Melda’s Body Blog

Okay, let’s start off with first things first. Chest/abs done. Am cardio done. Hopefully I will make it through for a second bout, but slowly getting sleepy and remember I’m a nightshifter, still haven’t gone to sleep yet.

Found someone that will work on contest prep with me and he sounds really good. Has many years in the industry & trains with figure competitors also. I have 27 wks to get it together if I’m going to make it on that stage. I have a lot of bodyfat to get rid of & muscle to gain so I’ve got to really get it together if this is going to happen. I’ve got to start getting my double cardio’s in & really clamp down on the diet. 5 more weeks to my clinical is supposed to be over & about 7 or 8 more until finals are done. Life will be a little bit easier then but even better once I have a job in place.

Will be working on my applications today & tomorrow so that I can get them out on Tuesday. Need to make sure that they are out then so I can put mine in for my job. I was thinking about applying where I do my clinical and still am just in case but I really want to work as a nurse where I am currently employed. I was at work last night & realized how much I enjoyed working with my co-workers. It’s hard to make a transition to another place & if I have to then that’s just a part of life, but enjoying the company of your co-workers is a big deal in a job. Plus I know where everything is & I would feel more comfortable with a lot of things. Patient/staff ratio is better. The place is better organized also. It is also closer to where I live. The other place unfortunately has basically a gaurenteed job for me though. We’ll see what happens. I have to make the first step though.

I may already have a job lined up for after graduation. Only time will tell now. I was and still am going to apply to the place that I currently work at but I am also applying to the place that I currently have my clinicals. Both have pretty good atmospheres but I do get along with my current co-workers really well where I work. I doubt that I would end up on that floor and the other floor that is open is very stressfull as well as very unorganized. i have not been up there in a while but still see staff from there. The place where I am doing my clinicals has some of the same problems (but every place generally does) and there staff seems to get along pretty well. I will be working on a different shift however but tend to get a good vibe when they come in. Different factors play into the whole thing but the most important ones are. #1. I basically just need to apply where I am doing my clinical and would find out whether I have a job almost immediately. #2. would work 3-11pm and would get off the night shift. Didn’t think it was something that would bother me, but I think that I need a break and it’s time. #3 I would be able to get 40hrs. I know how many days and what shift I would be working, I love my hospital but working 3-11pm would get me off night shift, give me an opportunity to get my workouts in around my job without stressing me out (now you know I’m addicted, lol), and #I want to move off cape one day and closer to the city. #4. I want a job in general. I would take the first one that would give me an opportunity. I believe in taking chances but my graduating class is stressed out about finding a job. Yes nursing has a shortage but as a new grad around here, it’s difficult to find a new grad program and not a job as a experienced nurse, big difference. Well just venting and at the same time excited that I may have a job lined up…where I can sleep in my bed at night, not worry about my dog waking my neighbors up, and be able to get my workouts in at the same time (lol). Wish me luck, putting applications in on Friday or next week at both places

Okay a good friend from here (thanks) mentioned something to me about the Muscle Tech transformation contest. Before I could even reply, I was looking that damn thing up (lol). I am so in. Progress pics, UP (although not as good as I had hoped, was hoping for more progress and look like I gained weight). Input my info and now just waiting to add my info to the group blog. I am soooooo gonna work this thing. Hoping to build that muscle & get rid of that fat. Love the transformation contest, but really, really, really want to win this one. Ends June 16, so keep an eye out for my progress pics. May not post quite as much, may want to keep people guessing (lol). Yeah right, it’s me were talking about. I’ll be posting for any damn change. Well, wish me luck and gonna bring it.

Well it’s now been over 5 weeks since I started working out again. I am so happy and proud of myself for finally making the commitment and not back on the "I’ll start tomorrow program" (lol). I’ve done that too many times and ended up just increasing in weight. Nutrition & training has changed from looking for a quick fix to eating right and getting my training (both strength & cardio) in for the long run. Quick fixes lead to nothing but going crazy and having a free for all with food in the end.

Besides the BFL individual challenges I have now also joined a team from another website. I think that this team is going to give me all the motivation & desire to really push it to another level:). They are all competing in figure which is something that I have always dreamed of and used to watch competitions all the time before on tv. Never been to an actual one but there will be one coming up in the middle of April that I get to go see. Watching their progression and the transformations that they have already made is so inspriring, and it’s great to be able to have people watch me transform and one day in the future compete. I do have a long ways to go but as transformation of the week has proved on bodybuilding.com, it can be done with a lot of motivation, drive, discipline, and determination. I have all of those.

