newlyfe’s BodyBlog

I am so sore. But my competitive nature has driven me to return to the after work romps around the work gym in the morning with the rest of my staff, mostly guys showing off and women trying to start a program.  They entertain me.  I watch and listen but ignore really who is where and just work the routine.  At night, I have the room to myself and I can sing and dance to the MP3.  I wore it today and I think they got a very real look at how I work out.  I hope I did not sing loud and dance funny.  If so….oh well.   I was not really paying attention until I was signel to remove the ear plug when a woman said she was teasing the guys around me, "You got a girl in the bunch out lifting you!"  I was not really out lifting them but I was in the mix hogging my share of dumbbells.  Kinda easy to do as the ranking person in the room. ;0)

I don’t like weekday mornings because regular day people come in early and it becomes a crowded mess.  BUT  I have shoulders tomorrow and I can stay on this streak at least after the nights I work.  Cause I really do push harder and I need that.  I am seeing development in the lats during my back workout this morning.  It’s a beautiful thing. During yesterday’s workout, I finally can see the back side of the inverted V on my triceps.  Also a beautiful thing.

I think the timing is right to work this gym in the AM with 11 weeks to go.  Now it’s really defining a look.  I will keep the leg and butte workout for the night time and less people.  They don’t need to see their commanders bootie during the good mornings set.     

Peace  

I did a fundraiser bake sale last night at work……..I ran it and not one sweet touched my lips.  Then I got off work, trained my chest and tris and ran the treadmill.

I SO ROCK!!

A year ago I would have sampled a few things from the table. ;0D and came home and went to sleep.

Time for bed. Peace.

I think I had a blog with this title before.  Deja’vu……Well different confession.  I talk to myself (and answer).  I self talk and I analyze and coach myself.  Weird….I don’t care.  Some times the best supporter of self is self.

I was self talking myself through day 3 of cut.  I can do this.  I am more curious to see the results of continuous dedication to this.  I am thinking that I really may be a food addict?!  It has to be human nature.  If I get a thought of a craving (not sure if it’s a real craving, so I’ll just say thought) and I can not shake it.  So I’ll analyze it….is it a sweet item, salty item, could I be thirsty, what are the alternative options? What time is it, has it been 2.5 hours yet.  It’s a constant record. (CD for you youngin’s)

I’ll self talk the workouts and cardio too.  "Okay, you did 12 reps, up the weight…..5 more minutes, one more level up." I’ll dance the breaks and hit it again. I entertain myself.  

I guess my confession is I am my own self motivator.  I have gobs of you all, here and on facebook that are great examples for me to aspire to.  I’m talking my way to your levels…….

Peace my BB peeps.           

Okay, after last night’s Mid-Florida Competition, I believe I am under estimating the amount of weight I need to lose.  I am slim at 155-160.  Im 166 now.  I look thick in comparison to the competitors last night.  So we are not talking walking the street slim, we are talking walking the stage thin.  I got it….and now I’m a little worried.  I am talking about tilting the scale below 149.  HUUUUMMMM!  20 pounds in 12 weeks.  I’ve done it at the higher weight.

Had a great work out this morning.  Back and bi’s and cardio.  Stereo is not working at the work gym so I pulled out the MP3 and jammed to some old stuff.  Legs are still sore from Fridays work out.

I need to adjust the schedule and work in a second butt day.  I saw so many flabby buttes last night.  I also saw some women that did not know how to pose.  On stage is not the time to be shy and believe me……I’m scared. But my last 5 minutes of cool down on the treadmill is walking straight and tall.  Between sets, I strike poses. I see how bringing the arm back helps define the shoulder.  Practice, practice.  Yeah, Ima hit every show I can find and watch and learn.  I’m starting to see the same people, on stage and in the audience.  

So I’m setting new goals, readjusting the schedule and trying to get some progress here.

Peace and Happy Father’s Day to all the Pops Out there.                   
  

Wow, looking back on my pictures from Sept 08 and I looked thick and I was proud of that bit of accomplishment.  Guess I should be proud of each step which takes me closer to my goal. 

