Lets get it!

As I sit here at work listenin to Jack Johnson and eatin yet another plate of chicken breasts, mixed veggies and a sweet potatoe I can’t help but to feel like I am just wasting my time! This is the point in the bulking phase when I am itching to get some cardio in and get what abs I had back! I am starting to feel like I am just gaining fat! I eat a lot of good quality calories throughout the day starting the minute I wake up! I push hard at the gym, but it still doesn’t seem to matter!

I have set a goal for myself to get to 205 lbs by mid-April so that I can do a 6 week maintenance period beforeI hit it harder than ever in Iraq! But Will I make it to 205 again! Can I do this til 15 April!?!? The doubt is starting to set in if I have what I takes…genetically to do this bodybuilding thing!! Should I just be focus on staying as FIT as possible or go for what competing one day! if I do this bodybuilding thing I want to be a good 225+ not a 185er!

At times I feel like either my body is retarded or I am completely dense when it comes to training and eating! I read non-stop about the sport! exercises, workout programs, nutrition, supplements, everything but can’t seem to get it right! I ask questions to people who I think look like they know the game andI always get the same answers from everyone….oh and I am doing what everyone suggests!

With the mood I am in right now you could ask me something anything and I’d give you a negative answer cuz that’s the mood I am in. On a norma basis I wouldn’t feel this way, but since I am, I am writing it down!

I am thinkin about gettin more TATTOOS but I also am going to compete one day and want to know how that might affect my scores!  What do you think? Alot of the top profiles on the site have tats, but not to many pros have them.