****ght,just let me collect my thoughts here before I go on with this month's entry.Now I was going to make a video about this but I figured that I would just do a written entry about this and save the video for another subject.Now it has to do with some work issue that has been bothering me for some time before I took this day off.Why are some people so insensitive at times?Like I saw that I am scheduled to work with this woman who has some handicap and a whole lot of problems that I am not able to name or describe and my boss and coworker didn't even tell me that I am going to work with her thinking that I would be the person having to deal with this person because of not liking the things they do or some handicap they have.Like,my boss and coworker just decided not to deal or even work with this person so they just passed this on to me thinking that I would like her.Like why would they do something like that?Didn't they say that they were going to fire this person or something?Well I guess not since they decided that I was some sort of misfit as well.So they decided to pull this insensitive act and just let me deal with him or her.Like I guess that being sensitive and nice is not in their vocabulary since my boss and coworker just decide to make snap judgments about certain people because of some handicap thinking that they are better than them.Like could you believe how cruel and insensitive that is?It's like some sort of put down.And the whole management of my company isn't any better either because of their hiring practices in which they see a certain person not looking good or fitting into a certain department because of a handicap and just decide not wanting to deal with them and then just putting into a department or cubicle in which they don't really have to deal or see this person.Like that to me is pretty low.I must say that years ago they did the same to me when I started with the company.I guess in their minds the fuel station is where they put all the lowlifes who really have nothing going for them or just don't fit into their company or corporate stand.Like there has to be some legal rules of some sort that protects disabled workers from stunts like this but obviously it's not enforce at this company I work for.

Another thing I would like to get into is to talk about my boss and coworkers act of stabbing people in the back.Like my coworker came in to buy some stuff from the store and saw that certain things weren't done and decided to snitch on my coworker which caused my coworker to quit right away.Like if that's not very low then I don't know what is.I think that they wanted him to go and quit like he did and I am feeling the same way as him since these women do the same thing to me too when I do something wrong.Why would they do something like that?Do they think they are any better than me and my other coworkers because of their position?Like they are in the same department as me and yet they behave as if they are more superior than me and all the other coworkers.I don't know what it is about certain bosses but bosses who do that have some serious self esteem issues or they are somewhat racist when it comes to dealing with certain people of color. Of course their characters are never questioned or brought to the forefront and in a way it's a big problem in most workplaces since that in itself can bring a whole lot of stress and/or problems.  

But getting back to the whole disabled issue.I think that disabled people have it pretty rough in society from a social standpoint and I think that this in a way needs to be changed in order for us to thrive because from what I am seeing it's just going to get worse.

Well,that's all for this month.See you in June.  

Okay,now that I have put enough videos out here I am just going to write my life away since it's that month again for another edition of my blog entry.Hopefully I don't fall asleep when I write this.I don't know what is happening here but it just seems that I am not winning the battle of the bulge according to the scale.I just weighed myself today or this morning and I am still about the same weight as I was about a week ago.Maybe it's some of the food I have been eating or it could be something with my thyroid of some sort and I will have to check with the doctor for that.But according to my tests last year everything appeared to be normal.But it's the weight that really has me concerned since I have been exercising my butt off and avoiding certain foods.

But I wonder about that though since I have been eating some stuff like granola bars which are supposed to be good for you.I have been eating those things like there is no tomorrow.I have read the ingredients of some of them and maybe the things that are in these bars are what's making me gain a whole lot of weight or not bulging the weight off of me despite all of the exercises I have been doing and the fruits I have been eating.I am really going to have to just do a real overhaul with my diet since I confess I have been cheating a bit.It's been hard since I am having to deal with regular problems which normal adults face on a daily basis to keep on this diet and exercise plan.I have been keeping up with the exercise but just sticking with the diet has been hard for me since I am thinking about money most of the time and the job situation too since I have been searching for a job.But I guess we all have to find ways of making time and/or fitting in a schedule when it comes to our health and happiness.There has to be some ways of controlling the stresses which cause us to fall off our diets and just eat things out of ransom or eat without and discipline or self control on our part.

Getting to the granola bars,I have read on some website that most store bought granola bars have all kinds of ingredients which throw your body off balance.Some of them have corn syrup I heard.So I am thinking that there has to be some way to either buy healthier granola or breakfast bars or to make our own because corn syrup itself is just extra sugar that these food companies add to the granola bars which makes people fat and their blood sugar levels go up for some reason which can increase the risk of diabetes.So I will have to look more into that.

