12-8-07
food log
1 cup veg soup w/ veggie chk strips 150/3
1 cup veg soup w/veggie chk strips 150/3
18 triscuits 360/13.5
cut fruit 150
5 slices chs 456/32
1 1/2 cups martinelli’s sparkling cranberry 160/0
total calories in: 1426 calories burned 1500
Well, it wasn’t a great day food wise but at least I logged what I wrote, rather than sitting down and eating the whole box. I’m not going to beat myself up for the cheese because I’ve certainly done worse than that with pizza and blue cheese dressing and ice cream! I suppose if I was a vegan I wouldn’t have this problem but, can’t quite do it! I’m a little sore today but not as bad as I thought I would be. I think I’ll go with the split routine instead of full body and tomorrow I’ll do legs 
I received a comment about my negative words about myself and absolutely correct! I wouldn’t say or think that about anybody else, so why about myself? I’m so much harder on myself! I don’t think that is terribly uncommon, but it does cause me great pain so when my inner critic starts in, I’ll do a paradigm shift and think if I would say that about another person. No I wouldn’t. And what do I say or think about other people who are trying to lose fat like me? I think the world of them, I think they are brave, courageous, wonderful, beautiful people. I want to help them feel good about themselves and encourage them. I need to do this to myself!!! I need to give myself credit where credit is due! It is incredibly difficult to face one’s demons head on, and to show the world the struggle-and I’m doing that! I’m doing it and it’s not the easy way-it would be much nicer to hide my head back down and not try-but that is not me…because I WON’T QUIT DAMN IT!
:)
