So officially this morning was day 2 of the new medication. Though I can't really tell just yet how well it's working. May take a couple weeks to really gauge how it's going. But I'm hopeful. I also have a nother small issue that is working against me. I have stated before that I've been having some low back pain, along with left hip pain. Well I went to the doctor FINALLY after a year and a half to have it checked out. After taking x-rays I got the call today and its a small defect of the L5 pars. Which translates into a small stress fracture in the 5 vertebrae of the lumbar spine. So anti inflammatory meds and possible physical therapy if the medication doesn't work. so keep your fingers crossed for me on this one.

The back pain never really bothered me so much that I couldn't work out. There is a very tender spot just hip level onthe right of my spine. I really noticed it at night while sleeping, if I rolled onto my stomach then had to move again it was a LOT of pain, like bring a tear to my eye kind of pain. Once I got moved or up and moving it went away.

Since I've had such a hard time with being tired I have been in the gym since last Thursday.  I am hoping after a restfull weekend this weekend and the intake of all the new medication come Monday I'll be ready to go again. I hope so anyway, I am really missing that place! It was my peaceful time before I had to go home.

Other than that everthing is still the same, weight has only gone up 2 lbs, but I'm not counting it just yet.

Hope everyone has a great weekend and stay cool!

Mojo

So here I am again only this time with not so good news. Things were actually going pretty well, workouts were getting awesome food was in place, but the scale wasnt moving and I wasn't really feeling so great. Though over time I have been able to ignore these pesky issues. tired, ok go to bed earlier, headache, medication and more sleep. But these are MY SIGNS the ones I should pay more attention to than most people. These are the signs that something is wrong. I have been ignoring them for quite sometime. Well that all went to crapola on Sunday.

I went on a hike after work with a friend and her 2 kids who are 3 and 4. It's not easy hiking with toddlers, but it was fun. Getting them up and down and watching them go on their own. Way fun and we were only gone a couple of hours. but to me it felt like ALL day. My head hurt, my back and hips were in a LOT of pain. so i went home and went to sleep. come sunday morning I barely had any energy to get out of bed. but I did finally around 9 am. I did a little house work, then had to lay down for a 2 1/2 hour nap., then back to bed at 9. Only to wake up with the migraine still there and late for work. went home and slept for a couple more hours. This is not working. So I finally called my endocrinologist and asked to change my thyroid medication.  I have been taking Armour Thyroid, well a few years ago they changed the formulation and most of us thyroid patients are having a hard time adjusting to it. I have been really scared to try anything new since I had spent 7 years on the wrong medication and feeling horrible. I stuck it out as long as I could. I can't take it anymore so I'm trying out Naturethroid. I am just hoping it works for me. It has to be ordered so I should be able to start it on Friday.

I will keep you posted on how things go. I think I've made up my mind that now this has become a real challenge for me. I want to be a fitness model or at least have the look of one. If I can reach that goal, it will prove that my hypothyroidism doesnt' have ME. I have this NEED to control my body again.  My goals before were to just become thin enough to be happy with some muscle attached. Now i wanna look as though I could be on the cover of any fitness magazine. That is what I want, now if I can just get this body to cooperate. I thought it would be easier to have no thyroid at all than a partial one to deal with. This is so far from the truth. this is the most difficult thing I have faced in my life.

Just imagine you feel good one day, and the very next you can hardly get out of bed and no matter how much sleep you get you are still so tired it never seems enough. So for all you non-believers out there who think there is no such thing as thyroid problems or that once we take a pill all of our problems should be gone. BITE ME! You wouldnt' last a day in my shoes on a bad day. don't judge someone unless you know first hand what they are going through. What you can do is offer words of encouragement, advice or just shut your mouth.

so here is to my last 2 days on Armour. Bring on the Naturethroid I'm ready for a change.