Well,that was my entry for this month.Hopefully I can find a way to write at the beginning of each month to keep you all up to date about my progress.Of course I will shoot some videos and post them here on this site as well.Take care and see you next month.  

I am falling behind here when it comes to writing in this blog but I have been quite busy when it comes to it.Anyway,I will be having company over this afternoon and I don't know what to expect since it has been a while that I have seen this person.He is a close friend but in reality I cannot really call him a friend since I have never really spoke to him nor have I contacted him on phone or anything like that but maybe if he comes then I will talk to him and he will probably talk to me about my bachelorhood or single life and ask me why I haven't gotten married and stuff like that.I don't know what it is about marriage or what the big deal is with it because I have been trying to figure out what it is that's great about it since most of my friends are married and so far I haven't been able to come up with an answer to that question.This guy I am going to see has been married for a long time and I sensed from his Facebook picture that he looked very tired and a bit stressed out but as people say,looks can be deceiving and I don't know a whole since I've neither experienced it nor do I live with him to find out how his relationship is and that's the thing about it.I have no idea as to how my friends are doing in their marriages since I don't live with them.They may have problems with their marriages that I don't know about or they have problems in their relationship behind closed/locked doors that I don't know about.No marriage is perfect and the person you are with may not know you very well and vice versa or you may grow so far apart that the person you are with could change with the blink of an eye or your or the person's needs will change overtime.So to say that marriage is perfect solution to a lonely life doesn't really cut it for me or for any single person who is happy being single but that could change in a couple of years but I don't see it happening.There is more to a relationship than just signing a legal piece of paper.There is a lot of sacrifice,stress,obligations,commitment and legal/financial issues which are attached to marriage which I find to be very binding and constricting but as always,I am forced to go with it due to the social programming that I have been conditioned with to make me and other single people think it's so great and something that God created which is a bunch of bull**** to me.Marriage is a man made institution which has been made to prevent women from being desperate and destitute and I will leave it at that.

Anyway to end this entry off,I will see how this visit goes and then head off to the gym but I just thought I would just sound off on this worry of mine for this month since I didn't get a chance to write earlier this month.Well take care and I will see you next month.  

Another month has come and I am once again writing a blog entry for this month.Man,It's unbelievable that we are already almost a quarter of 2013.It seems that time goes very fast when we least expect it.Anyway I was thinking about something which has hit me this morning.As you have seen I am doing videos and posting them on YouTube and on this site just to keep this page going.I also noticed as I look at myself on the videos it seems to me that I have put on a lot of weight.I even see them on the pictures I post on this site and it's just getting to me.But what is really got me is that I have been trying to stop eating all of those processed foods that I see at work and I am finding that hard too.

But at least I made one change which has somewhat benefited me in a way.I managed to substitute cow's milk for soy milk this week and to my amazement the soy milk isn't that bad.I have been drinking cows milk for years since I was a kid and have always been use to it and I tried soy milk for a bit while drinking the cows milk and I found that the soy milk didn't taste very good.So I stopped that for a while and continued with the cows milk thinking that the soy milk didn't provide protection against osteoporosis.But reading about soy milk made me change all of that since soy is a vegetable while cows milk is made from animal fat which is pretty bad for you.Animal fat isn't good for you especially if you are a man because too much fat is not only bad for your heart but it's also bad for your prostate.So I have made the switch.It will take a while for me to get use to the taste but I am sure that if I give it a couple of weeks I will get use to the soy taste.I am waiting for the day that they start to make yogurt and other milk products out of soy rather than an animal. 

Well,that was my entry for this month.I will put more videos as time goes by but for now.Take care and see you next month on the blog.  

