feeling fat bloated and irratable
Thursday, August 30th, 2007I am feeling still bloated after my last figure show 8/18/07-i pigged out for 1 week, gained 7 lbs and this week i have started eating "clean" again with most things-added diary back and carbs in last meal-i am working out and running again but i still feel like a big fat cow—-i know i cant stay compitition weight or achieve stage look 24-7, but i feel so blah and gross looking after a show, my clothes are tighter on me and just dont fit like they did 3 weeks ago, can you really gain that much fat in 2 weeks? i get disgusted at mysef when i look in the mirror sometimes, or just mad at myself for cheating for a whole week and 2 days-it is hard for me to get back ontrack with nutrition, but these past 3 days have been better, almost feeling normal again…..augh, just wish i could look like i do on satge all of the time!!!!! i hate this mental torture i put myself through…almost like i dont feel i am in shape or look good unless i am 7% body fat and under 100lbs…..sounds crazy, i know but thats howi feel sometimes……
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