Sense of New Found Determination (lol)
What makes you really want to drop the pounds and get that weight off (lol), when an ex-boyfriend that you haven’t seen in years (more than ten) sees pics of you on bodybuilding.com 50lbs heavier then when you dated him. Talk about embarressment. Can’t dwell on it and can’t change what’s happened that has led me to this point. Can only change the future and accomplish my goals that I want to achieve and that I have set forth for myself. But still down right embarressing for me to have him see pics of me at my worst 
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Sorry the battle of the buldge continues on but now with some newfound determination to really lose the weight and tone the muscle to get back to where I was but better. Light is at the end of the tunnel and I’m working my way down 
….I will look good in that bathing suit this summer…I will slim that tummy…I will perk up that booty….I will complete my goals:)
March 21, 2008 at 1:59 am
Oh yeah… I will post pics in the future that will make ex-boyfriends be like DAMN….(LOL)/(J/k).
March 21, 2008 at 4:54 am
Hey! The justice will come when he stops back by for a peek & sees your progress pics! I’m always looking for sources of motivation & the one you describe seems to be a common one in my life, ie., seeing a formerly apathetic -ex effortlessly crossing the finish line at a 1/2-marathon…looking pretty damn spectacular, to boot. That got a few more reps out of me! Best of luck! al
March 21, 2008 at 7:36 am
A positive attitude is the key and you definitely have that! Wishing you continued success!
March 21, 2008 at 12:26 pm
You need to face your present square on, and do what you need to do. Forget about the ex he wasn’t the one for you, but you need to get to where you want to be for you. You’re headed in the right direction, you will succeed. Enjoy your journey.
March 21, 2008 at 12:53 pm
Just to have someone say Damn, she looks good. Not necessarily jealousy or the need to make this huge impression on an ex. Were actually on good terms & I know that he supports me right now. It’s like seeing someone from highschool ten years later and you were always the fit one that wore cute clothes. I was always the cheerleader with the short skirt and lean legs. When they all of a sudden see you ten years later and you went from a size 5 to a size 16, it’s embarressing. As much as we can focus on our goal ahead and that main goal doesn’t necessarily change, you really wanna crawl into a hole at that particular moment. Because you know that they are looking at you, like damn she let herself go. I can’t say that I have not said that myself about other people so I know the initial reaction. I can say that a lot of people have done that, but it doesn’t make it any easier (lol). It is time for me to focus on the now and just instead get the support from him which I would take anyday and just be happy that he is doing well today
But still, want him to look at me like damn. Can’t say that’s why a lot of us work out the way that we do. Some of it is fitness and some of it is just wanting to look downright awesome. For me, feels a little bit sweeter when it’s an ex. (lol).