Ramblings of an iron addict

WOW! What the **** is it with people *GUYS* today???

First, I’M MARRIED!!! So, back off!

Secondly, I don’t have MSN, I don’t WANT MSN. Don’t ask! I don’t need to justify myself!

Third, I am on here to keep a record of my struggles and successes. Hopefully to motivate and inspire people. If you friend me, I’ll friend you back, but it doesn’t make us FRIENDS.

Fourth, If pretty. Thank you. I’m gorgeous. Okay. I have a great body. ENOUGH ALREADY! Comment on my pictures. Leave a comment on my profile, but if you constantly message me and call me "pet names" I’m going to get irritated more than I already am today!

Fifth, just because I’m showing online, doesn’t mean I am or I’m around my computer. Dont message me thinking I’m going to respond right away. Maybe I just don’t feel like chatting.

Thank you, that will be all…

for now…

Well… I’m glad I took it easy yesterday- first workout back lifting heavy with this new workout! If I’m as sore as I am today with only lifting about 75% of what I know I’m capable of, I wouldn’t be able to move! lol!

But it is a good feeling!

Chest today, though only did about 80% of my workout. Didn’t get any sleep last night, so am SUPER tired! *arg*… oh, well… I’ll try for a better sleep tonight!

I don’t know what it’s been with me lately. Well, since yesterday. I just feel sad. Or worried. Or depressed. Or… I don’t know! I don’t seem to have the desire to do anything, but then I get upset when I don’t do anything!

I just don’t know! It doesn’t make any sense!

Maybe it’s the seed of doubt in the back of my mind with my finances. We seem to be going into debt. Slowly, but it’s there. If I could just get my hands on about $5k, I’d be set! Pay off what we owe and have a bit left for emergencies!

But I don’t KNOW if that’s it!

My birthday’s coming up next weekend and my husband’s asked me to book it off work- so I did. I work 5 days this week- and then only ONE next week!!! Maybe the time off will be good- I can get some stuff done to try and help our situation!

Maybe I’m depressed about getting older. But WHY SHOULD I??? I’m in the BEST shape of my life! I have so much ahead of me. Plans. Dreams. I intend on achieving them!

Maybe I’m getting a bit of anxiety for this womens retreat I’m teaching at later this month! It’s only about 10 days away and I am NOT prepared!!!! Maybe I should get my ass in gear about that and it’ll help! Maybe…

I just have NO idea!!!!

****ing PMS…

Anyhow… my new workout is full-swing ahead. Hitting it heavy this morning. Feeling the lack of energy, though- dispite having a good night sleep. Probably just my mood… but looking forward to this workout. 6 weeks, then I’ll change it again! It’ll be a good 6 weeks!

… I hope…

Anyhow, I should get some food and try and save the rest of my morning before I head to work!

ALL my muscles are still super sore… I’m assuming from the posing clinic the other day! I feel like my calves are on the constant verge of cramping. No amount of water seems to be helping. Nor potassium.

It’s a great feeling!

Had a couple good days at work, and a couple crappy. Have a COOL "contest" going on at work and one of the prizes is a trip for 2 to the 2009 Arnold Classic!!! Needless to say, I am SUPER stoked about that and am going to try my DAMNEST to win it!!! Even my boss said if SHE won it, she’d give it to me!

Other than that, waiting for a friend to come over for dinner! Day off tomorrow, then 5 days straight!

CIAO!

Had a nice visit with my parents, but glad I’m home! I was afraid I was going to get the usual "you’re getting too skinny" from them, but they were actually complimentive about my physique. Maybe they were just in shock about my hair! hahaha…

But met with the posing suit gal and the materials are GORGEOUS! A fabulous teal green for the one piece and a burgundy for the two piece. We were going to do measurements, but figured why bother as the competition isn’t for another 5+ months!

Visited with my brother and his wife briefly as I pretty much had to eat and run. As it was, I was about 10 minutes early and the posing coach was about 40 minutes late!!! Not too happy about that, but shit happens! One of the guys who’d obviously been through this before (actually, it seemed they all had!) led us through the warmups then she took us through the poses. As it turns out, my posing seems to be pretty good- or at least I was able to emulate the poses correctly!

But, my gawd, I forgot how exhausting posing was! By the end of it, we were all drenched in sweat! And this morning I felt absolutely beat up!!! SO sore!

But looking at the other gals, I couldn’t help but think I could do the competition at the end of this month. I didn’t seem that far behind them and even farther ahead than most- there was only myself and another gal who’s abs were visable. Kind of a nice feeling! A couple of the gals were actually trying to convince me to compete! I was thinking about it and REALLY considering it, but I don’t have the $1000 for everything I need- the two suits being the big ones, and then all the aesthetic stuff. I have too much going on this month- the last thing I need is this added stress! I’ll just keep my originaly schedule…

Anyhow, going to rest and relax for a couple hours before heading downstairs for my workout before getting ready for work. Slept like SHIT last night! Spring form matresses suck! All sorts of uncomfie pressure points!