Happy New Year!!It's been a while since I have written anything in here.I am just going to do as much introspection here as I can since I just woke up thinking about my life and where it is going.In some ways I try to be as positive as I can but there are times when I just want to give up in life because of the struggles I face daily on a mental level.I have so many things that I worry about.Like I am worried about my family and their health,I worry about my health,I think about my friends and the lack of time I spend with them and the time I talk to them and stuff like that.Hopefully I can change all of that this year before it ends and I am in 2014.I don't know if this is true but I think that as you get older you start to think about certain things in life that you never thinking about when you are younger.Like you think about death or your own mortality and the regrets you live with over stuff you didn't do when you were younger.Like I have a lot of regrets in my life that haunt me to this day.Also,you realize that there are certain things that you cannot do or change in your life such as becoming a doctor or lawyer which takes a whole lot of time and money which I know some of you don't have due to family responsibilities such as looking after your children or elderly parents and attending to your job or career.Like I always wanted to become a lawyer but realize that it's too long term of a goal since not only I do not have any money but I realize that by the time I finish university and law school when and if I start right now it would be too late because I wouldn't be able to find a job by the time I finish since like most businesses,law firms won't hire older workers who are close to retirement.It's the same when preparing to be a doctor. Age discrimination is rampant when it comes to choosing careers like this especially at a later age.So this goes to show that there are some things that you cannot do when you reach a certain age.Of course I cannot forget that going to college for these professional careers is one of them let alone for other careers too since most companies aren't hiring.

Well,that is all for now since I am going to do some other things too.I will come back and write next month since as I said I will only write on my blog on a monthly basis.For blog posts on a daily basis of my workouts and other commentary I will post some videos on this site since videos are a powerful medium and most people are visual,I will do that instead and also post pictures of my progress since joining this site I haven't been doing that.Now that I got a webcam I will start doing that for you.Take care and see you next month on the blog.  

I have been struggling trying to get off the junk food and to lose this weight I promised to myself.I even promised my doctor that I would lose this small amount of weight but I just haven't been able to do that.So I have been reading this book on sugar and it's hazard.It is by Jeff O'Connell and I will talk a bit about it.It is called Sugar Nation.I will talk about it later.But right now I want to discuss what is on the agenda this morning since it's another month of this fitness blog entry.This morning will be traumatic for me because my father will be doing his blood test on his PSA. Another words,a prostate examination on the level of his PSA and I fear that it might have gotten bigger.Which is one of the reasons why that maybe his kidneys are affected.In fact,he has been complaining about some sort of pain on his right side and that is another concern about his kidneys. Prostate cancer is not a fun thing to get and it's becoming a #1 killer of men in North America.I am at an stage where I am getting my prostate examined myself and so far nothing has shown up according to my blood tests.Which reminds me I have to get it checked next year when I go for my medical test next year and hopefully I have lost this weight but it feels like I haven't.

But anyway,I am going to talk a bit about this book called Sugar Nation.Now I have read some of it and I still have a long ways to go.I am gradually getting into the book but it's hard right now because of the distractions that I have of going to the gym,working and just coming home to rest.Working is ****ght but it sometimes becomes a distraction when you want to just stop to claim yourself and your thoughts.Which is what society especially North American society wants you to do.It conditions to want you to just work 40 hours or over so you can just get tired and exhausted to the point that you cannot do anything else including eating right and exercising to preserve your body,mind and spirit.That's why they have all these restaurants and fast food places for you to go to.It is because they know that you are in a hurry and are too tired to prepare good food.So they are there for you to go to to get some food while most of these foods have little or no nutritional value and have all kinds of salt,sugar and chemicals which causes your body chemistry to be thrown off balance that can cause diabetes.I am just getting into this Sugar Nation book right now.I will read some of it today before I go off to work to face my bosses wrath about the garbage bags I didn't do properly.

Well,that's all for this month since it's getting pretty late this morning for my writing.Have a great Christmas and a happy healthy holiday season.I will see you in 2013.  

So,I am back once again and this month is another entry just before I write another one next month.That is when the Christmas season comes to me once again.I haven't been on this site for a while,a long while since I have been focusing on my other blogs.Plus,I have been falling down on my diet and just going about my other responsibilities and obligations.So I fell off my diet and just started a bit of emotional eating.Plus I haven't been weighing myself for weeks because of the constant stress I am dealing with in finding another job and figuring out what to do with my life as a whole,which hasn't helped me a lot regarding this training.I have been trying to get back on track but I admit it has been hard.There were times when I wanted to quit this site and forget about this training because it's too much work.I would suspect that by the time I finish writing this stuff all of my friends probably would have been competing right now.I just saw one of my BodySpace friends just now competing in figure because of the commitment they have put into this site while I have been stuck in neutral with this program.It's just due to a lack of money I have in buying supplements.It would be nice to commit 100% to this site but it's hard when you are bombarded with responsibilities,commitments from other sources and struggling with emotional problems like what I have been doing for the last few weeks. 

