Hard Work = Success

Ok… I have to learn to keep things consistent. Now I have lost the total of 20 pounds within the 2 years.  Unfortunately, my weight has gone up & down within the months.  I know I have buildt muscle but not necessarily lost the fat.  I want to be lean but it’s been very difficult especially keeping up with my diet.  I’ve decided to go back with my original nutritionist who I have worked with at the end of last year.   He will also be my trainer. NOW it’s all up to me to follow through the plans. As I mentioned in a previous blog..I can see the image of what I would like to be…now the hard job is to atain it!!!!

Orginally I thought well maybe I should just be happy of where I’m at..but seriously I am not happy..I can be so much more!     I am capable and I will be successful. It has to be that way. GO FORWARD WITH STRENGTH & WILL POWER!!!

OK. There are times I would like to cancel my bodyspace account because I come across bizarre people!  I mean WEIRD! The other day someone PM me and asked if I had any special pics of my painted toenails. WTF is that all about??!!!!!!

I start  a new job Monday and so my future looks bright! I will get back into my fitness routine very soon. I need to push it further. I am also excited about having a friend of mine join bodyspace. She is also going to help me record my fitness training with videos. That is going to be so exciting!!! So I will make sure to let you know when I post the new vids!!! :)

For some odd reason I feel so stressed out at work. Not sure why since it’s slow. I feel like running today, in fact I want to run miles. Then I thought, when I start my new job & when school starts up again…I’m going to see less of my kids. Ok..now I know Why I’m stressed..I’m thinking way too much. I would rather workout every day, every hour and get paid…but that is not going to happen. Another reason why I’m gloomy is I am not seeing too much more results..hmm I wonder why,, less time training.. diet not so good???

I honestly can see where I would like to be physically! I’m disappointed I haven’t pushed myself a little further to get to that point. Lately, it seems it’s taking forever not very attainable. BUT it is!!! I need to work harder & not be such a wimp!!!!  I want to burn this disgusting FAT off my body and see these muscles I have been working on! 

oh yeah!!! I got the job!!!!! I am so happy! I finally found a job where I am so passionate about. Now it’s time to get serious!!! I am honored to be the voice of many.

BTW. I have to say what I found very interesting during my interview is that my interest in fitness & eating healthy was big mention.  I had questions about stress and how I relieve my stresses. FITNESS & DIET was mentioned highly. I talked about how passionate I felt about keeping myself healthy & strong.  oh yeah!

I’m debating about taking a weight supplement. Ever since the scare with Hydroxycut, I’ve stopped taking any sort of weight supplement. Now it seems I have to work harder to get lean. Unfortunately, since I stopped taking Hydrooxycut, I notice I’ve put on some pounds, especially in parts where I had lost. E.g. arms, mid section, back.

All this crap is making me upset, lol! But anyway….don’t worry I’m going to still work on this.  I havent’ given up.  BUT i’m craving some extra help!!!!