CIAO! 

Wow! All I have to say is WOW!!! I had been suspecting my weight was dropping as my abs were becoming more and more pronounced- but when I stepped on the scale this morning, I was ecstatic to see 140.5 lbs! It’s been about 2 1/2 years since I weighted this amount! I may have been close Sept last year when we were in Oregon, but I don’t recall!

NOTHING is more rewarding than hard work paying off! I know my determination will get me there, but until it happens, there’s always that seed of doubt… but now I have no doubt!

I CAN DO IT!!!

Now to pack, make sure I get all my posing stuff, shoes, workout gear. Directions… ect. And head out of town. … right after breakfast!

The one nice thing about working out first thing in the morning is that it’s still nice and cool… or at least cool enough I have energy to work out! It’s about an hour away from meeting a gal for jogging and it’s so hot, I don’t even want to move! I don’t know how you all in Arizona or the HOT places can stand it! Of course, AC it probably the status-quo! Not here! The humidity is horrible and it gets this hot so infrequently, we’re not used to it, so we whine and moan about it the whole time!!!

I did go visit my friend and her little boy. I’ve never seen a child with SO much energy and oblivious to the heat!!! We were dead and he was running around having a good old time! The good news was that the running around I did with him didn’t bother my leg, so that was nice! I should be fine for jogging!

Anyhow- I need a drink! I’m parched!

Had biceps this morning. Didn’t include the leg portion of it as I’m still "testing" them! Plus I’m going jogging with the daughter of a potential client tonight. We’ve been trying to get together for the past 2 weeks now, but I haven’t felt ready enough. Legs are feeling good, but I still didn’t want to chance it.

Looking forward to tomorrow. After my workout, I’m heading out of town to go visit with my parents. Do a bit of shopping. Meet with the posing suit gal and go over design and materials. And then the posing clinic. There’s a competition at the end of this month, so I figured I should take advantage of it. Get in a couple clinics over the next few weeks, and then maybe have a private session closer to my competition. I’m actually quite looking forward to it.

I’m also very curious to see what the competators look like at this point of the game. I have to wonder if I would be able to compete at this competition… 3 1/2 weeks away. I know what my body is capable of and I’m certain I could do it if I put my mind to it, but even my husband said no.

I’m just curious…

Anyhow, meeting up with a coworker this morning- should be fun!

CIAO!

I must say, these interval workouts are a nice change. I miss the heavy weights, but for this week, it’s a nice change! Today’s workout wasn’t much different than the one previous, but still enough of a change.

But SUPER intense! I forgot how much I actually enjoy skipping and I’m getting better at it! I do 100 rotations between sets- and the one time I actually paid attention to the time, it was about 50 seconds- but the speed was pretty good. I want to continue getting better- I want to do the criss-crossing and everything… without wacking myself in the face! LOL!

But I’m really liking how my physique is coming along. I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the early morning sun and counld help but think "Hmm… nice!" and then pause and flex… my abs are coming along nicely and I don’t think it’ll take much more to have them make a permanent appearance as opposed to only in the morning when I’m dehydrated and no food injestion yet. Soon! Very soon!

Anyhow, hubby called in "sick"… I guess his sleep was as good as mine! LOL… so we’re just eating breakfast and then I think he’s going to sleep… I think I’m too wired right now from my workout to sleep. Maybe later…

Had a decent day at work yesterday, but because my coworker left early (as it HAD been dead) I had a constant flow of people to deal with from 4pm on and had customers up to closing. Everything that could go wrong with closing did- had to recount the cash 3 times as it wouldn’t balance. So by the time I got home, I had to run around, get changed, chug back a protein shake and head out the softball. I dropped my husband off (as I wasn’t playing anyhow) and went and got some beef jerky as I knew we wouldn’t be getting home until after 9… not the best time to be cooking a meal! Stinking hot all day (and to be getting worse as the week goes on) so couldn’t get to sleep. Caught bits and pieces here and there. Then became subject to the incredible twitching husband and went to sleep on the sofa (it’s cooler out here, anyhow!) Because of my lack of solid food all day (or at least in the evening), I was STARVING at 2 am. Resisted. I don’t know how much SLEEP I got as it felt like every time I looked at the watch, it felt like only 10 minutes went by, but I guess it was good rest as I decided to GET up at 5am as I wasn’t tired.

I lied. I’m tired.

But I’m looking forward to my workout today! Should be good! Then I think it’s going to be a busy day. Hook up the a/c in the bedroom, run into town… it’ll be busy!

Anyhow, CIAO!