Molly’s BodyBlog

Today is the last day of my 12 days of Christmas eating and slacking off! Yes, it’s been that many days but I’m hitting it hard as of tomorrow and there’s no stopping me til I get to my goals… by JUNE!!

 Anyway, Merry Christmas!

I was thinking the other night about how long I have basically had the same general goal: "To Tone Up".

I even remember sitting in the middle school library making a list of all the ways life would be better if I lost weight… then in high school English class… telling a good friend of mine that I was going to "really hit the gym and tone up"… back then I didn’t really know what that meant but at the time to me it meant crash diet and lots of cardio to see a lower number on the scale.

To be honest, my quest for a better body has  not always been the healthiest journey… While I’ve never had a diagnosed eating disorder, I could definately say I’ve been pretty obsessed with getting in shape but never obsessed enough to put the real work into it.  I’m doing things differently this time. I am older and wiser about what it takes. I’m trying to not be so hard on myself but still put a healthy amount of pressure on myself in order to get things done.

But one thing hasn’t really changed. Besides Bodybuiliding.com BodySpace friends, I’m really in this on my own. I have friends that go to the gym or are on Weight Watchers but it always seems like when things get hard then they quit. I don’t want to quit. I don’t want to be one of those people that never accomplishes their goals. The people who just sit around talking about what they could do "if only". I want to be one who actually gets off my ass and makes things happen for myself. It’s takes so much patience to see the results that I expect for myself. Some would say those expectations are too high. Many would say… "hey, you’re getting older…. you’ve had TWINS…. you’re too busy to put this as a priority." It’s like people want to give me an excuse to not take care of myself. Well, thanks but no thanks. I have plenty of excuse but I would rather find solutions to those things.

I have a wall of quotes in my bathroom… someday I’ll post them all here because they really represent this journey that I’m on. But one I just wrote yesterday was "I love being a mom of 3, I just don’t want to look like one!" I guess by that I mean so many girls with lots of kids and a full time job and a busy life, let themselves go… they don’t put their own health as a priority… and the results are not good. I’m fighting against that right now. I refuse to be a TIRED AND FRUMPY WIFE AND MAMA OF 3!!

I will look better in my 30s than I did in my 20s. I promise you that!!

It’s really easy for me to get back into my comfort zone of doing tons of cardio and lose focus of my overall goals. So this week I plan to get back into a consistent weight training routine after taking a couple weeks off.

Last night I did upper body. I will post my workout later because I really want some feedback on what I’m doing. I feel clueless sometimes and I think that’s why I go back to running the treadmill.