Right now I’m just extremeley happy and enjoying the gradual changes that I feel and have been noticing in my body. Although we can’t pick areas for our fat to come off, I’ve been pretty pleased with mine:)…I don’t feel so heavy anymore, like I’m walking around with a 10lb weight all the time, and I definitely have increased energy. I am starting to feel a lot better about myself which helps tremendously and that affects my life in so many aspects (dating, going out with friends & family, self-confidence). I am beginning to get my old self back again which I love. When my girl-friend asked me to go out the other night, two months ago I would have made an excuse, a hell yes dropped out of my mouth and then I texted her back;)…I love beginning to notice suble changes in my figure even though there’s still a lot to come. Less cellulite appearance in the hams, bum starting to look less wide which helps with it looking flat, bum looks like it may be curving a little but we’ll see with photographs as the time comes, I notice more definition in my arms when I’m working out at the gym, and man have I lost a lot of weight around my middle. I still have a lot there but my back roll is slowly deflating (lol) and I absolutely love it.

So today is a good day and I am very happy to continue on;)

Also, Happy Easter everyone.

So I went out dancing tonight with a couple of girlfriends. Let’s just say that it’s been a loooonnng time since I’ve been to the club (lol). I work as a nursing assistant and go to school for nursing so basically, I’m always in nursing shoes or clogs…Heels just don’t sit right anymore (lol). Of all the places that used to hurt when I went out though, the calves are killing me (lol). Never had that before. It was usually the thighs that hurt or maybe the a**. But tonight it’s definitely the calves.

 Tonight felt great. it felt great to go out again. Kept declining proposals to go out because i felt to fat, etc. and then the repeat cycle begins. Feel bad for yourself, eat crap. Feel bad for self, have a drink.

Lose 15 pounds and feel a whole lot better and take your a** on the dance floor and burn the calories (lol). Need to continue with weight loss though so I can wear some more cute clothes in the future.

Note to self: Vacuum in the heels so they don’t hurt so damn much next time though.

So my two weeks are over today. I have 70 days left. Which of course the next 7 - 8 are probably going to be the most stressful but it will test my motivation and discipline which are really high right now, so it’s all good. The countdown began two weeks ago, but there is something about ten for me. So again ten weeks and 70 days till I finish the BFL 12 week program and until my graduation is here on …..May 30. I’m very excited and so far very happy with my results. My next focus over the next 7-8 weeks is going to be making sure that I get my workouts in but more on nutrition and making sure that I am eating enough, having my protein with a good carb (especially morning & noon), getting in my water intake (trying for 3/4 to 1 gallon), taking my multi-vitamin, & getting my flax-seed oil in. I hear about nutrition being 80% of training so I will get my workouts in when I can but focus, focus, focus on the diet . The last two weeks to three weeks, I should be done with clinical and just have my lecture and finals left. Most of my projects & main coursework will be out the way so I can add in more exercise if needed, mainly in the areas of really increasing on those weights and adding in more cardio. Also want to start adding in more runs because well…if I’m gonna run the Falmouth Road Race, I gotta start really implementing the runs and start trying for some longer runs in there :0) . So ready set go, the countdown begins at ten weeks, and 70 days.

What makes you really want to drop the pounds and get that weight off (lol), when an ex-boyfriend that you haven’t seen in years (more than ten) sees pics of you on bodybuilding.com 50lbs heavier then when you dated him. Talk about embarressment. Can’t dwell on it and can’t change what’s happened that has led me to this point. Can only change the future and accomplish my goals that I want to achieve and that I have set forth for myself. But still down right embarressing for me to have him see pics of me at my worst ….

Sorry the battle of the buldge continues on but now with some newfound determination to really lose the weight and tone the muscle to get back to where I was but better. Light is at the end of the tunnel and I’m working my way down ….I will look good in that bathing suit this summer…I will slim that tummy…I will perk up that booty….I will complete my goals:)

So I posted my end of 2 wks BFL pics today (it’s actually tomorrow, but I have work tonight & clinical in the morning , no workout for me tomorrow ..) I wasn’t really expecting a lot of changes because i didn’t do so hot over the weekend but made up for it the rest of the week. Had a couple of double cardio days. Was going to do one today but I think I am deciding against it and going to let me body rest. Did my BFL HIIT cardio this morning, same speeds but man was I exhausted, wanted to slow it down so baaaaadddd, but made it through (lol). Definitely hit a ten today at the end. Love having a treadmill at home so I don’t have to look like an ass at the gym when I’m doing that (lol). Starting to see a few changes in my body now. Stomach is feeling a little smaller, starting to notice my quads a little (just a little, but it makes me smile …) I have a pair of my fat jeans that I bought and eventually couldn’t fit into and am now almost there. Gotta thin the bottom half a little (lol). I did try on the brown top in one of my pics though and can fit back into it. Wouldn’t wear that out quite yet, but give me ten more pounds off and I’d be sporting it (at a club that is, lol).

So back to my point, posted new pics and not expecting changes but I definitely noticed some . I know people say not to post pics every week but I like to. It keeps me more motivated and doesn’t let me give excuses of why I can give way a little during the week. My weekly pics are my accountability for my performance that week. So even if I don’t have phenonmenal changes, I also don’t want to take a step back because I know I won’t be posting pics till a whole month later. Get my drift. That said, not looking for a miraculous change but something very, very subtle and will compare pics from beginning to end or around every 4-6 weeks against each other. So I am heading in the right direction and hoping to look hot in that bathing suit in the future ahead