TNT explosion!
I’m really blowing up this diet (clever?). I feel great, look great (or so I tell myself), and smell wonderful. (I just threw that in) Seriously, where was this a year ago? I totally believe in destiny. I think I’m supposed to do great things at this stage of my life. I devoted ALL of my time to my kids and stoopid fugged up hubby (he left me for his secretary). Devotion to my kids is a natural duty. I wouldn’tve changed a thing. But…I probably should have spent a little more time on myself. I definitely have more time now. Since I’ve been divorced I’ve let go 4 companion hopefuls. The great thing is….I am 100% independent. If you don’t want to go with me to the gym at least a couple of times per month….out ya go. If you start telling me how to spend MY money….out ya go…if you drink too much…out ya go….this last one (told him last night) I had to let down hard. He wouldn’t take no for an answer. (what am I Gisele Bunchen?) or however you spell her name. Anyway….I don’t have any regrets, I ain’t looking back, am really excited for the future. How bout you?
January 18, 2009 at 2:06 pm
You are my idol, Ellen!! I didn’t get married until I was 37. I am by nature a VERY independent woman and it sometimes drives my [almost] co-dependent hubby crazy! Don’t get me wrong, I love being married and I love my husband so very much, but I know that if we hadn’t found each other, I would’ve been just fine. I supported myself, bought my own home, have great friends, lots of hobbies and love my own company. You are doing a wonderful thing - finally putting yourself first and not taking anybody’s sloppy seconds. You know not to take any sh!t at this point. You are an amazing woman just as you are - you don’t need someone else to validate you! LOVE your attitude and support it!
January 18, 2009 at 7:09 pm
No…Brooke….YOU are MY hero! What kind of broad has her own business and has the balls big enough to NOT get married until she’s in her 30’s. Takes a special kind of chick to live like that. Indpendent? Thats your middle name. You’re cool!!! I’m so glad we are friends! Ellen
January 19, 2009 at 3:33 pm
Oops, I think I miswrote or you, my dear, dear Ellen, misread. I wrote "love my own company", which I meant to mean: "enjoy hanging out with good ol’ me!", not that I OWN my own company! I wish!! Although I am studying to get my personal training certification, so maybe someday…who knows? I am a little more interested in the nutrition area of training, so that may be an option as well. I’m glad we found eachother too!
January 20, 2009 at 7:10 am
I am so happy for you that you know what you want and your going to go get it!!!!!!!!!!! Independence combined with confidence and determination equals you on stage in October!!!!!!!!!!