nic902’s BodyBlog

Oh me, oh my….life has been so busy! I’ve been working 12hr days…on top of getting all my weight training and cardio in, so I’ve been running around like a chicken with my head cut off

I’m now just 3wks out from my show and TRYING to get some loose ends tied up…its getting to crunch time when ya gotta get all the show stuff taken care of. I’m having problems printing my entry form but I’m hoping to have that and my membership taken care of this weekend. I am chatting with the awesome chick that does make-up and setting up an appointment with her…plus, I still gotta book my hotel room too! On top of all that….I still have to make appointments for my nails, waxing and hair!! Sometimes being a chick BLOWS I still have to burn the cd with my music for my walk! Also, my friend may not be able to get off of work so I wont have anyone to help me backstage…taping my suit, oiling me up ect…I am freaking out a little bit.

I met with my trainer this morning and he said that I’m looking lean and full which is freakin awesome!!! He made a slight tweak to my diet by dropping my carbs a little and bumped up my cardio some as well….its game time now, no slowing me down. My weight is still sitting steady at 107.5lbs but I’m feeling tigher/leaner, so its all good! Pretty much everything I own is falling off of me….that looks so sexy LOL!!!

I guess that pretty much sums up my life at the moment. Now, I’m off for a typical friday night in the world of Nicole…laundry, food prep and watching the game…its all good, I like my life

Oh yeah…I decided on my music for the night show! I think its a safe bet that no other figure chick will be rockin out to NIN

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJN2SPUcXTQ&feature=fvsr

I had a very nutty day! I’m 4.5 weeks out from my show and had I guess what you could call a slight freak out this morning. It got in my suit to send my trainer some progress pics and they looked TERRIBLE I almost burst into tears! I looked very wide, my waist looked thick…which made my taper look almost non existant. I went into a state of panic and thought "there is no f%ckin way I’m getting on stage looking like this" BUT when I was looking in the mirror, I thought I looked awesome…well on the right track to the stage. I couldnt understand how I looked so bad in my pics but awesome in the mirror???? Obviously, pics can vary because of camera angle, lighting ect…but I was really suprised at the drastic difference. So, after that meltdown I went to the gym to punish myself for the $hitty pics and when I was hitting poses between sets, I was like "WTF??? I am right on point" My waist was super tiny…back nice and wide, so I got my sanity back and said F#CK the camera! Seriously, I know we all strive to see the progress in our pics…but they can be decieving, just like the scale…dont use it as the be all end all of how you feel/view youself.

Now, I guess the universe really wanted me to lose it today…I had to go shopping for work clothes, not my idea of a good time but a necessary evil LOL! I know that a lot of stores do the whole ‘vanity sizing’ thing because its proven that women will shop where they wear the smaller size and I get it. So, I am a comfortable size 1…and a loose 3, well I tried on a size 2 today and I got them on and off WITHOUT unbuttoning or unzipping them!!!! Now that is just ridiculous…there is no way in hell those are 2’s!!! I thought they looked big on the rack but OMFG thats a joke…those were clearly built for a chick thats a size 5 or most likely 7! Well, I went to a different store and what do ya know…the size 1 fit perfectly, just like everything in my closet! This is just another example of how we cant get caught up in what size we wear…the reality is, it doesnt matter! As long as you feel good and like the way you look…what difference does a f&ckin tag make???

Whew…Glad I got that out! I dont know if it was just my normal contest prep meltdown or what….but I’m back to reality and feelin good again

Hee Hee Hee….Rant over!

So, my 27th birthday was on Wednesday(the 2nd)…I always use my birthday as a day of reflection on how far I’ve come (or regressed) in the last year. I am in a completely different place than I was a year ago. There were MANY bumps in the road, but I am really happy and in a good place now I left a job I was at for over 10yrs and started a vastly different venture…I was miserable and depressed as I dont do well with change. It was scary at first BUT it was definitely a move for the better. This time last year, I was prepping for my FIRST show!!! I was terrified and second guessing what the hell I was doing every step of the way. Here I am, 1 year later and prepping for my THIRD show…the nerves are long gone, and I crave the feeling of being on stage. The confidence I’ve gained of the past year has been amazing…even when things looked bad, I came out on top! I cant wait to see what the next year brings

As far as my prep goes, things are finally moving along! My trainer made some changes to my diet and cardio a couple weeks ago but the scale just wasnt moving!! This week, I’ve been feeling tighter/leaner…then today I was getting dressed to hit the gym and noticed my shorts had some serious ass saggage…my booty is gone! I had to jump on the scale at that moment…to my PLEASANT surprise I’m down 4lbs…WAHOO!!!!! I think I have a serious chance at coming in leaner than my last show, which will make me one hell of a happy camper. I’m feeling so f#ckin awesome today, I just may try my suit on

I’m looking forward to a looooong 4 day weekend…I hope everyone has a happy and safe holiday! I had no birthday cake this week and no BBQ-ing this weekend, so I want EVERYONE (thats not prepping of course) to indulge a little for me