I think overall,it's hard to get started on any workout program when your mind or brain has other ideas in trying to overcome the helplessness that it has.Like this morning,I struggled to get up before I even did something to shake off the mental cobwebs.Mental illness is no joke since it destroys a persons health in more ways than one.It's been a struggle for me in having to cope with ADD or ADHD and these learning problems I have which has been hard.I thank God that I have been able to write this blog entry but for other who are struggling with these mental problems I have,it's probably a chore for them.Hopefully I can keep writing in here and maybe posting pictures of myself but that is even a struggle for me because of these issues of body image I have about myself.I hope this entry will urge people with mental issues to get help but if not,then to cope with their disorder.

Well,that's all for this month as my time is up on this blog.Take care and I hope to see you next month.  

Good morning to you all.It's another month once again and I am back for another monthly edition of this Body Blog. The only difference is that I am writing the entry this morning since I am only here once a month.This month I am going to share my progress to let you guys know how it is that I am doing. I meant to write this earlier but due to problems with staying awake I just haven't been able to get to it.But I have a bit of confession to make regarding my progress.I think that I might have put on a lot of weight since I have written this and it's affecting my digestive system.I haven't weighed myself in a while but I just have this feeling that I might have put on a lot of weight during the last few weeks.I have been trying hard to avoid certain foods but so far I haven't succeeded.It has been a constant uphill battle for me.To keep myself in check and you guys certain that I am following my diet I am going to weigh myself today to see if I made any progress.But I am not going to be too excited because I know that I have fallen off a lot and it's bothering me.There were times I felt like giving up because of this because of the fast foods I have been eating for the last few weeks.While I have been eating a lot of Subway Sandwiches to be safe,I am not so sure if that's the things to do because maybe the sandwiches themselves have ingredients which cause weight gain.I am thinking that there has to be some recipes somewhere in some cookbooks which has submarine sandwiches that can be made at home without all of the added salt,fat and extra calories.I am sure there are but haven't been looking hard for any of them.Anyway,I will weigh myself today but I am pretty sure that there hasn't been any changes made to my body.

Well,that's all the entry for this month as I am just stumped as to what to do with this weight.I will continue to give you and update on my progress.Take care and I will see you next month. 

I have been spending almost forever trying to find a way to write in here but now that I finally found it,I am going to let you in on how my progress has been so far.I must confess though,it has been very hard for me the last few weeks in keeping up on my diet mainly because I have been busy with not only work but with also trying to set up somewhat of a part time consulting work with AutoCAD.I have been taking numerous courses in CADD(Computer Aided Design and Drafting) for years and practicing along the way while trying to find a job in it and so far not much luck.I have been searching for a job in AutoCAD or anything related to electronic design because electronics is mainly my background.I have been uploading some of my work on Facebook and Twitter so I get my followers to see my work.So that's why I haven't been in here as much as I want to.Plus,I would like to post some of my progress pictures to you so that you can really have a sense as to how I have been doing with my workouts and diet. 

Now I have to confess,I have been struggling with the diet and the scale is evidence right now.I have packed on some weight,a lot of weight and I am feeling bad about it.It is just that at times,I am so stressed out without even being aware as to what I put in my mouth. Now,I have wanted to keep a notebook or pad as to where I work to write down my thoughts as to what's been bothering me to reduce the amount of urges or cravings I have in reaching for food but I just haven't been able to bring myself into doing that.The diet or avoidance of unreal food has been a battle and I am still battling almost every day.Hopefully by the time I finish this entry and head off to work I can avoid the temptations and keep my cravings at bay.For a few days now,I have been snacking on cookies instead of my fruit and that I think is what's causing me to gain weight and the constant worry about the lack of readership or visitors to my blog that I set up which I think is causing me to eat so much.

Well,that's all for this month and especially on a Labor Day Weekend.Take care and I will see you in October.For those of you who want to see the drawings I have done on AutoCAD with a bit of commentary,check out my website.

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Well,I have to admit that I am a bit scared right now because I was just watching the Olympic Games and they did this highlight of this Australian female basketball player doing a dunk and saw that and my jaw dropped and I was thinking that this could be the player who could end up winning the gold medal for Australia in women's basketball.Australia might end up using her against the USA when it comes to driving to the basket and shooting as well.I fear for the Americans since I have seen some of their games and they haven't looked as good even though they have had some blow outs against some teams.Australia could end up beating the Americans and preventing them from winning their straight 5th gold medal and that in a way is very scary for me because I would like to see the U.S. win but hey if they don't then that's ****ght too I guess.But it would be nice to see them win again but it will be tough if they aren't able to stop this player who is 6'8". Of course there is France they have to worry about as well.

