nic902’s BodyBlog

i’ve been practing posing for my competition…it’s not until october but i want to be perfect! i’m not very happy with these pics, aside from the bad lighting and shitty quality…i know i can do better, hell i know i have done better! i guess thats why they say practice makes perfect.

even though i’m not happy with the shots, i decided to post them in hopes of getting some feedback. please feel free to offer any suggestions on what changes i should make and remember…BE HONEST!!! i have thick skin…i can take it!

LOL~~is that a title or what??? it looks like i’m still making progress…up another pound today. i’ve gained 5 pounds total since may, now…i’m just hoping its 5 pounds OF MUSCLE—ok, maybe only 4 pounds i’m still feeling soft and squishy…only in the tummy but i know that when i cut back down again i’m going to look even better than before!!!!! i dont know if its the increase in calories or what but i’ve been having some wicked workouts…really pushing myself! i’m going to be posting some new pics sometime this weekend…since some people doubt my ’squishiness’ LOL—you know who you are!!!!

im taking another posing class on sunday…i need all the practice i can get! i do it in front of the mirror but its not the same…i dont have anyone i can practice in front of that knows what the hell they’re looking at :p i hope to post some posing pics too…need all the feed back i can get!

i’ve had a pretty crazy week but i’m FINALLY just chillin! brody…my little angel was sprayed by a skunk—OMFG it was horrible! he couldnt see, smelled awful and was very scared. now, he smells delicious and is back to his normal wacky self…and the odor has left my house as well now, after an exhausting week i’m going to watch the phillies game and relax…hopefully they stop playing like shit or else i wont do much relaxing

have a fabulous weekend—stay away from skunks…they are not so nice!

damn, my last post was so freaking depressing!!! i’m happy to say that has passed and i’m back to smiling again i weighed myself this morning and i’m up to 108.6 AND i know thats not fat!!! i’m feeling good and i know that i’m heading in the right direction to reach my goals! sure, i’m not as lean as i was a month ago but its part of the game and if i want to get my ass on stage than this is just part of journey…see, i told ya my brain came back!!! LOL 

my trainer was happy with my weight gain and he put together a new training split for me that i started today…YIPPEEE!!! i like mixing things up so i’m super pumped to kill my body in new and exciting ways! we also talked about a show in october, so it looks like that may be my stage debut…he says i can be ready and i always tend to doubt myself, but i have put all my trust him!

i’m not a sappy, emotional girl but i have to give big hugs and kisses to all my ‘friends’ here that helped to pick me up and dust me off when i’m feelin down. people in my real life dont understand…they just say i’m not fat, but people here really get where i’m coming from and i’ve been given so much great advice and support! so a big ~~THANKS~~ to you guys!!!!

**SMOOCHES**   

i’ve been having a really rough week….and its ONLY wednesday! i knew that gaining weight would not be an easy thing for me to do—mentally. I have cut out my cardio and increased my calories…all clean. hell, if i’m feeling a little extra hungry…i’ll eat a little more. for some reason this week has just been really tough on me. i havent weighed myself since last week, so i have no idea where my weight stands but i’m just feeling really "blah". i have been having a "fat" week if you will i’m not very happy with how soft my belly is right now…the abs, not as ripped as they were  i was insanely hungry tonight…so i ate, and ate and ate! LOL—the worse part (or the best depending on how you look at it) is that i ate oats…dry, just me…my tub of oats and a spoon! damn…it was good, but now my tummy is really not happy and i feel like crap! yes…i binged on oats :p i dont know why my hunger has been so out of contol this week. there has been a lot of stress in my life—much more than usual, so i dont know if that may be triggering things. all i know is that this is NOT how i want to gain!

i tried going to sleep earlier but i had to get this off my chest! now, i’m going to attempt to go to bed again—tomarrow is a new day!

happy sunday to all!! in my last blog, i was bummed about losing weight but in talking with my trainer today we’ve decided that my diet looks good so i won’t make any changes to it right now but i’m dropping the cardio. i had cut back, but i guess i’ve still been doing to much. now, i get to sleep in an extra 45 min every morning

today i went to my posing class for the first time! i was really nervous since i’ve never done this before…but i’m so glad that i went! it really helped with my shyness but i know i still have a long way to go! i was the only figure chick there…the others were bodybuilders, but they were so helpful and really friendly! i got a lot of 1-1 work with my trainer as well as a comp judge that was there…i’ve got a ton of practice ahead of me! learning the quarter turns and t-walk are hard enough, but doing it in hooker shoes…OMG! look, i may be a chick, but i’m not super girly. i prefer to not wear shoes at all…if i do i’m all about flip flops! i am going to have to LIVE in my comp shoes to look natural in them…right now, i walk like a dude–LOL  i had a wicked leg workout this morning, plus 2 hrs of posing…my body is going to be sore tomarrow

i made it home just in time to see the phillies lose and mets win…now, tied for 1st with a big series this week! oh yeah, i was one of the millions to see ‘the dark night’ this weekend…AMAZING film, if you havent see it yet…make sure you do! i cant wait to see it again!!!  anywho, i hope everyone had a fabulous weekend…its time for dinner, then i’m going to lay down and relax

yes i’m growling…dammit! i weighed myself this morning–the first time in 2 weeks and i lost 2 pounds!!!! so, now i’m back down to 105 pounds i had a great back and shoulder workout with my trainer today but he was not happy with my weight loss. it looks like my body adjusted to the increase in calories…my metabolism is on FREAKING FIRE!! its so funny that my whole life i struggled with losing weight and NEVER had a problem packing on the pounds—LOL! so, i’m going to increase the calories again this week, not just on my training days but on my rest days as well…hey muscles grow during rest right???

on sunday i am taking my first posing class!!! my trainer teaches it and we both think it would be a great idea for me to take it, as a start to getting over my stage fright. i’m nervous but very excited! if i’m ever going to get on a stage in front of a huge crowd…i have to first be able to do it in a room full of strangers  

my bf is out for the night, so my date with batman will have to wait for tomarrow! my dinner is almost done…so i’m going to eat, fold laundry, snuggle with brody and watch my phillies kick off the second half! LETS GO PHILS!!!!!!  

