mquang’s BodyBlog

While driving home today, a thought in my head, that little annoying voice said to me “Quang, you didn’t push yourself hard enough.”  I hate that voice, but it true, lately, I am just there in the gym not really pushing myself like how I used to.  I don’t know why, but I do know that if I continue to do 1/2 a$$ job training, I’ll produce 1/2 a$$ result.  Therefore, tomorrow, I promised myself to push myself a bit harder then today.

I just felt like this month is going to fly by quick…can’t believe my birthday is coming up in November, and I want to look good.  Going to stay focus focus focus.  Passed by two boxes of Dunkin Donut at the office, but didn’t have any…so proud of myself.  My coworker did, the one that kept complaining why eating healthy and exercise do not help, sighhhhh…

Yesterday, the weather was nice, walking around town, and dinning out were fun.  Met up with a few friends I haven’t seen for months or maybe a year and like expected, they were shocked, and asked how much weight did I lost and how I did it.  I was told I have great legs, calves?  Where? these Chicken Legs of mine you meant?.  I was asked "Are you a runner?".  I did train Legs on Saturday, a combinations of Press, Lunges (I hate doing dumbbell lunges), Squat, then Hack Squat, Extension, and I was sore from Saturday to Sunday’s night.  One of my friends been working out for years, yet, he still look the same, he still dining out frequently, and drinking, maybe those are reasons in my opinion.  It would be much easier to make small sacrifice daily by consuming healthy foods, then to look at yourself and realized, all hard work at the gym didn’t pay off, because of bad eating habits.  With that in mind, I’m going to stay focus in choosing my foods wisely, while being consistent and improving my workout building the body that I deserve.

I decided to stop focusing and holding on to the past but  instead concentrating on the future.  What an emotional journey within these past few days, in a way, it does affect my training and eating habits, simply because I didn’t care.  But those "how training going" lines from friends on bb.com, helped me get back on track.  And today, my workout totally ROCK, felt great pump pumps on my legs.  I learned how to do DeadLift today, it felt weird, I have to do more to get the form correct and right now I’m just using lightweight until I get the form right, then I’ll rock it.  I am also loading Creatines.

Tomorrow, I am going to a pinic, and I’ll see some old friends I haven’t seen since last year.  They’re going to be shocked   Looking forward to see shocked on their face and am open to receive their questions and positive feed backs…YES!  One day closer to achieving the body I deserve!

Yesterday, I received an e-mail, and was told "I don’t think we can go beyond friendship".  It hurts, I felt dizzy just by reading words in the e-mail addressed to me.  To be honest, the first thought that hit me was "Is there something wrong with me?, Have I done something wrong to not have this relationship".  But then, I remembered I once heard that "things do not have meaning except the meaning we give it", the meaning of this relationship is for me to growth, to create a sense of love within me so strong that I no longer ask others for it.  I believe you cannot give what you don’t have.  You can’t love someone if you don’t actually have the love for yourself.   I asked myself, How can I create this love for myself?  Well, how do you show someone you love them? and the answer is you want to be with that person, you spend time on that person, you want the best for that person, you take care of that person.  With that in mind, I am going to spend time on me, to take care of me, to take care of my health, and my body, to fuel my body correctly…to be the best that I can possibly be. =)