patrick93’s BodyBlog

in short….EVERYTHING.
in my opinion.

your mind is probably my best tool or my worst enemy.
not in the ‘OHHH ****K IM FACIN MAH DEMONS MAN’ way, but in the sense of….are you psyched up, intensely concentrated and single minded when you lie down on that bench…cause if not? pack your shit up and go the **** home, pussy.

(pretty) recently i drastically reduced how much volume i was using, having been recommended brief, intense, painful to failure training with only 2 sets max per exercise.  this shit DOES NOT WORK WHATSOEVER if your mind isn’t dialed in.  if driving purpose behind why you’re in the gym that day is not burning at the forefront of your mind, your shit will be weak, your intensity will be poor and your results as such.

this is the biggest thing i have to focus on.  100% focus and concentration on my goals, both long term (weight/BF% on a certain date) and short term (that workout).  single minded and ruthless is the only way to win.  against yourself.

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KEEP LIFTIN

so my calf workout yesterday was unqualified success….painful just to walk on even.

i also got new ON whey today (vanilla ice cream…..not as good as chocolate IMO but still not bad) and some lifting straps.
straps are figure 8 straps (pieces of shit)…but what can you expect when you’re paying 17 bucks.  better than nothing and they help me out when i’m doing deadlifts/shrugging to some extent.

today was back/bi day and i kinda felt like i was just going through the motions.  tried incline dumbell rows and t-bar rows for the first time…wasn’t that much of a fan of either tbh.  i’m just really really tired and forgot my lunch at school today putting me in shitty stead.  but i got up and did my workout which is the main thing (not that i’ve ever missed a workout)

another thing regarding general physique….i’ve always thought ‘my pecs are out of proportion with the rest of my body’ which is true, but less and less so the more cut i get.  gut obscures pecs and i think the more fat i lose the bigger they will look.

peace.

although i have limited equipment….i refuse to let my puny bitchlike calves lag even more behind my soon-to-be herculean upper body

the excuse of ‘mmm well i don’t have a calf raise machine’ can no longer fly; put simply it’s pussy as ****
so as much as humanly possible i’m going to be smashing my calves, seeing how they’re prettymuch impervious to overtraining.

i was looking at them in the car back from the grocery store and they look like some bullshit that should be on the legs of a size zero bulimic runway model.
pathetic.

DIAMOND TIME

okay okay.  feeling pretty shitty right now.
hitting me like a ton of bricks how fat i’ve gotten.

today is the 26th of april.  
today i’m starting the traditional 3 month cut.  for real and propahh.
it’s taken me almost 3 weeks to actually get my diet dialed in as far as knowing calories and macros i’m going to have to hit…..
3 weeks of bullshit and **** ups because i had no idea what i was doing, but i now know

the thing about bulking is….it’s easy.
so in this 3 month cut (APRIL 26 - JULY 26) i’m going to be focusing on strength building on compounds.

i’ve realised i’ve never really properly cut to a decent body fat (single digitz) and i think three months would be ample.
cheat meal every friday.  cardio on every off day (and maybe ramp it up when i get more into it)

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i’ll be meticulously chronicling my progress right here.

feeling shitty today because my gyno is more apparent when i’m fat
FUUUUUUUUUUUU

all this is doing is serving to motivate me even harder to do make my cut perfect.
this is a harsh lesson of….why you should never…ever….EVER….dirty bulk.

but…you live and you learn.  and when i strip this fat off me i’ll know how to do it right the second time.

just some multimedia for peeps

a few things i’ve noticed about cutting

1) this shit is harder than i expected.  
2) this is slower than i expected
3) i’m getting semi-discouraged

so….i need to set something up for myself.
cheat meal every thursday night is my new rule.
if i can hold out on ****ing up until thursday…..all is well - then i’ll eat a massive bowl of ice cream unashamedly.

really BB is trial and error and i can’t expect my first ever cut to go perfect….
so it’s a case of sticking at it and learning the lessons.  and lesson learnt: don’t be a dumbass and think you’re never going to cheat.

is the new rule.

why?
basically just doing pullovers cause i’ve never done them before and arnold did them - i.e. they must be good (sarc)
pushups….because you can’t go wrong with them - the benefits out way the negatives…..and i hate them, so it’s a good idea to do them.

basically i want to be actually athletic, not have a whole lot of useless bulk…(i sound like a middle aged woman scared to do weights here but bear with me)….obviously i’ll gain a ****load of strength by the end of the year but i want FUNCTIONAL strength and POWER.  so i’ll be doing some calisthenics on top of weights here and there….chucking some balls around….all good stuff.  

LIFT.

today was the first time i ever maxed out on bench
…..EVAR

i’ve done 5 rep max and 10 rep max and shit….and i think the bb.com estimates based off that are WAYYYY too big.
i maxed at 65 kilos (143 lbs).  thats the biggest weight i’ve ever benched in my life.

pretty shitty by bb/pl standards….but i’m proud as ****.  3 months ago i was benching like….90 pounds.
i still hate bench though as a chest exercise - i love flies.

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diet is….going awesome.