So workouts have been going really well. Steadily moving up the weights in lifting. Cardio everyday I work out, with the exception of leg day. Food pretty on target, even a little wiggle room, and my weight has gone UP! I am sitting now at 217 AGAIN! WTH is happening???  I am so frustrated and confused and just down right irritated. I will admit, i have only taken measurements on my thighs and was down a half inch. Which though I was pleased, it doesnt account for the number on the scale going in the total opposite direction.  and yes I KNOW i should give a lot of attention to the scale however  it is a indicator of something not going correctly.

When I was losing last time I wasn't working out nearly as hard/long as I am now. Eating carbs with everymeal. english muffin or a ww tortilla with breakfast, pita with lunch and usually garlic bread or pasta with dinner. But now..... after cutting the majority of that out. Eating 5 times a day watching everything that goes in, weighing all my food I'm gaining. What gives?? I dont understand it. and quite frankly I'm tired of it. I am tired of seeing everyone else following the plan and getting results and getting smaller. I am tired of playing by the rules and still failing. I'm at a loss at this point as to what to do. I honestly cannot work out anymore, the only thing I can do is add more cardio and maybe less weights. which is a shame as I love love to lift and am doing so well, feeling strong.

The only place I can see any difference is in my face otherwise, nothing.

On a positive note over the weekend the hubs and I went to another couples house for a get together for her B-day. Hubs offered to buy me a new shirt for the occasion, i hate shopping but agreed. We walked out with a new sun dress and new wedge sandals. Now since ya'll dont' know me. I have not worn a dress of anykind since my wedding day 13 years ago! LOL true story. anyway I actually liked it and got tons of compliments, esp from the hubs. I was pretty happy about that one. 

Mojo.

Well I did it. Last night i finally got the leg press to 400 lbs. and was albe to push them 4x8. I was grinning ear to ear for that. Even after doing squats in the rack. 2x15 at 50 lbs and 100 lbs for an 8 then 9.

I felt great. The food has been good as gold this week. I prepped all day sunday.

The norm now is  a strawberry protein shake for breakfast 250 calories compliments of Jennifer Nicole Lee's cook book, then eggwhites and ezekiel bread. lunch is a turkey patty 4 oz, sweet potato 4 oz and celery and radishes with home made hummus. snack is either 4 ox of chicken breast or 2 turkey muffins thanks to Jamie Eason.  dinner is just the usual healthy meals I've been making, just one portion of everything. i've not been on the scale yet which really is the hardest part for me. but we'll see how things have gone as of Sunday. Tho i do feel a little sleeker

I sure am missing some of the people on here. Sure isn't the same as it was. but I still need this place to come to and get information and inspiration. I imagine i'll be around for a while. I would love one day to make the transformation page.

So onward and upward love to you all.

MOJO

Hello again everyone! I have been a little MIA lately due to work being a little busy and the home computer is less than helpful.

Not much to report I've been out of the gym now for a couple of weeks. Trying to get the yard fixed up, garden planted and then to top things off last Thursday night/Friday morning, my dog Mia decides to scream in the middle of the night. She wouldn't walk anywhere  I had to carry her then hear her yelp when I put her down. After a bit she seemed fine, running around as usual, then it happened again. Decided to wait until our vet office opened, dropped her off and waited. Ihave no patience for stuff like this so I was chomping at the bit to find out what was wrong with her, stress always gets the better of me. Now for those of you who don't know my dog has had a bout with skin cancer amongst all her other issues. She is a puggle, pug beagle mix and cute as a lil button. But she is a health nightmare. We are pretty sure due to her problems she was a puppy mill dog.  I got her off a couple who decided they didn't want to deal with a puppy and 4 kids under the age of 5. Really, you don't say...

not long after we got her she developed a type of mange dogs get from their mom. Then we had small rest period, then found a couple tumors on her leg. After surgery and a few nightmare trips to the oncologist, she over came that only to develop some kind of skin irritation where she would break out into little pimples and scabs.. now that if finally under control as she is on human food, tuna, beans veggies no grain no beef or chicken, now this! we thought it was a slipped disc or pinched nerve but after x-rays, and blood test all that came back fine, the vet thinks she has ACID REFLUX. WTF seriously... ok so now we are treating her for that... so I've been dealing with vet visits and going home at lunch to check on her and as she has stopped drinking water the only way to get liquid in her is to hand feed her ice chips.. so needless to say I've had other issues going on...

