mytam302’s BodyBlog

A ‘thoughtful’ coworker just put an assortment of dunkin donuts on the bin across from for all to enjoy…..  I opted for my meal 2-Protein shake and carrots. Great workout this morning, my body is loving how i nuture and challenge it. No cravings for simple carbs here; my body is satisfied.  Bad habit, I’m gonna break you.  My goal has greater purpose than this moment of self gratification.  My desire for my next healthy meal is over whelming! Woohoo, go Tammy! go Tammy! go Tammy!

It’s good to be back from vacation.  Went to CN, DC, NY for a family reunion.  The family was nice and not food pushers.  I really, really tried to pack low carb wraps with tuna, fresh veggies, fruit, protein shakes and opted for salads when going to fast food restaurants… it did not last tooo long.  Especially at the cookout when there was food every 2 ½ hrs. Ribs, hot dogs, tacos, potato salad, pastries, clam chowder, cake, pasta salad, chips, fried chicken, fried fish, etc, I can go on and on.  I did my best, oh well.  I did opt to go low carb prior to vacation however my carb spike lasted 3 days straight because of the food choices I made based on what was available.   I did get a chance to workout once however.  My supplements were off schedule as well.  So I just decided to focus on enjoying the family and fixing things when I got home.  I still haven’t weighed myself.  I don’t think I gained more than 2 lbs however I know I had a setback.   I’m glad to be home and back on schedule.

  My body is on an automatic time clock.  I wake up between 5:30 am and 6:00 am regardless of the time I go to sleep.  Last night I went to bed at 10pm so that I could get 7-8 hrs of sleep. Refreshed but still half awake, I got out of bed to go to the bathroom and as I walked across the bedroom with sleep still in my eyes, I glanced in the mirror.  For a brief moment, I saw her.  She was healthy, muscular, 30 lbs lighter.  Her belly did not have rolls, her thighs did not rub together, her stomach didn’t rest in her lap when she sat down and her body shaper didn’t roll up her belly because she didn’t have to wear one.  She no longer got frustrated when looking at a Victoria Secrets catalogue because now she can order something cute and sexy instead of squeezing into VS XXL only to have fat ooze out the sides of the cute and sexy clothes.  Her self-esteem was high and she no longer made excuses for being ‘big boned’ or ‘full figured’.  She was comfortable in her own skin not wanting to be like anyone but herself.  Her body was hot and her attitude was sexy and she knew it.   That’s her; I want her; the more beautiful woman inside of me.

As of today, I have reached my goal of 3 lbs for the week.  I’m still eating 5-6 meals a day based on a version of Michael Thurmond 6 week body make over.  My body type is meso-endo where I can retain muscles, however my metabolism is not fast enough to keep the fat under control.  I don’t follow the program exactly because I work out a lot and the food doesn’t really sustain my levels of workout. 
This week was a good workout week for me.  I worked out ever day Sun-Friday.  Some days I didn’t want to get up but I made a promise to myself and went anyway.  Thurs and Friday I got to work a little late because I didn’t want to leave the gym.  Also on Friday I had a very stressful day at work.  My food addiction demon beckoned me to indulge in something; wine, chocolate, chips, bun-buns, etc.  IMy heart started racing and my breaths got short and I started to hyperventilate  but caught myself by taking a few deep breaths and tried to center (learned from yoga).  Once I centered, I acknowledged the stress I was feeling for the moment, as well as my food addiction demon and how fat he was making me.  I however chose a different route to deal with my difficult moment. 
I asked myself, what would my friends on bb.com do?  Answer: The serious ones probably would go to the gym, drink an energy drink and work really hard.  The others would grab something healthy and workout and clear they minds.  (I really don’t know but in my mind that is what I think).  I chose to do what came to me. 
I went home, looked in the fridge only to realize I had several healthy choices of food ready for me to pick and choose.  I was glad but a little disappointed that last week I threw out the perfectly good foods that were making me grandmamma fat like the chips, chocolate, bread, ice cream.   I opted for 4 oz of chicken breast, and 1 medium cucumber.  Then I packed a gym bag and took the scenic route to the gym.  Once there I did 20 mins on the treadmill.  Then I tried 3 reps of 3 new leg exercises (I don’t know what it was but I tried it as a newbie).  Afterwards I did another 20 mins on the elliptical machine.  I was feeling it then since I had already worked out that morning.  When I finished, I changed clothes and sat in the steam room as well as enjoy the jets in the whirlpool massage the small of my back.  Before I knew it, 2 hrs passed and now my life was in perspective again to the point that I almost forgot what I was stressed about.  I’m so glad that I did not deny myself to feel the stress as well I was glad to be honest with myself about my food addition demons so that I could find a better solution- the gym saved my life.      

Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I will own everything I eat, everything I drink, everything I do, and everything I say.  Thank you Annette for sharing this site with me. I’m putting myself out there and I want to see the results as so many others have experienced. 

My eating program includes 6 small meals a day watching my complex carbs and proteins.  I work out 6 days a week.  During workout, I keep my heart rate between 120-146 to burn fat.  I use circuit training and focus on my heart rate with the reps and weights.  I am focused on buring fat and toning more so than bulking up right now.  So far I’ve dropped 6 pounds in 10 days.  A realistic goal is 2-3 lbs a week.