The bumpy road of a Transformation

I have this thing where I rate how hot I am or getting by how many guys I get hit on at the club. I used to be the shit at fort campbell, ky man I could be picky on who I danced with if I wanted. (but i landed a awsome islander lol as a permanet dance partner at the end) Any who getting down to buisness, Me and my girl april went out last night, started at the drag queen show gotta love those! then went to another joint that plays currents, old shool, ect from my fave clubbing days in screamming eagle country. Well I was feeling good and didnt give a hoot about no guys, I was there just to dance and dance (only two drinks) and dance some more. Im one of those people that loves to watch MTV and BET and get the new moves. I never sit down too cool off ever!. Well Im scopping out the scene with my girl waiting for my perfect song to bring on that floor in the right mood. Then all the sudden some one grabs my waist and a I turn around and damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn a fine as man shaved head and clean goatee ect throws that typical opening line How you doing? LOL then he grabs my hand and go for it to Juvenile back that assssss upppppppppp!!!! wut wut here I go! No stopping Now! Well then the good times rollled and I felt like I was back in my days in fort campbell. God I miss those days and my lost friend. Well any ways back to the floor, me and ole boy just go at it on the floor and thats it, it was all history. I loved it and thats a huge sighn that Im getting my body back thank you jesus and weights and treadmilllll.  My girl she even got a little attention her self and she needed it badly to boost her confidence you go hot mami! But I have a slight issue about the clubs….

Why when you get in a club the supper tiny girls go staright to the propping them selves on the wall and just shaking there asses with there feet never moving? I mean come on now I a bigger girl like muah can get a fine muchta like I did by really dancing and moving then why cant you. If your going to do that then get paid for it paleeeezeeeeeeee! LOL

Well that is my confidence booster for the week.. Check on me often hard to tell what Im doing next. Kellie

Yawwwwnnnn I just woke up from all that stuffing! LOL kidding, surprizingly I was good this year! I ate only one big plate and one dessert. However I still feel guilty as hell for some reason? Go figure, well any who the turkey is stripped off the bone to the lean meats all the junk is out of the casa and clean foods are back in! FINALLY BACK TO BUISNESS. Like I said I have a new gym membership and feeling on top of things I have been being carefull about what I eat but eat what I want and being steady in my weight of 230-236 between there. Well Today is that and was the last night Im eatting out at a restraunt I already did my wrong doing early for lunch so i didnt feel as badly about it. Now I have with me a cooler of fruits veggies and chicken boobies and some turkey meat with a small salad and veggies! Totally clean and totally guiltless. I know Ill get hungry later on today so i brought my cooler with me to get on the right track, I know this is the right way to get leaner and the body my and some mens dreams lol I hope to be at least 190 by the time the Arnold classic comes around again. Well till next peeps keep sweating and paying them dues im hear for you as u are for me peace!

Okay, I feel a little proud of my self finally!!! For what happend yesterday at the gym. First off let me give u a look see of what people think of me. People that are fit and naturally leaner always look at me as a liar and dreamer in the fitness world. They never believe how hard I work out when I tell them and they never see how much I know about this industry. No one ever listense to my in put because Im the fatty. Well I just got in my normal zone in the gym yesterday did my run on the treadmill and went to do my push up’s. I place my feet against the wall and start pushing out military or "men" push ups in sets of ten, and blasting my mp3 player.  Well I relize that a guy goes over to my boy Julio and starts talking and looking at me. Im immediatly thinking he is trying to correct my fat ass off the wall or something well. Come to find out he comes over to me and says I MUST SAY YOU ARE THE ONLY CHICK I EVER SEEN DO MILITARY PUSH UPS THAT MANY AND WITH SUCH GOOD FORM!!! IM REALLY IMPRESSED. MY GIRLFRIEND IN TINY AS HELL AND SHE CAN EVEN GO DOWN A INCH LED ALONE PICK HER SELF UP!!!! AWSOME JOB, WELL I crank my gaw up in to closed postion and I was like really? Wow i appriciate it you dont understand how much I needed to hear that. Finally some one relized my hard work i told him how hard i started out like 2 months ago and how i couldnt do one but i made it this far…….. well i guess this goes to show that you dont need to complement just the physical fit to the eye right? |Just reconizing some one can help them a long way in the gym moral dept. Next time at the gym take a good look around you your not the only one in  there…. Okay?

OKay so it has been raining like crazy for the past 2 days, and of course on the days i plan to go running. The first night I worked out in the casa push up’s sit ups and at the police academy. Last night I said **** it and hit the pavement in the rain doing it old school rocky style lol. Any ways, It didnt feel totally complete with out my freaking I POD in which some one stole (****ers) any who Ill buy another tomarrow proubly just the IPOD clip? No scence in a bulky one right? Well any way yesterday me and my mother went to court for my neice in which we finally got custody of her, but it is just the transistion phase of adjusting to not having officials in volved how ever they are still available in case need be… It is crazy I plan on never ever having children in this crazy ass world and over night i become a part time gaurdian and have to assist in raising one. Im dealing though, I have her work out with me and she studies when I do. She is thinking of becomming a cop like muah. How cute! Well that work and the academy is realy putting a damper on my scheduale but hey, Im staying focused no men, or boys in my life! I dont have time for them, nor their drama. Sorry fellas lol well talk to u guys and galss later.

Hey every one!!!!!!!! I know it has been a while, since my last blog ect. But things are freaking nuts here I am working like a dog to the point i hurt to much to work out! If fact I was so pissed at this situation I told my employer that they need to cut my hours to short shift like 5 hours a day or im out well I called them Sunday and told them Im quitting working out is very important to me and my career in the police academy, Id rather be broke for a few months and get paid bank after i get on a department right? Life is about sacrifices and choices. Of course I looked like a mad person the " surface exposed" but people dont understand where Im comming from with this except for the closest in my life. So guess what my empolyer called me like 1 hour later and said they didnt want to lose me im to good of an employee, and they are going to start my new scheduale this week take sunday off and come in at 4pm instead of 12 noon on friday!!!!!! How much of a blessing is that??????? Thanks you jesus! So now I have more time for working out after I leave here Im going to the track and pound the pavement in the light rain we are having. Oh yea im buying a new gym membership this thursday I cant wait to get on a treadmill and hear those plates clanking. well right me please you dont know how much your guys words push me I dont think i would have maintained this and got this far with out you guys

peace

Been busy as a bug a boo after a crush! Ive been working 8 hours, and going straight to the academy after, with only 15-30 minutes times between the two. I hate being busy like that so im currently looking for another job that will give me shorter days. Around 5 hours a shift. Im always to tired to get my work outs in like I want too and my legs are to beat up to get to the track and run…. I hate that I cant put my prioreties in line the way I want them… Academy, fitness, weight losss then what ever falls behind… Every one seems to think Im being selfish wanting to just focus on the academy and working out, but in the long run when and if i graduate this thing Ill have a career and more stabability in the end for others too…… I dont know what Im really going to be doing work wise I need some days comming in but Im waiting on a security company to call me they are giving me 2 12 hour  shifts midnight on sat and sundays. 1.50 less in pay but it is made up in saving gasoline and my energy to work out like I need to be doing. Well any who I did how ever make it to the track today and the cold air and can sting your lungs like needles dannng that stuff sucks. But I walked 2 laps, and ran a mile off and on run 1 minute walk one minute the whole time. and completed it in 15:46 I know it sucks but Im out there and my diet is pretty much on point eating carbs before 2pm 3 sqare meals only a cup full and 2 protien shakes.  and always starting breakfest off with oat meal and 3 strips turkey bacon.. Well thats me for now talk to u guys later peace