Hoping things will return to normal soon, i've been out of the gym way to long. Weight is holding at 210 but I know all that strength I've built up is now gone.  

Other than that not much going on. Just hoping the dog gets better soon. She means the world tome and I'm not ready to let her go yet.

On a much Happier note today is my wedding anniversary. Lucky no 13!!  We have actually been together for almost 19 years, but married 13. I don't know where the time has gone, it really has flown by I mean we got together when I was 18. We've pretty much grown up together and are rasing our son who will be 18 in August. I cant believe he is now a Senior. I hope next year goes better than this one has. We've changed his meds and his attitude is much better, school is toolate to save, so he has to take summer school and next year is a pretty heavy load. I hope he will have things straightened out by then as if he doesn't pass everthing he will not graduate on time.

In a nut shell that's whats going on just LIFE and all it's ups and downs and I'm just taking it day by day..

MOJO

Hiya gang!

Ok so all 3 of the Hunger Games books read and loved them all. The last one was by far the best of the 3. movie time now. I do love to read but I find I go through them so fast, and then am left with finding something new.... i heard 50 shades of grey is pretty good!

so workout really have been going really great. Last night was LEG DAY! (horns playing) and I was able to move up my # of reps for all 3 set on leg press. I'm sticking to 360 lbs but was albe to do 3 sets of 10! 2 more each set than just last week. But man that is some heavy stuff. not quite ready to move the weight up any just yet

A little disappointed today as I have NO leg pain, not even a little stiffness. I did squats, pile squats, side split squats, leg press, leg curl, leg extension and calf press then topped that all off with 30 min of cardio onthe elliptical. AND NO DOMS! so I guess I didn't press myself as hard as I thought, but the towel I soaked with sweat would say other wise. oh well there is always next week.

I have really gotten strickt and tight with the diet this week and after going back to 215 I can happily report that as of this morning I was back to 210. I am really really concentrating on just eating 3 times a day, no snacks. No shakes after my workout. Nothing extra.  and I cook healthy so that's not the problem. so far it has worked out ok, I'm not starving like I thought I would be. Even with the snacks I was having I would find I was STILL hungry like all the time. Now not so much.

After talking to a fellow hypo girl, I've come to the conclusion, that the eating 5-6 times a day small meal thing is not for me. Not if I wanna get this fat off to see the muscle I have produced underneath. That means very very strickt with the calories. So basically I have been eating 5 egg whites and 1 whole egg, 1 bannana for breakfast. then lunch is either left over dinner or a ww eng. muffin with 4 oz of deli turkey breast, spinach leaves and a sauce made from greek yogurt, horseradish, and spicy mustard, with a piece of fruit. dinner varies, but it's usuall from a clean eating mag or eating light. small servings, and 1 only. hitting the cardio a little more often cutting back on the weights a bit. we'll see how it pans out in a few weeks, but if I keep it up it's going in the right direction so far. I can tell the tummy is getting smaller and my legs look a little less lumpy it's a good thing.

today was supposed to be cardio only, but seeing as how my son decided just last week to attend prom with a date tomorrow night, I will be spending my evening trying to make a corsage for her and flower for him. grrrrr nothing like the last minute to spring things on me. at first they didnt even want the flowers so we didnt order them...

Hope all is going well with everyone I'll check in soon.

Mojo

Ahhh Monday again.... another week to get through. Mentally at work this is becoming more of a problem. One I dont' want to have. But I'm trying to decide if I should look for something else, or maybe return to school???? Hmm questions, questions. I havent' had a raise in 3 years, my job is farily easy espically since I've been at it for 6 years.  i just have no where to go in this company with the position i hold now. its this or nothing. i have been wanting to return to school for ultrasound tech. it would only take 2 years and I have a ton of doctors offices and hospitals around. so i'm pondering what i should do.....