WOO HOO!!! i’m up another pound as of this morning…up to 107.5!!! it feels good to be making progress i want to keep the gains slow…super clean bulking! i worked out with my trainer this morning and he KILLED my legs…it was such fun it was the first time we worked out together since the show last weekend, so we talked a lot about my impressions of it ect…i went to pre-judging as well as the night show, so i had my favorites and i was really happy that all the chicks i liked placed in the top 3! it makes me feel like i have an idea of what the judges look for and more importantly what I want to look like! we talked a lot about my shyness and battling with wicked stage fright. i am a very wacky, loud and outgoing person in my daily life but the thought of getting on stage terrifies me! i sat and watched the chicks do their walks and get their trophys…i was so jealous! i WANT to be up there and i WANT a trophy…i cant let fear hold me back and my trainer insists that by the time i get on stage i will be 110% ready and confident to rock it and own it! boy i hope he’s right

today after my workout i went tanning real quick. so since i just worked out then tanned…my veins were insane and as i was walking out of the tanning salon there were 2 dudes hanging outside in the parking lot and i overheard them talking about me. they were talking about how ‘ripped’ i am…ect then the ones says "damn, look at her biceps…thats hot!" i guess a lot of chicks like the hooting and cat calling but i think thats really lame…compliment my muscles, makes me smile :p

no big BBQ plans for me today…i’ll be down at the phillies game! i have box seats for tonight, the start of a HUGE 4 games series with the mets…i’ll also be down there sunday too!!! should be a fun weekend—i hope the other people in the box dont mind my tuna  

i hope everyone has a safe and happy 4th of july!!!! 

to the east side…ok not really the east side…but the scale is movin’ on up (am i a dork or what???) i weighed in this morning for the first time in almost 2 weeks and i gained 2 pounds! i’m pretty happy about that, i want to keep my gains at a slow and steady pace…limiting as much fat gain as possible! i’m not going to make any changes to my diet this week, i’ll see next weekend where my weight is and make any tweaks i need to from there. its been about a month since i started my new diet and training program, after initially losing weight and worrying about the increase in calories i feel like i am on the right track. i cant wait to tell my trainer…he’s going to be so proud of me i need to take some new pictures sometime this weekend too…i have to admit the increase in food has me feeling a little soft, so i’m hoping the pictures will show an increase in muscle…not fat/water!

tomarrow i am attending my first figure competion. its an OCB show in delaware…i’m super excited! i’ve never been to a show before, so i’m looking forward to seeing the whole process of how everything is done…and what the girls look like, kind of a gauge of where i need to be. i’ll be sure to blog all about it!

now, i’m off–gotta go get an oil change and shocks for my car. big fun on my rockin friday…hope everyone has as much fun as i am

i LOST a freaking pound! i’ll tell ya…this gaining weight thing is trickier than i thought. i’ve increased my calories each week and managed to LOSE weight! i guess my metabolism is firing on all cylinders i’ve been having some hardcore workouts—i guess its all them carbs! this morning i had an awesome chest/bi/tri workout and my legs are still screaming from the killing i gave them yesterday! i’m going to bump up my calories yet again this week, in hopes of some progress…not that i mind, i quite enjoy getting my grub on

oh yeah—the other day i finally got the balls to submit some of my pics from my shoot to Oxygen for ‘future of fitness’. i’m sure they get thousands of submissions, so i have no expectations—just the fact that i now have the confidence to actually send them make me a winner! ~cheesy…i know!~

happy fathers day to all the dads out there…i hope everyone is being nice to their daddy today! normally, i take my dad to the phillies game, but they are on the road so i stopped by this morning to say hi and drop off his gift…he loved it

i’ve been doing really well with my new routine…my body is definately feeling it i have been slowly increasing my carbs, to help bump up them calories….gotta eat to grow! i weight myself on sunday mornings and after my first week of less cardio and more calories…i lost a few pounds! i guess my body is so hungry its just burning everything i eat! i met with my trainer again today and we did legs (killer!!)…and he wants me to keep bumping up my carbs/calories. i’m due for another weigh in this sunday…hopefully i havent lost anymore weight! my, oh my how times have changed….i NEVER thought i would be bummed about losing weight let alone actually trying to gain weight i have to say i am enjoying my carbs again….oats for breakfast…yummy! the more i eat…the more hungry i am, i just went on a crazy strawberry feast…damn they were delicious!!! of course i dont think strawberries are going to do any damage to the scale :p

looks like tomarrow will be another saturday at the gym i have to work til noon, then i have a baby shower to go to (i’d rather be doing anything else!!!), so i probably wont get to the gym til around 4-5 in the afternoon…hopefull everybody will be gone by then and i’ll have the place all to myself