Cycling diet in a way that is working for me.  I drop the carbs on my work days.  It’s easier because I only eat what I carry to work, proteins and veggies.  Last night I was off, so I had wheat pasta for dinner.  Believe me, it’s a treat.  Later today, is a sweet potato and later a second on pasta.  I do cardio this morning and a leg workout.  Tonight is Zumba.  I still have oatmeal every morning.  Just got to where I cool it down alittle with chilled water.  I had, as always used skim milk.  Cutting alot of unintentional foods out, meaning if I have skim milk, I drink a glass not add it to another item.

I have been sleeping very well and long.  I can only attribute that to low carbs.  I even yawn at work and that is not normal for me. 

Each step of this process, I have to refine as I go, as most of you know.  You learn your body and how it responds to certain things.  I was examining to see what I believe at this point is the feature I am most proud.  I believe it’s my back.  I am a chronic back pain sufferer, believe it or not.  I feel some sort of pain pretty much everyday.  And yet, they are some of my best workouts.  I think I am more careful in the lifting out of fear, been flat on my back several times.  But on the flip side I am hoping to strengthen it so much that I can avoid those bad episodes.  The weight off definately helps.

Peace

Doin’ the happy dance.  This is the lowest weight I’ve been in 18 years, before my son was born.  LALALA….I’m so happy.  11 pounds to go.

I have to say I so need a padded bra now.  Need to create a little secret at Victoria’s.  Im down from 44 to a 36.   A little disheartening.   BUT I LIKE THE TRADE OFF LA LA LA!

You guys should see me….I’m dancing and typing.

Peace. 

I bought a food counter book today.  I have been dreading it, having to account for everything that goes in by the numbers but what is the point of knowing calories burned on cardio if you don’t know how much I ate.  Or if I’m getting the right amount of protien or too much carbs.  This has become so serious.  Next on the list is a food scale.  The only time I’ve ever considered the weight of food was if the lasagna pan was heavy.  You all know, the heavier that pan, the better.   I make a bang up lasagna…..not on the horizon, though. 

Found out on facebook that there is a new magazine coming out in the fall, Edge Hers Magazine.  It’s styled for figure and fitness competitors, so look for it…edgehersmag.com.

Did cardio today eliptical.  Went up to a level 12 during my high intensity and heart rate went over 170-180.  I felt fine but I do monitor the high numbers.  Late night tonight, it’s legs and glutes.  I told myself I want to feel 2 days of "it hurts to sit down" butt workout.  Let’s see of I can obtain that goal.       

Thank you to God for me being a middle aged, black and beautiful woman and giving me the energy to knock out every fly today and every tricep kick back and every pushup and for giving me my home so I can tear it up and rebuild it more beautiful as I am doing my body.  Thank you for allowing me to be an example to others especially my granddaughter.  This is all you.

Amen  

Well, new photos up. I still see thick thighs but upper body is coming along.  There is definately a difference from previous photos.  I’ll have to play around and try to get the side by sides.  Shoes are cute but not comfortable. Just like the posing, practice on the walking like crazy.   

Young lady from my gym did not win.  In fact, she was in my catagory, Masters Over 40 Tall.  Oh well. Better luck next time but hopely her win will not be against me.

I was sitting in the back, joint was super crowded, and I was people watching of course.  Mostly every women was ultra thin. I felt subconscious.  I did not want to move thinking I am so much bigger.  I had to go the bathroom, stepping over 2 ladies, 1 a past competitor. I ran in quckly to not lose my seat.  Ran right into a competitor checking herself in the mirror, thin, ugh!  I hit the stall, went and came out to the sink, soaped my hands and then looked up at the mirror…..I literally said, "Sh-t, you look good!"  I am still thinking with the fat girl brain.  No, I am not competition slim but I am slim and I honestly forget that.  I walked out of that restroom with a whole new swagger.

I am still disturbed that these women barely had hips.  I did note I am far to muscular for bikini.  Most of them were cute but had little definition.   

I’m taking notes.