As far as working out goes I took a few days off last week. the weather was sooo nice I just had to be outside in it. I was able to get all of our flower beds weeded and looking very nice, ready for new plants and new mulch. I had to work Saturday morning, but the off to the gym for leg day.

Squats with 50#BB 3x12

pile squats with 35# DB 3x12

lunges 40# BB 3x12 (each leg) these are so hard for me and really put the pain in leg day for me.

leg curls 90# 3x12

leg extension 90# 10, 9, 8 my legs were shaking by this time. after a 2 min rest went straight to the leg press.

Leg press 270# 3x8 now this is 90# less than what i have been doing but my legs were getting pretty burnt by this timeand I was afraid to add the 2 extra plates. But the really cool thing was as I was finishing my last set I locked the plate in place and looked up and there was a guy standing there watching me and he totally gave me a nod and a thumbs up!! I smiled i"m sure stupidly and nodded my thanks. I couldn't get that grin off my face for a while. It really made me feel pretty darn good to get that kind of confirmation from a complete stranger.

so on to glutes 130# only 2x8 i was pouring sweat and had totally forgotten my towel in my bag. no cardio that was it I was done.

then off to the grocercy store and a little baby shower shopping for a friend who is having a girl. so walking around the store for 2 and half hours made up for lack of ellipitical that day.

Sunday was the shower and I spent 5 hours standing around in  my new wedge sandals. and let me tell you today my legs are STILL yelling at me.

Walk at lunch today, chest, arms, abs and cardio up for this afternoon.

Have a most excellent day!

I want to start this blog out on a very high note. For those of you who have been following along and know about some of the issues with my son, I have some good news on this front.

The last couple of weeks have been pretty decent, no arguments, no e-mails from ANY of his teachers about attitude or missing assignments. And his grades are reflecting that. There were no zero's for homework at all last week. Major for him.

So last night durig dinner, he says "I talked to someone today" my first thought was good-night the girlfriend is back and this is not a good thing. He said i talked to an Amry recruiter. Hmmm ok, you didnt' sign anything did you?! no he said, I just asked him some questions and i liked what he was telling me. This made my heart soar. Not because I look forward to him going into any branch of the military ( I am his mom afterall) it's the fact that he was actually thinking about what he wants to do and ASKED questions! This is HUGE. So we chatted about the pros/cons of not just the army but the other branches as well. and will make the necessary appointments to speak to them to find the right fit for him. He wants to be a conservation officer, but has until this point done nothing to find out about it or what he needs to study to make it happen. We have told him that the military would be his next step as his grades are terrible, and so any big college for him would prob. not be an option. The military though is right up his alley. He needs the strictness, and the discipine they offer. so thanks to all of you for the prayers they seem to be working.

Workout last night was abs and cardio.

3 sets of 25  3point crunches

3 sets knee ups

60 min on the elliptical almost 700 cal burned and 4.80 miles down. then came home and started cleaning out the flower beds! Cant' wait to start planting!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Back training last night and once again I left my book in my car.

so here is what i remember.

Bent over rows BB 60 # 5X10

seated low rows 70 # 5X10 (last week i was only able to do 10,10 8.8.8) so able to pull a little more this time.

wide grip pull downs. 85# 5x10

pull overs 25# 5x10

hyperextentions 10# 3x10

cardio 26 min hiit 174 hr tops 311 calories a little over 2 miles covered.

food on spot again. dinner was chicken florentine chicken, crushed tomatoes, spinach and a sprinkle of shredded parm with a salad.

woke up and the scale was at 211! I am totally walking on sunshine today despite all the rain. I just hope this streak doesn't end anytime soon.

HAve a great day peeps. tonight is cardio and abs wahoo.

So last night was leg night. I have seen several post about people who hate leg day. I actually feel the total opposite. I LOVE leg day. As they are my strongest bodypart right now I can lift pretty heavy and feel really good.

I forgot my total work out in my truck so this is going from memory.

Squats 60# bb 3 x 10

SLDL 45 # db's (90#'s) 4x10 I could have done more, but it's my grip that gives out before anything else.

