miz_smylez 
"Getting over a stress fracture - back to training hard and staying lean..."
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| Created: | 01/16/2007 |
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April 30, 2008
…wow - I just read my last journal entry from LONG AGO!! So it’s been FOREVER since I’ve logged in here, but it’s mostly b/c my life has become a whirlwind of busy busy busy! I started school on a part time basis; I’ve been teaching at the gym; and I still have my regular 9-5. SO, in the fall, I was totally loving it! I was teaching at the gym twice a week. Once winter rolled around, I was teaching 4 times a week!!! Ever so slowly did the burn out settle in. For a brief period of 2 weeks, I was suffering horrible dizzy spells and finally decided to take it easy.
This brings us into Spring. I’m now teaching only once a week. So it’s actually great, b/c now I have free time, BUT, my classes this semester are more demanding. It’s a double edged sword trying to balance everything. My grad school classes (M & T) don’t get out until 720, so I can’t hit the gym until 8ish. Wednesday is when I teach, and I can’t start training or doing my own workouts until 8ish again. Which leaves me with Thurs -Sunday. Let’s not forget somewhere I have to run errands and attempt to have a life!!!
It has been super taxing. I really value my sleep and rest, since my schedule can be rather demanding, so I work out better in the evening. Then comes the battle with studying/homework OR training at the gym. After a long day of work it’s hard to do both. It’s possible, I know many people are capable of it, but I just can’t function trying to squeeze in both it such a short slot of time. If I’m not physically exhausted, I’m mentally drained. So I’m finding that I really have to compromise and reprioritize what’s important to me. I still train at least 3-4 times a week, but I miss being able to do it 5-6 times a week. My poor body has just been in limbo and I haven’t really progressed much from where I was before.
So in a nutshell, this is where I am right now. I want to train more, but my priorities are with school and work. I’ve started training for the Corporate Challenge next month, and I have to say, my stamina is shot. My anaerobic capacity to train is terrific, but my aerobic threshold definitely needs a MAJOR overhaul. This is day 2 of running - I’m praying next week my body goes thru body memory and TADA, I can perform where I used to be.
WISH ME LUCK!! 50 More days til race day!!
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July 16, 2007
Hmm - It’s definitely been a while since I’ve logged in here with all the changes that have been going on. I recently moved to NY and started a new job in April. This past March, I changed gyms and joined CRUNCH. This change has to have been the best thing I’ve ever done.
Many of the people on here I admire for the will and dedication to continually pushing beyond their means by their own sheer will. I think after a year of self motivation and pushing last year, the journey of solitude got to me and was what led me to by burnout and disinterest in training. The change from NYSC to Crunch was really a God-send in my case. I re-discovered that I loved pushing myself beyond my means, but that I didn’t have to do it by myself. The innovative and fun classes and the people made such a difference to the way I perceived my gym routine! It no longer was a chore, but my hobby that I enjoyed and shared with other people. I met a really great instructor along the way, and I’m on the path to becoming a fitness instructor! I just took my AFAA exam this weekend, and my audition for the gym is in 2 weeks.
The gym is FUN again - It’s something I look forward to. It’s no longer what I use to fight the #s on the scale or my waistline. All that stuff comes hand in hand with enjoying what the gym has to offer. I established a goal in March to lose 10lbs, and I honestly have not met it. However, I’m routinely going to the gym 5-6x a week and training hard.
I’m back on track on my fitness journey, and I’m finally happy to be where I am.
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March 6, 2007
so i wrote on this blog that i wanted to lose 10lbs by this month..and i have to say - my weight hasnt budged much if at all…right now i think i’m finally becoming attune to eating when im hungry instead of constantly watching the clock..i’m starting to find that point of satiety that i lost…i’m finally going to the gym to ENJOY it..i loved the burn and the body i could attain once i buckled down and stuck to a routine, but i realized everything else in my life had suffered…i threw myself into the gym and that was my entire life last year…this year i’m realizing, that’s not a balanced lifestyle that i can continue year round..the gym is finally not a chore, but something i enjoy as a hobby..
although i’ve detracted from my goal..i think these little steps will allow me to get back where i used to be…
here’s hoping for a full recovery into a healthy lifestyle!
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February 5, 2007
so, i think i may suffer from a slight case or a variation of it…after being so lean last year - which was done with extreme discipline - constant worrie over my food..emotional breakdowns, 2-3 hours in the gym..and a close to no social life…i have now unfortuantely regained everything…my gym schedule took a hiatus when i shifted my focus on education..and now i can’t get my head around the whole obsession with losing weight and getting back to that weight…in my head i want to revert back to that state..but at the same time..the stress and toll it took on me both emotionally and mentally has my head spinning..i know i never competed..but after reading blogs on “rebounding blues”, i feel like that’s where i am today..i gained 15lbs more from my leanest..which puts me over my original starting weight by 7lbs…right now i feel like i’m fighting my own demons within my self..to be healthy…but not obsess and go over the edge..my mindset has become so foggy…there are times when i look at myself, and i cant help but feel ashamed of my body..the extra pudge that used to not be there..by no means am i obese or very fat, but right now i guess you can say i’m at an average weight..i’ve learned that i’m an all or nothing person so it’s either all the way..or not at all..i’m trying to teach myself moderation and patience once again…i fell into the mindset in which there can be no gray..and everyone knows that once you restrict for an extended period of time, you will reach a breaking point at one time or another and this can lead to destructive behavior…my destructive behavior was binging…eating b/c i thought that this would be the last time i would get to eat that certain food..i need to learn to train my mind to stop labeling food as good or bad b/c nothing can be bad as long as it’s in moderation..when i got tired and fell of the gym routine..i felt like i lost control..so i in essence turned to food bc i thought icould control wat i did..i turned to it for comfort..all the things and reasons they warn you not to do..so i ate..and although the satisfaction of eating was nice temporarily..i still stare into the mirror in dissatisfaction with what i see
so here i am…battling out these mental demons…fighting the negative images and negative thoughts of myself…trying to just be normal - and enjoy my gym routines again…i’m struggling, but im trying real hard..i did so well for 3 weeks..then i got sick and stressed and i found my way back to unhealthy eating …
all i want is to be the person i used to be before i got so obsessed..someone who cared about their body and was careful with watching what they ate..someone who enjoyed the gym but to the point that it didnt feel like a chore..someone who was able to balance their social life and gym life…
any advice/support is well appreciated..
