nursenic’s BodyBlog

In the past, some of my friends and colleagues have suggested that attaining a physically attractive body must be the motivating force that keeps me training with such intensity. For some people, this may be true. However, my motivation for staying fit and pushing myself in the gym has never been “looking good.” In fact, I first began to lift seriously in an effort to feel better and be stronger. When anorexia first developed, I felt such a sense of control, like I was such a strong person with amazing will power. However, as my anorexic phase progressed, I became so unhappy and worn out. As my weight dwindled so did my happiness, my social life, and my feelings of control. Anorexia began controlling me. I turned into a weakling- the exact opposite of what I wanted to be. So, when I finally got a grip and woke up I knew I had to rid myself of this weakness. Working out helped me to do this. After beginning to lift weights, it wasn’t long before I noticed gains in strength, energy, and happiness. These gains motivated me to work harder. My changing physique was nice, but it really didn’t cause me to push myself more and more each day. Things like moving heavy boxes without help, increasing the weight on my bicep curls, and being able to run further and feel better afterward kept my motivation high. While I will admit that I’ve always enjoyed receiving compliments on my body just like most everyone does, I know that I keep doing what I do for different reasons and that my efforts grant me so much more of value than the occasional “looking good.” Training has given me my strength and my health back.