Leg press warm up 180 # x 6, warm up 270 x 10, 360# 3 x8  I love love this! 370 was my personal best but I only did 8 reps of them at the time.

Leg curl 100# 3x10

leg raise 100# 3x10

lite and easy cardio on tread milll 20 min, 3% incline to work out the kinks in my legs and make sure I could walk to my truck and not stumble.

Food yesterday was great. I not entered it into fitday so I have no idea what the calorie count is but so far it's working I dropped 2 more lbs.

4 egg whites, 1/2 c. oatmeal with 1/4 c. mixed berries.

snack 1 lite string cheese, 10 almonds

lunch, whole wheat eng. muffin with 3 oz turkey, and a mix of 1TBSP greek yougurt, 1tsp horseradish, 1/4 tsp dijon must mix and spread on toasted muffin, and a piece of fruit. SO YUMMO!

snack carrot and celery stix, lite string cheese

dinner 8 oz of talapia baked (with more of the greek dip instead of tartar sauce) and 1 c. steamed mixed veggies.

today everything is the same except for dinner it's chicken florentine, done clean

have a wonderful day people!

BACK

Bent over BB row 50# 10, 10  60# 4x10

Close grip cable row 70# 10,10, 8, 8,8

wide grip pull down 75#10,10,10  80# 10 85# 10

DB pull overs 25#  3 x 10

DB Shrugs 25# 5x10

hyperextensions 3x10

elliptical HIIT 2.3 miles 30 min. 363 cal burned.

Felt good last night, still fighting a runny nose and cough. Loving the pull overs.  DOMS set in yesterday afternoon from the leg day on tuesday, and this morning it was tough walking into work after driving for 30 min

Weight was up another 8 oz or so this am. which really surprised me I am really watching the calorie intake and as of lunch time yesterday I still had less than 900 in.  so that left plenty of room for a lite dinner which i really only ate part of. Wish i could get up earlier to do some cardio but as I am already up at 5 and that is a struggle no way I can make it up by 4:30.  Will just have to give it more time and see how it's going to go.

today is cardio only with some stretching pre and post workout.

Have a great day everyone.

I will not let this beat me. I will not let it take over my life. I will get to a weight that makes ME happy.

This is what I keep telling myself. These are my overall goals. I felt when I was first diagnosed with Graves Disease that my life was over. I knew once they killed my thyroid gland with radiation that would be it. I would be doomed to live a life just like the women on my mothers side of the family, all who have the same problem. They are all extremely over weight, and very unhappy people. As the years went by and I was still not feeling well and gaining weight by the day I would never be the same person I was before. 

The doctor I had at the time, didn't explain things to me all that well and being young and naieve I believed and didnt' question what he told me. I spent years being miserable, and tired. always tired. I could sleep 12 hours a day and still crave more. It was not depression. for those of you who are not familiar with the thyroid gland, it controls just about everything in your body. Metabolism, temperature, mood, skin, hair. everthing, and when it's not functioning properly it creates a lot of problems for the person with it.

I don't expect you to fully understand what that person is going through. it's almost impossible to truly explain just how bad one feels unless you've experienced it for yourself.  I know some people use it as an excuse to not eat healthy or go to the gym. some of us DO NOT do that. It does however create set backs for us. Even on proper medication, i tire more easily than others, faster than others, and my weight will not come off as easily as it does for you. Even following the same eating/exercise plan. Replacing a bodypart with medication is only a small fix to the problem. But it really goes much deeper than that.

I am not making excuses, i am just trying to help some understand a little better just how important this little gland actaully is and how much it affect the person when it decides to stop working, or what happens when ones medication is out of whack.  I have been giving my all these last few months and my weight would not budge. Not more/less exercise, not more/less food. Nothing was working. I was becoming more and more stressed trying to understand what the problem was. I was so obsessed with getting the weight off, I failed to see the other tell tale signs that my medication was not working. I was tired, having headaches everyday and not being able to take enough medication to make it ever fully go away, my hair was falling out again.  These are all signs I should have recognized, but didnt because I was so focused on my diet and exercise routine and was sure that was it. 

