12-9-07
The last two days have been crazy busy. Yesterday I ended up not eating anything until about 7:00 at night and today was the same! I need to buy some protein bars and keep them in my car or something. I can’t wait until I can put a new picture up and I hope to god that I see some improvement. I know that it’s only been a few days, but I figure I’ve been eating thousands of calories a day for years, and now it’s been under 2,000 for 4 whole days…seems like (I hope) that I should at least be able to reach my weekly goal of 1 pound lost! Oh! There’s that word…that evil word…should! I should do this I should be better I should I should….that’s my negative inner critic haranguing me again. How about, Whether or not I lose a pound, I’m going to continue to make changes to feel better physically and mentally! Sensei told us about the stonecutter, who tapped the stone with his chisel 99 times and on the 100th tap it split cleanly in two. It wasn’t the 100th tap that was so special, it was the 99 taps preceding it. So, to apply this to me-even if I don’t see any physical change or change on the scale or tape measure, there are changes going on both mentally and physically that may not be seen for a while. I reforming new habits and breaking old ones. I’m actually thinking about myself for a change, and focusing on my health and this is a good good thing! And I’m in the company of an incredibly supportive group of people. The encouragement that I’ve received from so many of you is really motivating and touching.
food log
3 cups home made veggie soup 300 cal/3 fat
1 diet soba drink
1 slice sourdough bread 150/1.5
December 9, 2007 at 7:07 pm
hey girl, keep your head up! its a long journey and some days are better than others but keep eating clean and training hard and you’ll achieve all your goals