Molly’s BodyBlog

I was reading a post on the message boards yesterday about the option of an online trainer… there were some links recommending good ones but I was thinking if I went this route I would want a female. I’m wondering if this would be a good option for me? Obviously there are some down sides to it but what are the pros and cons? Just thinking about it….

Let’s see… I stayed in control of my eating this weekend, journaled eveything I put in my mouth and I worked out Fri, Sat and Sun…. and I ended up with a weight loss again this morning… Monday Morning Weight Loss?! How can that be?! I sure felt a heck of a lot better this morning knowing that I had the will power to make healthy decisions all weekend. Passing up pizza and getting my butt off the couch was hard at the moment but those moments paid off when I realized I’m closer to my goals this morning.

Right now at the gym I have been focusing on cardio because I’m just trying to burn this fat. I know in the whole scheme of things that muscle burns fat but how will I have ever see my muscles with the layer of fat I have going on right now? Back in July before I went back to work I was able to do my weight training routine and 30 minutes of cardio but now I haven’t had as much time to spend at the gym so I try to use my time wisely and get the cardio done. My plan is once I lose 10 more pounds I will focus on my weight training again. I’m running 3 miles or walking 4-5 at a 14 min mile pace at an incline so doesn’t that build muscle as well? I guess I will see when I get my Body Fat measured again on October 12.

I’m definately focused on that day October 12 when I have to face the guy who does my body composition testing. I want to see the % go down as well as the scale. I know better than to just care about the number on the scale but it’s difficult to not get obsessed with that. I’m also planning to do my 4mos Progress pictures and measurements that same weekend. All of these things give me an overall picture of the progress that I’m making. And it’s worth the money, time and effort I put into doing each thing.

I’m thinking about hiring a trainer in November as my birthday present to myself. The thing is… I really can’t afford to meet with one every week. So I’m wondering if I only saw her 2 times a month and then followed the weight training plan she put me on by myself all the other days… would this be worth it? It costs about $60/hour at my gym.

Anyway, if you’ve read this far… thanks for caring and for your support. My journey is just that… MY journey but every ounce of encouragement I get from others who have already had success helps me along the way.

Later.

When I get on this website everyday I am mesmerized by the success and transformation stories of other people… especially women over 30. Women who went from out of shape house wives to strong, fit women on the stage. They are beautiful. And I’m not only talking about on the outside. Sure, everyone knows they are beautiful on the outside but on the inside they are remarkable women. To have the dedication to accomplish what they have accomplished is amazing. Even if they’ve never won a competition. Just the fact they built up the courage to get on the stage… or to schedule that photo shoot…. or to get in that bikini/dress/pair of jeans they always envisioned themselves wearing and feeling attractive. Do they wake up everyday and truly realize that they are role models? Not just to me but to other women as well as little girls who will grow up and think about what it takes to accomplish their dreams?

I ran a marathon ONCE. But when I was training and things got really hard I got online and looked at all the pictures of people crossing the finish line. At that time I asked myself… do I have what it takes to live that dream? What makes those people any different than me? When I finally was the one who was a "finisher" did I really stop to think, how can I use my life to inspire others? Did I really realize I was living my dreams?

I want to be there again. More than anything. I don’t know if I ever have what it takes to be on a real stage but I believe that our lives are a stage where we can inspire people through our success, dedication, "stick-to-it-ness"…. Letting nothing get in the way of the dreams we have…. Making conscious decisions about our wellness, both inside and out. 

I saw a t-whirt the other day… it simply said "I am perfectly capable"

Yes, I am. And so are you. 

Last night my husband and I got in a lengthy discussion about our quest to get fit. He has lost nearly 30 pounds in the past 5 weeks. His advice to me is "you better suck it up and stop eating like you do. Before you can see the muscles you have to get rid of the fat. It’s all about your food intake." At first I was annoyed and defensive about all the reasons it’s harder for a woman than a guy to lose weight and how his cutting calories wasn’t healthy and can’t be maintained." Then I stopped and started listening to what he was saying… maybe he has a point. Portion control… calorie counting… will power. Fact is, he’s been more successful doing it his way and he’s looking pretty great.