 I need to learn to be more concious of what my body is telling me. I can see so much of a difference in how I feel with just being on  a new dose of medication for only 4 days. It's incredible. The last 2 mornings I have woken up without a  headache and feeling like a zombie.

So now I can get back to my routine, and hopefully the weight will begin to change in the next few days. I have to have my labs checked again in 6 weeks and follow up with the endo to be sure my levels are where they should be. I think they will be.

So if you know of anyone with a thyroid problem and they are truly giving the diet and exercise thing their very best, Give em' a break.  Ask them if they know their labs are in normal range. If they are and they still feel bad, they need to talk to thier doctor. some are willing to give a little more medication to make that person feel better. But don't assume they are being lazy or not working hard enough.

MOJO

so as you all know I suffer from hypothyroidism. I have been dong well on my medication for the last couple of years, no changes all labs always came back in good ranges, I was feeling good and at one point last year got down to 206 lbs. then slowly it started to creep back on. I wasn't going to the gym on a regular basis as I was working a full time job plus a part-time job so that didn't leave me with a lot of time or energy. Ever so sure most of the weight I lost I gained back. so over these last few months I have been trying deperatly to get them back off, but to no avail. Nothing I was doing was making the scale move. I have been hovering with in the same 5 lb range for months.

So today was my 1 year normal follow up with my endo. I went in like a  good girl last week and had my labs drawn. Went in today and he looked at me and said why are you not taking your medication? Ummm squeeze me, baking powder. I take my meds every am right after my shower, as I cannot drink or eat  for an hour after that this has become the perfect time. I have no thyroid at all to speak of so that can't be messing up my meds so the only thing he can think of is the medication is not being made correctly. Now I know a lot of you don't have this problem and are probably unaware that Armour Thyroid had several issues the last few years. they got back ordered really bad and medication was hard to find. I was hitting a different pharmacy every month sometimes driving to the next town to get my pills.  then the formula it was rumored had been changed. This is one of the oldest medications on the market and there was an issue with it not being up to code with the FDA or something. so they did all that and i was finally getting my meds from the home delivery place so I was able to get 3 months at a time. Fast-forward to a year later and wa la My labs are completely out of whack.

Needless to say I left the office in tears. I am so upset by this. the sleepiness, the headaches the inablit to lose anything and make it stick. I blamed everything else but my biggest problem. I wasnt' doing enough, i wasn't doing it right, I wasn't getting enough sleep. It was always something I was doing. Well maybe not. Not that I am making any excuses for this, there are somethings out of my control. My thyroid, or lack there of being my biggest issue. I just didn't want to be one of those people who had to say I'm fat because I have a thyroid problem. well guess what I am.

So my little silver lining he will up my medication, I will get it locally and have to go back in 6 weeks to up date my progress.

Oh how frustrating this is. I can't even put it into words. I have stuggled and felt guilty for every little bite of food and the times i just couldnt' get the strenght to make it to the gym. So it is my thyroid, it is NOT completely my fault.

I do hope to have some better news in a few weeks though. Can't wait to begin the new med tomorrow.

Until then.

Mojo

First thank you to everyone who said such nice things, and offered words of help and encouragement. That is the reason I wasn't afraid to write about my son's problem, I knew everyone would nothing but supportive. So a huge thank you to all of you.

So things are slowing down a little. I had a friend who does repairs take a look at the truck, and for right now I can at least get the headlight fixture replaced and keep my arms and legs. He can bend the fender out enough to get the new fixture inplace. The rest isn't to bad. Just minor damage, but my concern was him driving with only one headlight. so that should be ordered and fixed within the next day or so. I have to take my truck over tonight to have the fan fixture replaced. that I am losing at least a leg over. But what can ya do.

Hubby has been in contact and is doing well. Was able to do a little sight seeing in Northern China, now he is in South China, poorer part of the country so not so nice. He will be there til Friday, then head to Hong Kong, and fly out from there Saturday am. It's so strange to think that he will leave on a Saturday and spend 14 hrs on a plane and still get home Saturday night. Very weird.

