mikenteresa’s BodyBlog

OK so what is it with the people here? Ive blogged and forumed and done the progress pics…but the feedback that I need to keep on track just doesnt happen. Just when I think things will turn around, Ive made a few new friends, it all stops! I need a couple of close friends to communicate with! Im not in this for the popularity, just some friendly support. Ya know, fellow gym rats and people that struggle daily to find the perfect combination of diet and excersize that’ll be the magic bullet. Yeah, I DO bitch ALOT, but thats a womans perogative, isnt it? I wouldnt complain so much if I could figure out what will actually WORK ! Im a trainer for Petes sake, and if I cant figure out what’ll work for me, how can I help OTHERS!!! How can I get other people motivated, when my own motivation is so topsy-turvy???  Dont get me wrong, Im not saying its anybodys fault (but my own) for my lack of progress…. Sometimes its just nice to know theres somebody else out there dealing w/ the same things.

OK so what is it with the people here? Ive blogged and forumed and done the progress pics…but the feedback that I need to keep on track just doesnt happen. Just when I think things will turn around, Ive made e few new friends, it all stops! I need a couple of close friends to communicate with! Im not in this for the popularity, just some friendly support. Ya know, fellow gym rats and people that struggle daily to find the perfect combination of diet and excersize thatll be the magic bullet. Yeah, I DO bitch ALOT, but thats a womans perogative, isnt it? I wouldnt complain so much if I could figure out what will actually WORK for ME! Im a trainer for Gods sake, and if I cant figure out what’ll work for me, how can I help OTHERS!!! How can I get other people motivated, when my own motivation is so topsy-turvy???

Just dropping some thoughts real quick…W/O’s have been rockin’ lately. My new motto is "GO BIG or GO HOME!" As Im trying to add a bit more muscle. Gaining quite the rep @ the gym for being an "animal". I love it. It just makes me want to try that much harder. The body recomp, or cutting, or what ever the hell its called, is still a headache. But Im learning more and more each day that the choices I make right now for instant gratification will stick w/ me later(literally).  Ive decided that Illl be OK w/ 26" thighs and a big butt as long as I can stop bullets w/it!! "Bulletproof Motivation"

Well, here I am at the computer again-procrastinating my W/O….Just browsing through my stats and others to pick up some motivation. Looking @ my progress pics, wondering whats going on inside my body. It all seems to be backfiring. Cant help but wonder if it could be stress. Not the excersize so much. Just life in general has become so much more stressful in the past two years. Being self employed in NY state is a huge HEADACHE!!!  I have figured out that Im an emotional eater, and when Im stressing out I do NOT know what to do w/my anxiety. So I guess its a double edged sword, because I stress out over losing weight and it comes right back to bite me in the a$$!! Whatever, its way too psychological for me to figure out! A nice massage or a vacation or  something would be sweet, but thats just a dream right now. Anyway, Im thinking about starting a journal or posting my diet here. Maybe it would help me stay more focused. Then on the other hand… Ill probably lose my ISP soon cause I cant pay it, and I hate to start what I cant finish….Im sure a more positive outlook on things would be a major help, but theres a real feeling of negativity that comes when ones life is getting sucked down the toilet, and attainable goals always seem to be JUST out of reach. Can you sat LOSER!?! 

This body recomp is becoming a pain in tha a$$!! Im growing weary of trying and instead of getting the results I want, going backwards. I just cant figure it out. Maybe I shouldve just followed my own instincts instead of listening to other people. I dont know… Changing my w/o and diet surely hasnt pushed me in the right direction. “Eat more, do less cardio”….wheres it gotten me? Besides more of a muffin top, and a fatter a$$?!?!  I try to stay positive about my fitness quest, but my love of the sport is quickly being overtaken by discouragement and a negative attitude. Im at a point where I need to see a turnaround, or Im just going to have to let it go. Give it up. This ha s consumed me and is really affecting my lif e. Maybe Im just being a whiner, or impatient, but what the hell. I looked and felt better before I started trying …REALLY trying. How can it be???????????

I finally uploaded progress pics today..what a let down that was. Going on some advice I got to eat more clean cals(around 1800), cut back on cardio, and concentrate on the weight training. Well, Ive been at it for about 3 weeks…and Voila!! Sheer disappointment!! How long do I have to wait to see a POSITIVE change? Im so frustrated! Is 1800 cals/day too much?? Im trying to lean bulk, but honestly I dont think ditching the cardio is working for me. Any thoughts on this? can it be that some of us just need it to keep the BF down?

Has anyone ever felt theyve stalled out? Not just with progress but motivation? I never thought the day would come for me…but its here and it sucks! Never had issues with busting my butt. But lately I procrastinate my workouts & when i finally do them, theyre halfhearted…just going through the motions. Its always been a passion and an art form to me, but lately…. what the hecks going on? Maybe the lack of progress, the holidays? I dont know…been trying really hard to stay focused on the "diet". Changed workout from a split to full-body 3x’s/wk. Maybe im just in a slump.  It would be nice to hear from someone whose been through this….maybe some suggestions on how to get my ass back in gear. I will not quit, but where is my FIRE???

Has anyone ever felt theyve stalled out? Not just with progress but motivation? I never thought the day would come for me…but its here and it sucks! Never had issues with busting my butt. But lately I procrastinate my workouts & when i finally do them, theyre halfhearted…just going through the motions. Its always been a passion and an art form to me, but lately…. what the hecks going on? Maybe the lack of progress, the holidays? I dont know…been trying really hard to stay focused on the "diet". Changed workout from a split to full-body 3x’s/wk. Maybe im just in a slump.  It would be nice to hear from someone whose been through this….maybe some suggestions on how to get my ass back in gear. I will not quit, but where is my FIRE???

I cant seem to get a handle on the nutrition thing. I workout 5-6 days a week. 30-45 mins pretty intense cardio(70-85% MHR) plus weight training. Usually dumping 1200-1500 cals/day according to my heart rate monitor. I eat a fairly clean diet(25-30%fat, 35-40% carbs, 30-40%pro), track what I eat, and the fat still will not budge off my ass and thighs!! Im getting more than a little discouraged. In fact Ive been too embarrassed to upload progress pics because of my lack of progress. I have taken a step back(an extra day off or just taking it easy for a couple weeks) more than once because I thought I was overtraining, but then when I come back to it….still no results!!! Unless bigger thighs and fatter saddlebags count!  Any advice from the experienced ones out there would be much appreciated!