mntlydfcnt’s BodyBlog

Where do we get our perceptions of ourselves?  How is it that they change?  When we ar born, ourminds are a blank slate.  We are molded by our experiences and our perceptions are a compliation of all those experiences. When I was young, I would have been considered a tomboy.  Iplayed outside, ran, played team sports and was considered athletic.  Just an average kid.  Inever excelled at any one sport and back then, NO ONE had conditioning year round.  I had an image in my head that I would always be athletic with an athletic body.  What happened to that image?  Well, life experience hapened.  During my 8th grade year, during the holiday season, my world changed.  My perception of who I was changed.  My grandfather sexually molested me.  Instantly who I thought I was vanished.  I had become something that no 8th grader wanted (well perhaps maybe none…I was seen as a sexual being)  I did not want that, I was a kid.  I knew that I had to change that image, so I stuffed those feelings far down inside and covered them up with food.  Food became my drug because I certainly did not want to be THAT person.  I worked for many many years.  My old perception left.  Or so I thought.  I have come to realize over the past few months that my perception was only hidden from me.  I realize that where I am today was what I always believed my life to be from a young age.  So, this week, take some reflection time to visit your perceptions of yourself.  Are you where and who you always thought you would be?  Are you happy where you are?  Decide today if this is the journey you want to continue.  For some, the answer is a resounding yes.  I am where I want to be.  If not, delve into why you have not met your perceptions.  It may not be easy, but is living outside your perceptions any easier?

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