The kid seems to be doing better on new meds, i did get a call from the principle about his behavior in the hall and yelling some unsavory things. Baby steps right... all i can say is thank goodness i stopped at one! He is more than I can handle.

I did make it to the gym last night, and only skipped a few things I was supposed to do. I felt a lot better when I left. Unfortunately tonight i will probably have to skip it again since I have to get my car worked on. but it's something that can't wait. Then I am just waiting on a call to see when I can get my son's truck to the repair shop to get the headlight fixture put on.  That will be a load off. then hubs comes home on Saturday and he can take over worry about fixing the rest. So in a nut shell that is the catch up on my crazy life. I have loved catching up to everyone else, so much going on with ya'll.  Take care everybody and thanks again.

Ok, that may be a slight esaggeration, but only a slight one. My weekend started early. It actually started Thursday afternoon. It was a rainy afternoon, and at about 3:30 I get a call from the 17 year old. He was in his first car accident. Good Lord Really!! Everyone is fine, only vehicle damage, the lady he rear-ended was nice and friendly. thank goodness no one was hurt. So I had to leave work 30 min early.  On Friday I had planned to take off work early as we had a doctors appt for the 17 yr old. 

a little back ground info to help this along.  He was diagnosed as ADHD at about 7 yrs old. Borderline ADHD said they. Ok we said, and skipped the meds as he really wasnt' that bad. He did ok, it was a struggle but we managed with out meds until about 2 years ago when school started to get more difficult. After talking to his doc, we decided it was a good idea to only use meds for school. At the time it seemed like a good idea. Well come Friday and the appt with the doctor we couldnt' have been more wrong. So this is a word to the wise, if you have a problem that is more than your tupical cold, sore throat, please see a specialist and do not let your PCP handle it. We could have possibly saved ourselves and him a WHOLE lot of trouble had we done that 2 years ago.

Anyhoo, said 17 yr old had a change of meds, that he will now take everyday, and after his first pill, and yes I said first one, there was a change in him. A change that brought a tear to my eyes. The guilt I feel over this will last forever, I can only hope he will understand one day we did the best we could. i can only pray things will just keep getting better from here, and hopefully he can now get a hold of his school work and it's not to late to fix it.

so with car accident taken care of and new meds in place, I then went to the airport at 4 am on Sat to drop off the hubs so he could fly to China for a week. Oh dear it is next Saturday yet?? I am terrible at being alone, I admit it I hate not having him home with me. I could never be a wife who's husband had to travel for work. This sucks and there is no two ways about it. Anyway he arrived in China safely and so far is doing well. No illness, no jetlag. and he of all people found a good mexican food restaurant to eat at! go figure, that's my hubby. LOL

So today starts with me trying to find parts for son's truck to fix it. I really know nothing about cars. I can fill my needed fluids, and put air in the tires. But that is about it, in an emergency i'm sure I could change my tire. It may take a while, but hell I can read and have the owners maneul and i know where all the tools are. But this is different. They are asking all kinds of questions about the part. Really you need to know more than the year, make and model to see if you have parts that fit??! ok, well this isn't going well at all and he has a busted headlight. So i've no idea what i'm gonna do now..

That really in a nut shell has been the last four days, I've missed the gym completely, ate terrible and still managed to lose a pound. Go figure. That's my life. LOL

I heard on the news about Dan Wheldon the indy car driver who died yesterday and it really just broke my heart. Left behind a beautiful wife and 2 very little boys. Very very sad.

I also saw a GB packer flip the bird and Mr. Vick almost take out a cheerleader with a dumbA&& kick that should not have even have happened. Can these guys really just not go out and play football without all the antics., They get paid millions of dollars to play a GAME for crying out loud, Way to much money in my humble opinion but it is what it is.

I know I'm rambling but I have so much on my mind that this is how everything is coming out. I will try to catch up with everyone soon. But I have some more calls to salvage yards to make.

Take care everybody and thanks for all the thoughts on the hubbs!