I finally did it!
This may seem like a very small thing, but for me it was HUGE! I went to the gym today! I haven’t gone in years. I was terrified: terrified that everybody would stop and stare at me when I walked in because I’m so overweight. I was just plain old terrified. But, I went! I went I went I went!!! I spent the entire time trying not to look at myself in the mirror. This may not make any sense at all but I cried in the car after I left because I was working so hard at not thinking about how huge and ugly I felt. But I went-and I feel like I crossed a huge hurdle. I was hoping that there would be at least one person at the gym as big as me or bigger and when I walked in there was a lady on the recumbent bike who was bigger than me even and I wanted to run up to her and hug her and tell her that I loved her…but she would have probably not understood LMAO!!! It’s good that I curb some of my instincts out in public LOL!!!
My hubby came with me and he basically played trainer to me and set the weights and pointed at machines and said "do 12" or "do one more" and "yes you can". I love him!
I went!!!
:)
February 25, 2008 at 9:40 pm
CONGRATS TO YOU!!!
don’t ever worry about what someone else thinks of you..YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! Love yourself and don’t let others control your life or make you feel inferior. Keep at it girl..like your name says..NEVER QUIT!!! Go to that gym and walk in there like you Own it! ; )
Baby steps… babbbyy steps
I’m sure the people at the gym were happy to see you there, taking the steps in changing your life
February 25, 2008 at 9:41 pm
Congratulations! It’s the small steps that lead to success and you’re now on your way! Good luck with everything.
February 25, 2008 at 10:01 pm
Thank you for the support-it really really really REALLY helps!!
Marie
February 26, 2008 at 7:08 am
WannaGetLean said it very well. You are who you are and don’t ever be ashamed of that. No one can make you feel inferior unless you let them. Congrats though on overcoming your fears. That’s awesome!
February 26, 2008 at 11:44 am
that’s what I’m talking about, only never feel ashamed of how you are or where you have been be proud that it will lead you to where you want to go. Get your Husband to work with you so it is together time, remember love conquers all. And I am loving leave it is great to be home.
February 28, 2008 at 11:50 am
I understand your fear COMPLETELY! I am so proud of you that you went, AND worked out!! I’m glad your husband is helpling you, too!!! I hope you go back, together, and then eventually you can go by yourself!!!
I’ll bet tho, if you hugged that woman she would have known exactly what you were saying, even if she didn’t want to acknowledge it!
February 29, 2008 at 9:37 am
one day at a time..one step at a time..that is my secret…dont think about long term …small baby steps..it doesnt matter what other people think…they most likely dont think anything anyways….so good for you marie.
To have such a loving man ..you are truly blessed…