mrmusclepants’s BodyBlog

I’ve always been the "little guy" my entire life and I’ve always hated my body. Everybody I work with is at least three inches taller and 50 pounds heavier than me.  It took me until I was about 16 to break 5′6", and at that time I only weighed about 110 pounds. Even when I dedicated 100% to bodybuilding all day, every day, I just didn’t have the genetic cooperation to ever pack on any significant weight at all. A few years ago I went all out for 2 full months to try and gain some weight and size. I was sleeping normal hours and getting plenty of rest every day,  taking in a MINIMUM daily intake of 6000 calories from lean proteins, mostly-unsaturated fat sources, complex carbs, fruits, and vegetables, while using whey protein and simple/high GI carbs immediately after workouts, supplementing with creatine, NO2, BCAA, Glutamine, Casein, Whey, weight gainers, testosterone boosters, multivitamins, ecdysterone, TONS of water, lifting 4-6 days a week with heavy, low-rep, mass building exercises with perfect form…. you name it. I started at 146 pounds and at the end of the 60 days I was only at 150Lbs. Within literally 7 days I was at 145Lbs and had BARELY increased my strength in any area. Anyway, the reason I decided to start that balls to the wall training program was because, as I stated before, I’ve always hated my body. Recently though, within the last 2-3 months anyway, I’ve really started to accept my body and feel truly comfortable with myself. Even when I started taking shirtless photos and all that crap a few years ago, I never really felt very confident that I actually had an OK body. I still realize that I am small and there are TONS of people out there my size with much better physiques, but for the first time ever I feel like I can look in the mirror with confidence at what I’ve done with the genetic cards I was dealt. I will continue to stick to my supplement, diet, and exercise regiments, but I’m in a place mentally now that I don’t feel driven or self-pressured to try and drastically change. I of course still have my goals and dreams of massive gains in weight and size , but they’ve now taken a back seat to my satisfaction of what I’ve already done to improve my physique. I’ll never be complacent with my body, but right now I definitely feel mostly-satisfied and proud of what I’ve been able to do. Don’t ever let anyone tell you your BB dreams or hopes are stupid or will never happen. If you’re truly passionate about something, stick to your guns and surround yourself in the world you hope to enter. Even the guy that truly dreamed of becoming a major league ball player, but maybe didn’t have the talent or genetics, still goes to a game now and then. (hope that makes sense. It does in my head but I don’t know how it’ll sound for you to read it). Thanks for reading and hopefully I’ll see you on the circuit some day.

-Brian

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