and guidance in how to gracefully deal with life’s many setbacks. God bless you.
Jeremiah 29:11-12
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you
June 20, 2009 at 3:09 pm
I agree with XXX666 I have had alot of things be thrown in my way and i got down and asked god why he does it to me and somehow some way he has always showed me a anwser. Please dont give up you look great and If you stay confindent I know he will anwser your stay motivated.
June 20, 2009 at 3:12 pm
Hey, I think you’re getting way too down on yourself. You’ve got a tremendously sexy body!! Maybe you should speak to someone that can help you change your mental view.. Not everyone can have the body they always dreamed. The last thing you should do is waste the good years worrying about now.. In 20 years you’ll wish you have the sexy body that you do right now!
Lookin good! Don’t get down on yourself!
June 20, 2009 at 3:39 pm
First of all you look awesome to me so you really shouldn’t be down about the way you look. I have really just started getting serious about working out with weights and I would be pleased to be shaped like you. I also admire your humility and courage. I have realized that through every obstacle I have been through, Jesus has never left me. God is faithful…always!
Romans 8:28
"And we know that in ALL THINGS God works for the GOOD of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
God bless!
June 20, 2009 at 7:58 pm
A slightly different perspective; by accomplishing what you have with the obstacles you’ve had to overcome, you have done so much more than someone who has it "come easy" to them.