nic902’s BodyBlog

i hate numbers….i always have my whole life. recently i have been having alot of trouble with my diet. with the advice from some great people on bb.com, i increased my calories from 1200 to 15-1600 a day (always clean). in the past month or so i’ve put on 7 lbs! im very upset about this…what little bit of definition i did have in my abs is gone (i always look bloated! and there are fat rolls when i sit!!!), and my jeans are getting snug in the waist and thigh areas. i cut out a little bit of carbs and lowered the calories to about 1400. i am also going to incorporate a re-feed day (16-1700), once a week, which i was not doing before.  i’m going to try this for a little while and see if i start making any progress.

the thing that always confuses me is how much calories i really do need. i’ve done all the differnt calculators online to figure out my BMR and stuff. according to the numbers online my BMR is 1343 but then when you have to factor in activity…how much do you factor….i did moderate 3-5 days/week. that says my maintence is 2082 calories and that for fat loss it would be 1580…but i ended up gaining weight…not losing.

these f-ing numbers drive me crazy…i wish it was just as simple as "do this and do that". all this figuring numbers drives me nutty!!!

if anyone can offer any words to help me better understand what a girl’s to do…i’d appreciate it!

i made i though my busy weekend…and i’m O.K.! i did the family thing on friday night and i had a small cheat…nothing overboard. i went to a wedding on saturday and i ate a little bit of everything…kept me satisifed and didnt over eat. the crazy thing is i dont ever cheat, so boy when i do i’m reminded why i dont do it…i felt horrible! not guilty or anything but i actually felt sick to my stomache! i didnt pig out or anything but i guess since my body isnt used to that kind of food, it gave me an upset stomache. so on sunday, for mothers day i treated my mom to a phillies game…being that i was back on track with my diet i packed my good food. i treated her to a burger and fries…me, i had tuna on whole wheat bread! i’m back to being a good girl. you would not believe the weird looks i got when i pulled a tuna sandwich out of my purse at a ball game! people look at ya like your crazy! well, i think they’re all crazy eating cheesesteaks, hot dogs…ect!

btw…so annoying when people get on my case about eating more (cake, pasta…ect). like why do they care!! and dont tell me i’m too skinny…i’m not and i think being too skinny is just as bad as saying im fat!

well…a nutty weekend…but i made it!

i have not posted in a while because i’ve had a lot going on…but here i am! i’ve been doing well with my diet and my training…i’m eating about 1500-1600 calories and training hard. i’ve stayed away from the scale…but it doesn’t  look like my body is changing at all. i dont know maybe its just me…but i feel like i’m gaining weight (fat!). when i’m working out, i love the way my body looks…i just wish it could look like that all the time! anywho…i have a busy weekend ahead of me. i have a wedding to go to on saturday, which i was going to use as my cheat meal…i havent had one since easter!!! but as it turns out i have to go to a family dinner thing friday night!! not too pleased about having two cheat meals in one week!!! i figure that if i still eat my meals the way i normally do and just have a little cheat…not over doing it i should be OK! i just wish it did’nt come at a time when im not feeling to great

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on an upside…i did get to go shopping for a new dress (nothing i had fit!!! woo hoo!!!) it’s strapless, which shows off my back, shoulders and arms! i always say "show off what you love, and hide what you hate"

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ok…enough of my pitty party! i’ve had a rough  week…needed to vent….can ya tell!