From Despair to a future I’d never imagine, this is What BB has done for me
Saved my life….literally….This isn’t something I talk about much but hey sometimes you have to share in hopes it might help someone else. 1 year ago I walked in the gym with the goal of getting buff and all that good stuff and well what was about to happen to me was something I would of never imagined. You see my whole life I have suffered from various "psyche" disorders including anxiety, been given the adhd diagnosis as a kid, bipolar, you name it. Last year I just felt horrible and honestly wanted to off my self but luckily did not. This wasn’t because something really was wrong in my life, in fact everything was fine, just the way my brain works I guess makes me this way.Anyhow when I enter a gym I feel a high like never before and yes I go through the feelings where I want to just turn around, to tired, etc, but once I start I go into zone, a zen state of nothingness (hence my name here methodzero) zero doubts zero thought zero mental illness, I just…."am" I leave with a sense of peace which comforts me for a good amount of hours and I feel whole or normal whatever that means. So I write this because of course body building is about goals, about being ripped and hot, who doesn’t want to be hot right, but what doesn’t get mentioned as much here is what it does to people inside. I am not stretching the truth ….if I did not get up that night and drive to my local gym, I would not be here, I was shaky, anxious, had eating issues, didn’t go out much, laid around, and just did not care and could not wait until I no longer breathed, on the outside I wore almost a 36 inch waist and only like 155 lbs (skinny fat), I was so weak that I would get winded walking to the car. 1 year later I just bought a pair of 29/30 inch waist jeans, yea and my body is hard as a rock (not big yet), veins everywhere, strength tripled, treadmill time more than tripled,not bad for 1 year, but the mental aspect is amazing, so amazing that I am studying to be a trainer soon and want to help others and really try to focus on helping others who have mental things going on…I no longer take medicine because the dopamine I get from working out helps me (I am not a doctor so if you take medicine dont stop unless your doc says). Anyhow in a nutshell what I wanted to say was that I will always have depression but because of body building and this website, depression will never have me. Peace.
January 4, 2008 at 8:11 pm
I know exactly what you mean. Bodybuilding (and very intense cardio) has basically "cured" me of my very severe depression.
January 4, 2008 at 8:17 pm
thats great Maddi…it really is an amazing thing, and much cheaper than therapy,lol.
January 4, 2008 at 8:29 pm
Just like you I suffer from depresstion, its so hard to get motivated and stay that way. Working out makes me feel good, sometimes I zone out and other times I don’t. You remind me of my son, I have been wanting to get him in the gym, and I know he will benifit from it. Just finding the time to do it, I work out in the morning while he is in school. I could do it when he gets home and take him, but by then I am so worn out who wants to go back late at night? But I know how you feel, I am just in the begining of bodybuilding I just need to be consistant.
January 4, 2008 at 8:36 pm
Yes sticking to it can be hard , in fact I noticed how busy it was tonight at my gym and the owner saying it is always like this with all the people with gift certificates and new year resolutions, he said out of the 40 or so new people, maybe 5..yea "5" will stick to it… The first months can be hard to saty motivated and hey I am still human I still have emotions and I will always have depression and anxiety issues, it is the chemicals in my body, but medicines for me never worked "for me" and now that I work out, eat right, and take amino acids and vitamins, the depression no longer owns me, I own it but still have it, if that makes sense.Wish you and your son the best