I’ve had some ups and downs this week and the scale is revealing them. I’m realizing what I call "moments of weakness" when I give into some bad eating habits are really times that show my lack of preparation and planning for my meals. I grab whatever is handy, cheap, convenient and overall "comfort" food. Yesterdays pumpkin pie milkshake what just a moment of saying "I’ve had a hard day… I deserve it" but what starts out being one mistake turns into a cycle of letting old habits creep back into my day. Somewhere I read a quote that really hit home "FOOD IS FUEL, NOT COMFORT". I add to that "… it’s also NOT A REWARD". What is the reward is proof of hard work and determination and will power.

My goal this week is to see 145 on the scale by Monday 9/22.

I made it through the weekend! I ran 3 miles on Friday… ate pizza on Saturday and then ran 3 miles on Sunday. So it wasn’t perfect but the workouts helped ALOT and I was down 1/2lb this morning from Friday morning. Which is something I haven’t experience in quite some time… an actual lose on a Monday morning! So now I can focus on a lose this week as well.

My goal is to get to 145lb by Friday and to workout at least 3 days this week… to stay in control of my eating/to eat clean… and drink more water.

I will be at my goal of 135 by my birthday (Nov. 13) NO PROBLEM… maybe I’ll be even less!!

For me weekends are the hardest to stay on track. There are so many temptations to not watch my diet and to skip workouts. So, if I make a plan ahead of time I have a better chance to be successful. I want a weight loss on Monday morning for a change!

Tonight I am going to run at least 30 min. after work. At happy hour with the girls I’m going to have 1 drink and a salad.

Tomorrow night I’m going to make myself dinner instead of ordering in. Even though it’s just me. I tend to get lazy and eat worse when it’s the weekend and my family is out. It’s more convenient and I’m not the best cook but tomorrow night I’m going to make a good dinner.

Sunday I’m going to the gym or take a run. I will fit it into my day.

"If you fail to plan, then you plan to fail!"

How the more you do, the more you want to do?!

Last night instead of 30 min. of cardio, I did 60min. Just because I was feeling good and strong and motivated. And this morning I had lost another 1/2 pound. I’ve lost 15lbs since January. My goal is 14lb more.

I had a strange flashback from the past last night… right as I was getting to school track where I was planning on walking (with my DOUBLE Stroller… hoping the twins would stay asleep)… the cheerleaders for my sons football team were getting to the track as well to do their daily 1 lap run. These girls are little… from 2nd-6th graders. As I’m watching them start running their lap I hear the coach yell across the field… "Chelsea, Rachel…. You need to run… not walk! Pick up the speed girls!!" I looked back to see 2 girls about 3rd grade walking while the rest of the girls were running their lap.

Immediately, I thought back to when I was that age. I was always the walker at the back of the pack. Why? Was I lazy? Did I not have any sense of competition? Or what doing my best or working hard really meant? Did I even care that I was walking and EVERYONE else was running?

I’m not sure. But I do remember that feeling of being last. I don’t want to be the slowest, last, laziest girl on the track anymore. And I don’t want to raise my daughter to think that that is acceptable. I want her to have higher expectations for herself. To know what she is really capable of achieving.

This motivates me to become a better role model for her. And to make up for lost time!

Pick up the pace!!! 

I hadn’t seen a number in the 140’s since before I got pregnant June 07 and just recently in the last few days I’ve hit 149.5. Wow, that just looks so much better than any number in the 150s. I’m trying so hard not to focus on just the scale but my body fat % and measurements too but to see pounds come off is also nice.

My goals this week are to see 147, to eat clean, to fit in 30 minutes of cardio at least 3 days. Overall, continue to stay in control of my day.

Keeping the faith.

you can’t fit ONE more thing into your day… YOU CAN!! I fit 30 minutes of cardio into my crazy life today. Not much but it’s better than nothing!!  Hooray for me!!