a new day…my brain is back!
damn, my last post was so freaking depressing!!! i’m happy to say that has passed and i’m back to smiling again 
i weighed myself this morning and i’m up to 108.6 AND i know thats not fat!!! i’m feeling good and i know that i’m heading in the right direction to reach my goals! sure, i’m not as lean as i was a month ago but its part of the game and if i want to get my ass on stage than this is just part of journey…see, i told ya my brain came back!!! LOL 
my trainer was happy with my weight gain and he put together a new training split for me that i started today…YIPPEEE!!! i like mixing things up so i’m super pumped to kill my body in new and exciting ways! we also talked about a show in october, so it looks like that may be my stage debut…he says i can be ready and i always tend to doubt myself, but i have put all my trust him!
i’m not a sappy, emotional girl but i have to give big hugs and kisses to all my ‘friends’ here that helped to pick me up and dust me off when i’m feelin down. people in my real life dont understand…they just say i’m not fat, but people here really get where i’m coming from and i’ve been given so much great advice and support! so a big ~~THANKS~~ to you guys!!!!
**SMOOCHES**
August 1, 2008 at 6:02 pm
YYAAAAYYYYY!!!!!(that was kinda gay…)
You are back and batter than ever…At least heavier!!!LOL
Glad to hear you got your head straight….Does someone yelling at you had anything to do with it???
I’m also glad u up in weight!! Thats what we after girl!!!! Good job!! You make me proud!!!!
And show in October should be a breeze…Plenty of time and with your discipline and dedication I see no problems…Keep away from granola basrs tho…
Well, good to have old YOU back and stay strong…
Serbian Dr. Phill
August 1, 2008 at 6:17 pm
Really happy to hear all this hun! Glad you are back on track and feeling good! xo
August 2, 2008 at 1:38 pm
Glad to hear your back on track and gearing up for a run in October!
I look forward to hearing how you kicked butt!
August 5, 2008 at 12:29 pm
Now the attitude matches the body! Great job accepting that numbers are just that, and that its what you think & feel that matters. Keep it going!