But getting to the point that I want to talk about here.I know that all of you or some of you are probably watching a lot of the Olympics on TV this month.So I am going to make this my entry for the month of August.I want to ask:What ever happened to participating in the Olympic Games?I ask this because of the attention that we keep giving it while in the process becoming spectators rather than participants.I mean,it's pretty much what we have become most of the time during this 16 day event.But I think that we are all this way when it comes to the Olympics and other sporting events because we sort of get a rush out of it and it provides an escape from the everyday boring routines in our lives.We also have this fear as well of injuring or hurting ourselves when we participate.So these are understandable.Also our age of course.So those reasons are understandable.But I think that something has to be done to make people realize that they can take up sport and participate rather than sit down and watch it which doesn't do anything for us in regards to getting fit and staying healthy.

Well,that is all for this month as my time is just about up.I hope to one day participate in the Olympics but I know that in my heart I probably won't make it.By the way,I wish Team USA luck in the women's soccer quarter final.If they win great,if not then that's fine as well. See you next month.

Good morning to you all.I am sorry for my lack of writing on this blog.It is just that I have been busy with other things.But I have been consistent with my workouts.I have been trying to type some stuff on my Tumblr blog I have set up.I have also been trying to get my Twitter page going right now.Also Facebook as well but I haven't been on Facebook as much as I'd like.I bet you guys haven't been on Facebook in a while since you probably have busy lives as well.Now that I am here what can I write about today or this morning?Well,I have been going through a lot of motions in my mind as to what kettlebell workouts I can do to replace all the free weight workouts I have been doing.I meant to do some research on it but I haven't really had the time to do that with the job search and the job I am doing which has taken up a lot of my time.

But I just want to comment on some article I read on Business Week Magazine about prolong sitting.I tweeted about this on Twitter but haven't really gotten into details.Now that I am here I will talk about it a little more.Yeah,prolong sitting is bad for your health because when sitting your heart has to work a lot harder to pump blood throughout the body especially if you are overweight.Now companies I think are finding ways for people who sit down for a long period of time to become active.They are inventing chairs for people to use so they can not only sit but also stand up when needed.I have always longed for a desk job because of the job I am doing and the money pays more but now I realize that not all desk jobs are good because of the sitting that a person has to do.In some ways I have been depressed for working at the job I am doing but now I sort of see it as an advantage because I am constantly on my feet doing things like cleaning,sweeping and mopping which keeps me active and going.Some people at desk jobs put on weight because of not only prolong sitting but the foods they consume during sitting.Most companies are now making chairs I guess.I don't know which type of chairs they are making but I am sure they are making chairs in reducing this prolong sitting.But for myself,if I end up finding a job which I have to sit for a long period of time then I will have to find some ways to become active because the job I am looking for involves a lot of sitting even though the money is good. 

Hello again.I am back again here and I am just bored out of my mind right now.So I decided to do some freestyle writing while I wait for a topic to come into my senses.I know that this is a bodybuilding blog but I am just bored out of my head and I am not able to think of anything to write about.So I will just try and think of something while I write in here.Now,as I said in one of my blogs,I said that I am constantly or have been constantly training like my life depended on it because of the obsession in being in an Olympian.I know there are some people that are obsessed with this goal and I can understand that.

But I am going to just say this right now.I think that people especially older people my age should just give up this Olympic Dream and just exercise for health reasons because there is a risk which comes with training very hard for the Olympics,no matter the sport.Injuries are common with people of all ages especially with people over 40 years old.Older athletes have to work harder in training and nutrition than younger ones.Plus the recovery rate is a lot longer among older athletes putting them at risk for injury.I know this because I noticed that I am seeing in myself that I have to take longer rest periods after I train hard at the gym.Plus,the weights I was lifting way back when I was at the gym I am now having a hard time lifting that same weight.So,to all you older athletes,be careful when you train.Also,seek the advice of a doctor or professional before undertaking any sort of exercise program.And last but not least,do all you can to stay off the sugar and junk food because once it stays in your body,then it is there permanently there because a person over 40 has to work a lot harder to burn the calories.

But getting back to the Olympics,I think that exercising to be in the Olympics shouldn't be a goal in itself.Exercise should be done for health reasons overall.