mrdead’s BodyBlog

My wife and I were having a conversation the other day. Just going over the things I needed for my show, and what I want to accomplish by my next one. And, I started thinking…

Let’s  see here… I’ve got my Venus razor, my Bikini Zone cream, my nail polish, my pumice stone for my feet, I’ve had to wear pantyhose to keep my thighs from rubbing together during long bouts of cardio. I’ve shaved all of my body, aside from head, eyebrows, and parts unknown… I want my chest to be bigger, I want this "pooch" in my tummy to go away… I’m retaining water… I’m  cramping… Holy Crap! Let’s just get me some feminine hygeine products, while we’re at it (Just in case I start having periods…)

During this treck, I have bought things for myself that I would never ever REMOTELY even thought I’d be buying for myself… (Aside from the nail polish, since I was in a band, and sometimes during faster songs, technique goes out the window, and you can wear a hole in your nail… But, anyhow) But it has been an extemely educational process. I now know what the other half goes through, to look her best. I’ve learned not to ask if I look fat, because I really don’t want to actually hear the answer. I’ve had envy of another person’s chest and waist. I’ve never really had a sweet tooth, but dammit, I want chocolate!!!!

If only I had worked harder in the gym. If only I had watched my diet more. If only I had started training earlier. If only I had taken this supplement. If only I had taken that advice. If only I had more time. If only I had more money. If only I had done this, that, the other, and had more of this, that, and the other. Rampant "if only" thoughts  have gone through my mind, as of late. But, reality is what it is. And, instead of wasting time with "if only", I’m focusing on the reality. Nothing can change what has been done, or not done, eaten, not eaten, etc… So, I’m focusing on being the best version of myself that I can bring out, at this moment and time. I’ve done a lot, made a lot of changes, made a lot of improvements. I’m NOT going to worry about where and how I would like to be come contest time. I’m going to bust my ass, follow what I’ve been told, and bring what I have to the show. This is all a learning process, and with this being my first show, a lot of learning has been done. A lot of learning is still needing to be done. That said, I’m not wasting my time on negativity and worry. Time to have some fun with this thing, and learn for next year!

On, to last night’s workout. LEGS, LEGS, LEGS.

Warm-up of leg extensions: 4 sets of 20 (105 lbs)

Leg press machine: 1 set of 20 (180) 1 set of 15 (220) 1 set of 10 (260) 1 set of 10 (Stack)

Leg press (Plate loaded) sets done as above, finishing with 6 plates per side

Leg extension: 1 set of 20 (105) 1 set of 15 (120) 1 set of 10 (135) 1 set of 10 (180) 1 set of 100 (Yes 100, with 60)

Hamstring curls 4 sets of 10

Seated hamstring curls 4 sets of 10

Calf machine raises 5 sets of 14 with the machine’s stack (395)

I hit the scale this morning, and it greeted me with a number that I have not seen in a looonnnggg time. The number was 183.0. Talk about a great way to start the day. After I got to work, though, I peeked in at my wife’s Bodyspace, and noticed a comment that kind of ticked me off, at first. Now, with all this contest prep, I’m irritable, grouchy, touchy, not my usual mental self, and all that. So, when I see a message from another guy to my wife, telling her that she has beautiful eyes, and love and kisses, I can get extremely irate. But, I stepped back, and figured I can do one of two things. One, I can leave a childish message on his page, saying not very nice things, or… I can just take it as a complement to her, and my excellent taste, leave it alone and have a nice day. So, I put on my "Big Boy-Grown Up Pants", took it as a complement, and am in a good place. (Yay for me!   )

So, last night was cardio and posing. Nothing exciting to report, there. Had my tilapia for dinner, and went off to sleepy-bye nite-nite land. Tonight is legs and abs and cardio and posing and 10×10’s and… *L* But, anyhow, I’m looking forward to the date of my show, and will do my best to bring my best!