that was normalcy to me..and i just want that back..=T
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January 18, 2007
okie..so as week two approaches to a close i’m feeling myself slowly get adjusted to my good ol gym routine…and as much as i hate to dictate my mood by the way the # on the scale appears..i can’t help it right now…i know the #s cant differentiate between fat and muscle…so i’m trying to re-train my way of thinking..but after several weeks gone by, the scale hasn’t budged at all…could it be that all i’m seeing is water weight and bloating? or could it possibly be my thyroid? (i was diagnosed w/hypothyroidism last year and i’m on daily medication = hypo means that my metabolism has slowed down)..i dont want to start counting calories right now b/c i know that’s what drove me over the edge last year and i would end up binging…so as opposed to that, i’m eating the foods that got me to my goal weight and measuring them out, but i’m not logging it anywhere…more so, i guess i’m mentally logging it…after being out of the gym for a few months is it really that hard to get back? im not expecting changes overnight, but i was hoping for the -1lb a wk..nice gradual weight loss..im slowly noticing my physique toning up, but i guess the damn #s are haunting me… i feel like sometimes i’m in this all by myself..i guess any advice or encouragement would be great…by all means, i’m not quitting, but i’m just feeling a bit discouraged..i changed up my habits and i guess i just want some sort of concrete reason why i should continue my efforts..or maybe just kind words to help push me along..
at times i really do feel like a loner when it comes to my passion for the gym…the girls i’m friends with have a large misconception about the gym..and if they do think about going, it’s to be a cardio queen..but i want MORE…i want the muscle, i want the tone, i want to be on stage one day..i guess i’m jus reaching out to this community…part of the reason i joined is to help keep myself focused since i don’t have that strong support to lean back on…i can definitely stand on my own two feet, but i guess, sometimes on this lonely journey..a girl just needs some love…
Posted in Training
January 17, 2007
Holy Mama - So looking back at my summer pictures makes me sad when I look at myself in the mirror..i really let myself go!! In fact, this is the worst physical form I’ve allowed myself to come to…but you know what..nothing’s perfect - i messed up..and now it’s time to rectify that…now i’m all the more driven to push harder…this is my second full week in and i’ve established a routine …i picked up my kickboxing gloves and i’m back..boy did i miss that class..although my body only somewhat agrees …i need to go back to my chiropractor…my hips have always been off and i started seeing one when i was training last year…towards the summer when money was tight..i skimped out..and now my hip flexors are feeling tight and just not right…i havent counted my calories b/c that’s what drove me to pieces last year…i started slowly…after measuring and counting for over 6months, i still have a basic idea of how many calories and what damage certain food can do…my diet’s cleaned up and my calories are a lot more modest now…i’m no longer reaching for those jumbo dunkin donut cookies i used to have daily…i think its crazy how bad diet/non exercise can completely negate all the hardwork i put in to achieve the form i once had…at least this time, i’m doing it in a more level headed manner…
I was thinking, after 3 months, if i’m at a stable point, i may talk to my old trainer and consider doing a show..now that i know the edge one needs to have to compete…but we’ll see
Right now i’m feeling good…oily food turns me off… i could still go for desserts though..LOL one day at a time…
Posted in Training
January 16, 2007
so i’ve joined this for quite a few reasons -
- I’ve found it difficult to find a support system of individuals who share my passion/interest in fitness.
- I NEED TO GET INTO SHAPE
- Seeing what others have accomplished motivates me
- New Year = New Start = TIME TO MEET MORE PEOPLE
So with this new year ushering in - I’ve resolved to turn up the heat again and get my ass back into training mode. Last year I started in January with the intent of training like a figure competitor. That in and of itself was a mentally/physical/ and spiritual journey I never imagined I would take. I learned some important traits along the way - Discipline - Persistence - Drive - Faith. I was always a hard ass on myself and I never did anything below 110%. As accomplished and pleased as I was during this initial journey, I learned that PERFECTION is something to STRIVE for, not something to KILL YOURSELF OVER. My personality type had me following my diet to the "T". Unwavering from the "master plan" that got me to where I wanted to be. However, I learned that despite the gratification I attained, what I was doing was not a lifestyle I could consistently maintain. I leaned out on a low caloric diet - and I lived in the gym. It became my new home. My social life took a nose dive, but I finally was doing something for MYSELF.
I fell off the gym cycle for a couple months as I realized I needed to get my act together - I prepared myself for Grad School along with the grunt work that came with it. And now, I’m finally back. I’m into my second week at the gym. I am weak and I’m no longer the pictures that follow from my page. Give me three months. I think I finally have a handle on things and I’m going to to it right - and keep my sanity as well. I’ll get there! You just wait!
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January 16, 2007
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