The bumpy road of a Transformation

Well last night went to Kings Island in cinci ohio. This was the first time I have been on a roller coaster since 2002 my senior high school trip! Back then i was rufless and thin, last night I was a spaz case. I was scared to ride the big rides like the drop zone, vortex ect the ones that go upside down and 100 mph in a second. For the simple fact that I didnt want to risk getting up there and being to fat for the thing to close…. and I want the thing to latch completly and not risk un latching on the loop….I rode those cart wooden roller coasters but dang they were a tight fit let me tell you!!! It was such a slap in the face and a beatting all around, I can compare my self from today to a few years back and really can tell the diffrence in energy, confidence, & and enthusiasm in life generally… I really want to lose this weight honestly and hole heartedly but i gotta take it one day at a time…. (Also im watching dallas cowboy cheerleader show and well im dreamming thats fo shooo…)

 As you faithfull readers can tell I do a lot of self reflecting because I believe to over come something you must truely reconize where you were and came from to appriciate and understand what you are transforming. You must controll the mind that controlls the body, then the rest will follow. We all know that over weight ppl have a mental issue with food and life in general. We become numb to our surrounding and numb to when we really need full in our tanks.. numbess is the sign of dieing, pain lets you know you are living and learning. Im going trough the pain of relizing my actual physical self and what im doing to my self, now I know what I want even more for my body tomarrow…. Any body hear me out there?

So Ill keep continueing my body detox right now i have a little over 2 weeks left. after this detox i plan to only put clean habits in to my clean system!!!

Monday sept 24th

Did the park two laps.

my one lap time was 30 minutes:

ewwww i felt like i was running bare footed and i think that is what hurt my time, but at least i got the work out…. Used the black and white and red nike pluse shoes.. try the nike shoxs tomarrow..

Oct 03, 2007

Today’s run went well i ran my one lap around the park it is 1.20 miles one time. I sprinted between one light pole and walked the other alternating each like that run one, walk one, and so on!

todays time was a surprize 18:38.55 for a 1.20 miles

I then walked another lap and went home. The new shoes got kicked ass i love them i love them beyong all believe. they are NIKE’S AIR STRUCTURE TRIAX + 10… CHECK THEM OUT!

October 10th at 10:15 pm

Went to the local track in Ironton, ran 6 laps in 23:35

I ran a full lap and half straight through with out stopping, then managed to run 3/4 lap and power walk the one curve. I felt great regardless of the 50’s temperatures.

the first pt assessment is this  saturday at 10:00 hours wish me lunk.

Okay, most of us have seen these’s news reporters get up in a fat suit for a day and be misslead and miss treated because of their false weight issues, right? Well there is one problem with their research no matter how intresting it is. That problem is they dont go to where the social life door is slammed in your face, like a club for example. Second a fat suit dosent make you get the actual reactions of some of these heartless walking mentally dead creeps. You have to actually feel throbbins of sharp needles comming from previous battle wounds of getting treating like a freak of society. Fat suit or not, ppl still have that vibe sense….

Now I dont know about you people but i used to be thing a size 11 teenagers and size 8 adults okay! Now that I am a size 16-18 and obviously “fluffy” I compare my social life from then to now! Only 3-4 years ago I was the shit, I would wear mini skirts with a tastfull top (no hoochieness required). I dance the same way as I did, love going out like I did, never a big drinker no more than 2-3 bacardi razz ect. But the major diffrence I see is that Yes there is a huge diffrence in how I am treated now from when i was skinny!!! I would be up in the clubs and walk out with 10 numbers on a slow night. Now none!!!!!! I could walk on to the dance floor and dance like no body is watching then all the sudden i have 2 some times 3 guys around me and I am doing a tripple date on the dance floor lol lol Now Im only dancing with my girls lol lol…

Another thing! I went out last night with three of my girl friends! And the ugly one I dont know with a really wide mouth wihte trashy looking on walked out with 7 numbers? I know i am not the hottest cookie comming out of the oven but there are times when you know u are more attractive facial feature wise…… Incase you dont know how this feels imagine you being the hott decent abs guy, and your beer belly friend gets all the numbers compaired to you! Think about it.

So I have decided to from now on to log down my weight, a pic of how i was dressed that night, and tally of guys I danced with and numbers I get…. ect… Just to see how the numbers rise while the weight lowers I think this will be intresting and a eye opener!

Peace out

Well I made it through my first week of the Police Academy! Im soo excited to finally get my career on the road and get fit as possible…. Well I got 2 extra tools for the completion of my “Perfect Body”. The tools is that fat blocker ALLI my doctor truely recommended it to me and reportted nothing but good thing about it, hopefull it will get my weight loss back on track… I also got some gell sole insterts for my running shoes. Becasue dang not having good enough shoes can really reap havvic on ones body… I went running around 2 days ago and, and oh my lord felt like i blew my legs out with weight training… Not to mention my lower back. I also got a new I pod arm band holder cause you got to have your tunes man.. Other than that my push ups are comming along slowly but steady,and im still focused.

Well I made it through! I accomplished it well Im not nervous any more because I know it is what I do the best. My instructor is my instructor from 5 years ago when I graduated in 2002. He seems to favor me some what which is nice for a change. I really look up to my instructor here he has sooo much stories and experience to talk about… The first time i went through this academy it has helped me sooo much it isnt funny and landed me some very good jobs in the military law enforcment area…

Now my goal are laid out in a row and are being checked off one by one, I dont plan to stay here at home for too long after I graduate maybe a year or 2 just enough to get that required year experience and get hired for the ARMY civilian police…. I just gotta remain focused and dont let know one get in my way… The other factor that is going to help me in this career is of course my physical fitness! So I really need to focus on PT ect….. I wish I have a partner in the academy that wants to pt with me but so far there are only  3-4 cadets that are extremely serious about this course and that is including me and out of around 22 ppl… HMMMMMMM?

The is this one guy that is serious about it and has to lose a bunch of weight like my self and has mentioned it a few times about training with me. I hope it pulls through cause a year of this by my self is going to make it a very long road ahead..

My estimated graduation date is June 24 of 2008 Keep pushing me guys and gals….

PEACE

Well got my neice out of foster care, so im dealing with that and she is finally use to the situation between me and my mom and staying diffrent nights with us both. I also bought my own home with a mean yard and pourch and cant wait to move it, the parking in my place now sucks, i always have to park 2-3 blocks down the street!!! My new place is a two bedroom trailer out in the country I miss it some what but love the city also, I’m torn.

Any who, tomarrow is the first day of the police academy WOOOT WOOOT Im sooo stoked! To finally get my career on the road after wasting time in a marraige that just broke me down totally all the way around. Once i settle in to the academy’s flow I will fully be on the correct path to squaring my self away and rediscovering who I am and what I want to be. My main focuses right now are to deal with my neice make it through the academy top of the class and give the boys a run for their money!!!!!  Then to eventually get on the local department here and then go DOD ARMY civilian police, and enlist in to the reserves and retire from both careers at the same time!!! Thats my light ahead and what fulls my fitness right now. I totally focused and ready for my career to start!

My gym membership I cancelled it, because Im just tired of them never being open Sundays, and closed holidays! It ruins my flow every dang time! I hate it, so much. So that extra money I will have Im going to buy a set of 25LBS interlock dumbells the type that adjust inside them selves smart dumbells i guess you can say? Get a adjustable bench, some great work out dvd’s like cardio boot camp lol (always thought those were funny) run up and down my country road and eventually get a bowflex all in one home gym! But we all know how those are on the wallet.

DONT FORGET PUSH UPS PUSH UPS PUSH UPS!

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