i’ve been a bad girl
this is my first blog…i decided to start one to help keep myself motivated and on the right track. so here it goes! i am normally very good with my diet. i eat clean…and rarely cheat. i dont allow "bad" foods in my house so there will be nothing to be tempted by…you cant cheat if there is no temptation…but today i went over my parents house and there was temptation everywhere. i walk in and am greeted by "oh theres some choco chunk brownies on the table" of course i wanted it but my head said "no, no, no" but after about an hour i gave in and ate some because as my mom puts it "oh your so crazy just have one, it not gonna kill ya…live a little" so i do and feel very guilty, mainly just disappointed in my self. i know eating one ****ing brownie aint gonna kill me but i work so hard (especially today…i had a great work out) and it just sucks when i slip up. im kind of a perfectionist so when i **** up on anything i pretty much beat up on my self…some say its a fault i say theres nothing wrong with expecting the best! i know im a lil crazy 
but i know i’ll be back on track and continue towards my goals!
February 2, 2007 at 7:39 pm
"Bad Girls" can be good.
Don’t beat yourself up over a cookie…or brownie for that matter. I understand how mom’s - loving as they are - just don’t comprehend that one brownie can snowball into a chocolate cake and a bucket of ice cream with a gallon of milk—-for a snack. ok, not that extreme. But let mom be mom…and you continue to make good decisions overall most of the time. [Btw. - my mom woke me up at 5am to feed me BBQ hamburgers , then I was back to sleep. I turned out ok.] Take Care. –Dawn Melanie
February 2, 2007 at 7:42 pm
wow…..i so agree with what dawn said above. you work towards your goals….and work hard. you aren’t eating brownies, chips, and fried chicken every night-so you are way ahead of the majority of the population of the United States. i am sure that you at least enjoyed the brownie? it wasn’t a total waste!!
keep up the good work….your pictures look great!
February 2, 2007 at 7:56 pm
thanks for your support, ladies…im working hard and its great to see that people understand…most people in my life think im "crazy and obsessed" .
February 2, 2007 at 9:21 pm
Be crazy! Be obsessed!
Damn the brownies!
February 9, 2007 at 8:24 am
I agree with everyone here. Being a perfectionist really helps when it comes to training. Im the same way; often I’ll finish a workout and not be satisfied. Im constantly trying to improve my routine. But you know, cheating every now and then is fine. I would go crazy without sweets and pizza. Balance is everything…