nms125’s BodyBlog

I’m asking the question, because this is what I’m being asked by my friends and family all the time.  I never thought having a passion for fitness and looking good is a taboo subject.  This November I will be entering my first figure competition, of course I have a few more month ahead of me and I have alot work to be in constest shape.   I am very happy with the progress I have made and very excited that I am able to go to the next step, to compete.  Last night I went out for dinner at friend’s house, and I guess sharing my experience and my happiness of getting on stage half naked and showing off your hard work at the gym is not what people are interested to hear.. I guess I already knew this, but the questions kept on coming why I was doing this?  What’s the purpose of this? Why am I denying myself of enjoying life, why I have to get on stage and I have someone to judge me?   I tried to explain the "why" this is my goal and this is what I want to do.. But its still not enough for them to understand.

We are all going to a friend’s wedding in August, and mentioned I will have to excuse myself from the dinner, first I don’t want them to accomodate me might be too complicated.  (I’m sure the bride and groom will understand).  I guess what pissed me off the most is when I was asked why i’m going to the wedding in the first place if i’m not going to attend the wedding dinner?  Honestly, it made me feel how disrespectful of me not to attend the dinner.  At that point i was getting tired of explaining myself.  I just told them, this is what i’m doing right now and people will have to respect my wishes and if people have a problem with it, well that’s their problem, right now i need to be selfish. 

I guess what i was looking for is support.  I want my friends to be as happy as I am.  We all have goals in life, no matter if your into fitness or not.  I respect other people’s goal why is this any different?  The sad part of all of this I already know the answer.

Today, I will be doing chest and biceps.. I think it will be good workout..