A Sai of relief
Woo Hoo!!! I feel frickin’ awesome! Why did I ever quit training??!! I stayed for the 3rd hour of karate tonight-the advanced class and it is SO awesome to be back! We did a weapons demo-traditional Okinawan and Japanese weapons, and I worked a bit before class and remembered my Sai kata, and demo’d with the black belts-that was frickin’ awesome! It’s all coming back to me, and Sensei Dan talked to me after class and said some really touching things to me-it about made me cry! He said that some people never finish anything, it’s as if something stops them just as they are about to finish a degree, or their black belt and he said to me, "you are not one of those people and it makes me so happy that you are here and I am so proud of you" WOW! I feel like I’m walking on clouds-I’ve got bruises again and I came home with my gi soaking wet-awesome! Once a week is NOT enough, so I’m going to go to Sam’s class on Friday-hey that’s tomorrow! He teaches at a local rec center on Tuesday and Friday at 7-unfortunately I have class on Tuesday at 7-so can’t do that -but I can do Friday. Hmm…2 days in a row, then 5 days with no karate-I’ll have to figure something out for those other days. My biggest goal right now is to get my conditioning back and be able to go full out without dying-and to lose weight because that will help my conditioning too. Sensei also said that he would talk to Shihan Demura and let him know that I’m training again, so that by the time he shows up for testing at the end of class, he will know and then I will start training at the main dojo again! I’ll have to figure out a way to pay for it…ack! Now that I have the time, I don’t have the money-but when I had the money-I didn’t have the time! I’m sure there is a life lesson in there somewhere LOL Anyway-Sensei Dan told me to wear my brown belt to class - so I’m right back at the front of the line and I’m the highest rank colored belt-I’ve GOT to work my ass off-what a phenomenal trust and opportunity he is giving me! My god I love my life! Sensei also said, that I deserved to be happy now, after all the hardship that I endured with the divorce and all, and then having almost my whole family dying last year-he said now it is MY time-and that I’m making my own happiness and finishing school and he knows that I am going to get my black belt. I WILL!
January 31, 2008 at 11:11 pm
A happy person - now that makes a nice change. Brilliant , good luck and with paying for it - where theres a will , theres a way! Thats what my old grandmother used to say