mishca dolby’s BodyBlog

strong>ahh..you know what pives me,stupid people.really is there a special card they give out when your born.this is to certifie that you are stupid and will be stupid for the rest of your life.you will be asn ass to all kind people all over the world and you will stab people in the back,cross them and try and make yourself look better,but people will know that your still a stupid ass and will never change.i know i shouldnt mix my gym life with personal life and maybe i shouldnt have been nice to people[person]i think need more friends.i tried with this new gym keeping my mouth shut,doing my own deal,and if i talk to anyone it is in fun and just regular put down gym talk.now why do i get slack from some little puke,that i felt sorry for.rolled everything i ever said to him and threw up crap that he mixed all up in his little pee brain ,just to look like hes big stuff around certain people that he will notever be on the same scale as them no matter what he says.now,my ass is grass becasuse of his certified stupidity by mixing up words with his discusting malicious pee brain…you know,when a woman spends time to even talk to you ,you should be grateful..i might have lost a very good friends trust because of this little crappers stupid ass coments..im tired of being nice to the weak.my heart is stone now,and if i am approached for conversation from certified stupid losers [men or a certain woman] then i will walk away in a rude manner[that will make me feel terrible but im sure i will be better off for it].i like the gym basnter,i grew up in the gym,i myself would never take anyone seriously as i hoped they wouldnt,thats just the way things are in the gym.but,just because im a mom or a woman dont take me as weak i will crush every part of your heart and soul if you do me wrong.this is my house of pain and i will not lie under it,i will tower above!……….ahhhhhhhhhhh i need a some herb tea and a massage…

ahh man this workout dealy is killin me.do they [the muscle gods]not relize there are holidays in the year.mothers day,am i not supposed to remember the mom hell the kids have put me threw and not be able to have some baileys or maybe some ,god forbide,ketchup without feeling guilty..come on,mommy should do what she wants on mommy day.to feel guilty for eating something which might contain a pod of salt or fat is not the contract i signed up for 21 years ago..i know i dont have to and i can eat what ever i want because i am my own keeper of this vessel,but after this long i have trained my insecure over critcal brain to tell me i cant eat these things.damn on me tsk tsk…i do have my one to many coffees and at times i will sneek some mini licorish[shhh]now i havent trained for two days and i fel like a big chunky ass lump sittin beside jackoff the frog waitin on our next meal to fly by..i should do legs today..a light one[ lol you know that wont happpen]i need to find some cuts in ass and inner thigh.which really wont show till mega cardio[which we know also wont happen]my hack and leg press are pretty much the same.even if i do feel my back about to spring out up into the butt of the guy doing lying hams behide me..maybe next time i should wear my belt.its not that i ned it for the weight but really,i am aging a tad and i really should be up right when my kids graduate one day [i hope][god..as if][no .i have total confidence][really]..my arms are getting better but i only really see it with good delt days.i still have a love hate relationshio with my mama belly.the one down belly swingin side to side when im bent over,trying to remind me that yes ,you had four babies bodies in this shuttle.a woman can only o so many leg raises before one desides that this belly below is not going any where soon.there is always a tummy tuck .im not scared of the knife but i sont want to lose my tatts.so im gong to have to just suck up my ribs all day and do some cardio[which not bloody likely will happen]i will be fine with mucle shirts over bikini,im good with that.though…i do like my breasts so if i had just a shirt that covered my shuttle belly that would be good too…or maybe that might age me more with one of them..hhmm hard call..suck it up and get on cardio?hard call…god im glad this whole summer thing only lasts two months,wheres my freakin skiis and winter coat,now im better ..:)

oh my god,nails how the heck am i supposed to type when i have these nails,maybe not such a smart idea.they do look hot though my workouts have been going greatish…no injuries thus far from doing heavy but i definetly time to heel after leg day.seems my left quad gets a little to much strain,so it tries to wine and complain after.telling me it hurts to walk,ahhh whatever you walk like your right one is and you shut up about the needling pain straining throughout..god..complainers..i figured doing two plates side and five each on press that maybe my outter quad would get bigger,butnope.of course not,bugger.really,looking at me most cant tell i lift so heavy.which is good with me..i guess..i dont want to look gigantic but i do invite more quad and bi size….i think men have a love for the sexy hot muscles as much for atheletic fit girls.i was[not that i do it often][:)]looking up photo sites and found just as many porn skinny ass chicks as i did muscular sexy ones….there is someone for everyone and fat skinny or muscles their are men and woman of all…so your shy inocent guy shouldnt be worried about finding a woman,or big fat sloppy woman shouldnt hate yourself when there is people of all statures out there….as far as ugly,fat people,i really dont condone it{:)}but i know your out there and i guess you need cuddles too,but im still not happy about you ….i  have a new comfy beautiful bed now so i think the fatal pain i feel every night in my hip and lower back will start getting better and the whole crawling out of bed thing will be in the past..i know bodybuilders that have simular pain and a lot has to do with the bed..but not for me now..i love my beddy bed mmmm sleep……mind you i did go to doctors other day and he said my bladder has moved down from being short and doing such heavy weights my whole life,said to stop or go real light..lol lol lke what the hell,dont think so..like that would ever happen..take a lung or kidney im still doing heavy weights..its like not putting on mascara before leaving the house,or not ever cleaning your nails ,or not wiping your butt..its not ever going to happen.this is my sanity,my home,my castle amongst the villagers,mama dont stop weights for anyone…nope not even brad pitt..hmm brad pitt naked buffed standing in front of me with potatoes yorkshore and roast..hmm just wait..and a mop?….hmmmnope,not even