nic902’s BodyBlog

i’ve had a pretty busy weekend, so i am finally getting the chance to relax! yesterday, i went bathing suit shopping and ladies, we all know how fun that is! while it took hours and was quite an exhausting event…i actually came home with 2! so, that was a very productive shopping trip for the very first time in my life, i was soooo happy with what i looked like. i went with a friend of mine and normally i would never walk out of the dressing room but i walked right out and showed it off! i felt really comfortable in my own skin…FINALLY, for the first time in 25 years! now, what i really need is a tan…the pale look is not cute i am super excited to go to the beach this summer, i didnt go once last year!

my ankle, while feeling a bit better is still a little bothersome! i havent run in about a week and a half. i’ve been riding the bike at the gym or walking on an incline on my treadmill in the morning. this type of cardio is very easy on my ankle, the running is still too much impact i had to modify my leg workout as well, gotta give the leg press a break for a while. it really kills my leg so, i guess i finally came to my senses and i’m gonna give that a rest for a while. today was glutes/hams and i am already feeling it! i did wide stance squats, SLDL, glute kickbacks on the cables (OMFG!), bulgarian squats and seated leg curls (single leg). LOL…boy is my booty gonna be killin me tomarrow!

tonight i’ll be heading down to the ballpark, in the hopes that my phils can avoid a sweep! i havent been to a game they’ve won yet this year…so heres to eaton getting me my first win

btw…be sure to check out my newest progress pic! i was finally able to get a shot of my new vein—yippee! im so excited

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i was super tired last night, so i didnt have time to write about my latest updates. i finally took some new measurements and i’m very happy to say that i have made some progress! i think it has been about a month or so since i last took my measurements and made changes in my diet. i lost about 3 lbs and 1/2 an inch here, half inch there…not much but very encouraging! i know that i don’t have a lot of body fat to lose, so just seeing a small loss feels great! i’ve made a few little tweaks to my cardio and my diet, which is the reason i kicked down that damn wall i had hit even though to some, 3lbs and some small measurement changes may not sound like much…i think that i look the leanest i ever have (seeing new veins…yippeee!!!). i wanna be ripped!!!! so, i think i am on my way…dropping that bodyfat and keeping my muscles

as you can tell, i’m feeling a lot better than i was when i wrote my last blog. i’ve been feeling really down lately, life has just been getting to me but thats what makes bodyspace so awesome! i received some great support and its nice to know that people understand. thanks for all the encouragement and sorry if i was a downer   

there are people that eat right and exercise to stay/get healthy, i have a confession to make…that is not my primary reason. i am very vain and i want to look amazing! i want to LOVE what i see in the mirror…if i look good than i feel good. i never realized how much i NEED to workout…for my mental health. it seems that right now, when i am at they gym its the only time i feel happy. i am usually a very positive person, i dont let negativity get me down. for some reason lately life has just been kicking my ass. work has been incredibly stressful and my home life kinda has my head spinning, i’ve been having a lot of days where i just dont want to get out of bed, i dont want to see or talk to anyone. yet…when i get to the gym—its just me, my ipod and my weights. i get in my zone and my brain just shuts off. i don’t think about anything, it’s absolute heaven! i am not the type of person to whine and bitch about things, i used to beat myself up and wallow in self pity but i would never pour it onto the people around me, i always keep things bottled up. if you piss me off…i’ll be the first to let you know that i ain’t having it, but if i’m stuggling with personal weaknesses i NEVER let people in. (yet, i’ll blog about it online and let the whole world know!) i made so many changes in my life…i gave up on all negative thoughts, i dont stress on things that are beyond my control but for some reason the past few weeks i just can’t control my stress levels and negativity. no matter how hard i try to bring the postivity in, the negative thoughts just won’t stop…they are overwhelming! i am so happy that fitness is such a passion for me, the old me would have been depressed, stayed in bed and cried. now, i just go to the gym and i don’t think about anything…i’ve been having wicked workouts and my body looks and feels great but most importantly it truely helps my peice of mind. hopefully, putting this out there will help me cleanse all the shit out of my head and get myself back on the postitive track. out with the bad…in with the good it just goes to show that while training has many physical benefits, the mental strength it provides is terribly underrated. i guess until you really have the feeling of ‘needing’ it, you’ll never truely understand.

whew, i’m sorry for everyone that got brought down by reading that! but on a positive note, my phillies just beat the cubs…pat burrell for 08 MVP! oh yeah, my leg/ankle is still giving me trouble but it feels like its getting better (hey, maybe things are looking up!). now, me and brody are going to sunggle up with my heating pad and watch the rest of the games! 

the title says it all—yep, i’ve been working out on my bum leg. everyone that i have talked to says its a high ankle sprain and i need to rest. well, rest is not one of the things i love to do, so i just keep on training anyway. after my work out on friday, i layed down all day and night just icing it. saturday is my rest day, so that gave me some time to give it a break. since i iced it on friday, i went with heat on saturday. i took a motrin 600 before i went to bed and when i work up this morning —it felt great so i took 2 scoops of sp250 (usually i take 1), E/C and a motrin then went to the gym! i did sumo squats, SLDL, leg press (high/wide), bulgarian squats and single leg ham curls then wrapped up with a little abs and tossed in some cardio! i guess i pushed it a little too far with the cardio because my leg started killing me! all in all, i still feel like i got in a wicked workout—now i’m relaxing with my new best friend…my heating pad  

oh yeah…i was soooo excited! the other day i was getting dressed and when i was hooking my bra, i looked in the mirror and noticed a NEW vein! where you ask…in my abs, down by my hip—i was so giddy! you can only see it when i’m kinda twisting and arching my back in a nutty way…but i saw it, and thats all that matters! i tried to capture the moment but my camera wasnt cooperating its so much fun to see something new when i’m in the shower or getting dressed…for some reason, thats always when i notice! i’m so happy i can share my good news with everyone here, since everyone in my ‘real’ life looks at me like i’m freaking insane!!!

hope everyone had a great weekend…and maybe found a new vein or muscle you didnt know you had