Oh my god I’m so sore!
You know, it didn’t really seem like I lifted very much…(famous last words) but I guess when one is this out of shape it really tears you up! My triceps (I’m assuming I have triceps underneath all the fat) hurt so bad that I can’t bend my arm all the way?! I didn’t even work triceps! I did do bench press but it wasn’t a narrow grip-if I remember correctly I think the narrow grip targets the triceps more… I’ve been spending so much time on this site reading everything that I can and I’m pretty much on brain overload now. I’ve always been a fan of KISS (keep it simple stupid) so I’ll stick to what seems to not overwhelm me: take in less calories than I burn. Every time I go on this site and see my pictures I think what the hell have I done?! I posted pictures of myself with all the fat just hanging out for everyone to see-WTF was I thinking?! I found the forums yesterday thanks to Miss Marvel Comic Girl (Woo Woo!) and talk about brain overload. I just tried to find all the "post its" for newbies and such and looked for anything that referred to fat loss. It’s a real constant struggle not to take down all my pics and just disappear. The irony is that I’ve only received positive and motivating feed back-the only person being down on myself is me! Oh-and if anybody is actually reading this-it’s basically just my brain barfing on the page-total mental rant is all! Sorry! I don’t feel good today either-I woke up with a cold and I have a rehearsal tonight. It’s really frickin hard to play a wind instrument when my whole head is all stuffed up! I guess working out outside last night maybe had something to do with it-or maybe not-who knows. My hubby keeps bugging me to go to the gym but I simply can’t face it yet. My self esteem has dropped so low and I’m so self conscious that it is difficult for me to even leave the house sometimes. It really is. I can’t believe how sore I am! While reading through the forums I noticed a whole bunch of acronyms that I didn’t understand: HIIT, DOMS, and tons of different diet names. The diets don’t help me much because I’m a vegetarian. Most of what I eat has protein in it-usually tofu or something-I’m not going to stress about it because before I started writing down what I eat I’m sure I could have easily put away 3,000 calories or more. (Anybody who thinks vegetarians are always skinny has obviously never heard of CHOCOLATE LMAO!!) When I was training regularly and competing in tournaments I was writing down what I ate too, and my goal was just to make sure that everything I chose had something good for me-was actively healthy. My friends called it my dirt and treebark diet LOl because the wierder it was the more I liked it: wheatgrass juice and strange vegetables and roots that nobody had ever heard of. I lived at Trader Joe’s and Mother’s Market most of the time haha. I liked how I felt when I did that and I liked that I could eat whatever I wanted to-if I wanted chocolate than I simply wrote it down and the thing was, I almost always chose not to. My biggest, fastest weight gains were always when I tried a "diet" that said I had to eat this and not this. As soon as I felt deprived or restricted and without choices I ended up binging big time. So this works for me, it’s just that I want to lose it all NOW 
but, as everybody keeps telling me, it took me a long time to put it on and it will take a long time to take it off. so here’s what I’ve eaten so far today:
1 cup Trader Joe’s O’s
1/2 cup organic soy milk
2 cups English breakfast tea w 2 tbsp non fat creamer 50/0
1 cup snap beans, 5 large green onions, 2 tbsp organic blue cheese dressing
1/4 cup almonds
December 19, 2007 at 2:31 pm
Marie,
You have taken the first step to breaking the sad cycle of self ass whooping! Like you said… the one that is hardest on you is yourself. When I look at your pictures.. I dont see fat everywhere…. I see a woman having the strength to take control of her life again. Not a easy thing to do…. not as easy as closing shop and running away….. but the rewards are so much greater! Keep on keeping on!
Real Men Have Mass!
December 19, 2007 at 11:41 pm
Aww Marie what did I tell you about that negative attitude? You gotta kick its butt
. You are making progress girl!
Aaahhh the forums can be a bit of a brain overload! When I first went there I didn’t know where to start @_@ When I started a journal I mostly took to just that thread and then slowly moved onto other ones as well to see how people were doing and such. I’m still learning them too but HIIT is High Intsensity Interval Training for cardio training. A good example of it would be walking for 30 seconds then run for 30 seconds back and forth for about 5-10mins and then increase over time.
I laughed about the vegetarian comment lol. My one coworker is one and his diet has powderdonuts and chocolate all the time (though he is so skinny and burns it like nothing, no fair).
I agree with ninjabill! There is much great rewards in the future, just keep on pressing towards them and you will be happy you did
December 20, 2007 at 6:43 am
I think the important thing is you’re at least doing something!!! I always say do something even if it’s wrong…at least you’re up and moving around!!! LOL!! This stuff really isn’t rocket science…like you said…you burn more than you take in and you exercise!!! Pretty simple stuff!!! You’re on the right track…just keep on keeping on and you’ll reach your goals!!
December 20, 2007 at 3:04 pm
hey, heres one for ya don’t think of it as a diet eat what you want just watch the protions. A vegetarian just means no animal fats but there is sugars and starches in veggies and pasta. Lean to figure out how to have complete proteins in your meals. that will help with the meals. The rewards will come from day one you may not see it but look in the mirror you’ll see it in your eyes and face how you feel much better. Also don’t worry aboutall of the different programs find the things that work for you. Always stretch inbetween sets and find a sauna to sit in after your workouts it helps with muscle sorness. Hydrate with water always it helps with appetite control.
December 20, 2007 at 3:09 pm
remember that compound exercises work the entire area, such as Bench press works the triceps , front deltoid, and the pecs, barbell rows work rear deltoids, biceps and Lats. Squats work the whole lower body includind the abs and lower back. Get the mind in the muscle connection and everything will come it takes time for your mind and body to adjust to your workouts. If your sore the following day stretch and have a massage it will help.
December 20, 2007 at 3:27 pm
As always you are a plethora of information Mr. Rich! I’ve been drinking at least 2 liters of water a day-usually more! Thanks everyone for your input
I really appreciate it!