nms125’s BodyBlog

I have made the decision tonight not to go ahead with the competition.  I have made great gains and awesome progress which i’m very proud of myself.. Hell, look where I started at.. I never even imagined I could achieved this physique, but my motivation and perseverance got me here.. I’m not depressed about it kinda feel relieved, there was no point to put me through hell for the next 3 1/2 weeks to get on stage half ready.  So.. I have decided to do a spring show instead (March/April) and just WOW them.  Tonight, I went to a Texan style place and had some yummy steak fajitas with all the fixin’ ohh I can’t forget, i did have a deep fried ice cream.. Tomorrow, back to my first diet..  and lift, lift and lift..

1 egg
2 breakfast sausages
1 small waffle with maple syrup and butter
1 banana + vanilla yogurt with granola
Chocolate pudding with oreo cookies and Reese peanut butter cookies
Coffee with cream
Took me 3hours to eat all of that.. I think i’m good until next week..

I cannot believe how much money i’ve put into my first competition.. I know, that I will re-use my suits and shoes for the next show.. (see i’m already planning a second show) 

I guess the first show is the most expensive one.. I was looking at my budget.. and i feel like crying. Don’t feel i have anymore control.. Since i’m 6 weeks out tomorrow the only expenses i have left are the registration fees, makeup and i’m now thinking i’ll be doing my own hair.. I don’t think I can afford a $60 hair cut. My grocery bill has sky rocketed as well since June. I would say most of my money went on to the foods, suits and supplements. Someone will have to pay for my dinner after the competition LOL

Where do I start.. women in general can be soo catty and jealous.. I’ve wrote in my past blogs about some friends and family not being supportive in this sport.  This girl I know is sooo jealous of me.. And I was told by her boyfriend that I should stop talking about my “diet” i make other women unconfortable, okay,  maybe i have used the wrong choice of words “diet” for regular folks and “diet” for bodybuilders - Big difference.. But when we do get together, I don’t say anything unless someone ask me a question about it.. Who is asking the questions.. Women.. Its been an ongoing issue since June - since i’ve decided to do this.. The only thing i have to say is these women obviously have body image issues and they are not strong enough to do something about it but to attack someone who actually made the efforts to change what i didn’t like about myself so they can feel better about themselves. -

p.s. Today is a no carb day for me.. can you tell?? LOL

I’ve just made some yummy protein waffles.. I was so impress i wanted to share it with you guys.

1/2 cup of rolled oats
1.5 scoops of vanilla protein
1 egg
2 egg whites
vanilla extract
1 sweetner
little water
baking powder
Magic Bullet it, then pour in your $9.99 waffle maker.. AMAZING

I guess its time for me to be looking into for my posing suit.   I already have my 2 piece and now looking to get my one piece custom made.  I’ve been looking on Diva Classified for one piece in my height category and there’s not much out there. 

 I’ve been looking at Lidia Conti Bodywear: http://www.bonitadress.com/

 But not sure what colour I should go for… 

Any suggestions..

 Thanks

 Nancy

I’m asking the question, because this is what I’m being asked by my friends and family all the time.  I never thought having a passion for fitness and looking good is a taboo subject.  This November I will be entering my first figure competition, of course I have a few more month ahead of me and I have alot work to be in constest shape.   I am very happy with the progress I have made and very excited that I am able to go to the next step, to compete.  Last night I went out for dinner at friend’s house, and I guess sharing my experience and my happiness of getting on stage half naked and showing off your hard work at the gym is not what people are interested to hear.. I guess I already knew this, but the questions kept on coming why I was doing this?  What’s the purpose of this? Why am I denying myself of enjoying life, why I have to get on stage and I have someone to judge me?   I tried to explain the "why" this is my goal and this is what I want to do.. But its still not enough for them to understand.

We are all going to a friend’s wedding in August, and mentioned I will have to excuse myself from the dinner, first I don’t want them to accomodate me might be too complicated.  (I’m sure the bride and groom will understand).  I guess what pissed me off the most is when I was asked why i’m going to the wedding in the first place if i’m not going to attend the wedding dinner?  Honestly, it made me feel how disrespectful of me not to attend the dinner.  At that point i was getting tired of explaining myself.  I just told them, this is what i’m doing right now and people will have to respect my wishes and if people have a problem with it, well that’s their problem, right now i need to be selfish. 

I guess what i was looking for is support.  I want my friends to be as happy as I am.  We all have goals in life, no matter if your into fitness or not.  I respect other people’s goal why is this any different?  The sad part of all of this I already know the answer.

Today, I will be doing chest and biceps.. I think it will be good workout..

That’s all i wanted to say

I’ve been clean eating since April 10th and been craving ice cream of a while now.. So today was my moment of weakness… Yes i feel like crap now… I had to do it.. Got my fix..

I have been reading many blogs on bodyspace for a while, so I wanted to give it a try.. Little about me.. Since June of 2002 I’ve lost about 73lbs.. Now, i’m hoping to do a figure competition on November 10, 2007.   This competition process will be an expensive one.. With the weight loss, i’m buying new clothes on a montly basis.. I just purchased a pair of jeans last month and i’m already down another size.. I am very happy with my progress, I just have to plan my budget appropriately.. So yesterday I went to Winners (Like a TJ Maxx in the U.S.).  I have been wearing my Size 10 and my large size tops for a while now.. So yeah, it didn’t look very flattering on me.. I had to suck it up and spend the money. I picked out the clothes I wanted to try, assuming I’m a size 8 and medium size tops.. well I was wrong.. And you know it’s a workout on its own trying on clothes, I can built up sweat in that tiny dressing room.. LOL … Well I had to go back pick out more clothes. I’m a size 6 and small size tops.. WOW.. I didn’t even know.. I can say i look pretty damn good this morning at work.. Even though its casual friday.. I look pretty classy ; )