medic5450’s BodyBlog

it is funny how life can throw you curve balls when you least expect it. sometimes for the good and sometimes at the wrong time. i believe everything happens for a reason whether we want it or not. i am in that situation right now. i did what i thought was best at this time. i may not like it, but it is what it is. i will not elaborate on it. just relationship issues. i just hope it works out for the best.
  i am trying to stay focused on the gym and work. i have nothing else here. my family and friends live else where. just trying to fit in here. been in atl for 2 years and feel like an outsider. not much time for anything right now. just making sure i keep my head in the gym. i have lost about 9 pds in the last to weeks. thanks stress. i didn’t want to lose right now. but some it was from my mid section so a little good. lol. i am just trying to figure out life’s questions and not getting any answers. i know that sometimes no answer is the best answer, but i don’t like that. i just had to vent a little. won’t anymore for now. just ready to get off work and go to the gym.

I had a great workout today. I did back and arms. I was really in the zone. Had my ipod on, just focusing on my workout. I have really needed a good workout like this. Not that my workouts haven’t been good. It has been a little hard to focus with relationship issues going on. The gym is my stress release, and i feel like I let a bunch out today. I might even go back tonight just to do some cardio. I just feel so much beter when i do get a good workout in. I do need to get me a workout log so i can start posting my workouts on here and getting some different advice. i know what i have been doing, but just to lazy to write it down. i know i need to do some changing though.

I am not sure what to write in these blogs most of the time. There are a couple reasons. The first is that I am not very good at writing, I tend to ramble and write like I talk. LOL. The second reason is I don’t always want to sound like I am ranting about nothing. The third is I do not always want to talk about nutrition or training, but I do like to every once in a while. God knows I could use some help with the nutrition. I do like to be able to get on here and just say how I feel about things in my life but not sure if that is appropriate either. I know this is probably a useless post to most that read this, but I don’t really care. The people that leave comments are usually the positive people on bodyspace, I know that we can all use some positive energy in our lives. That is one reason I love this site. This site is a great pick me up when your down. I do like to share things on here, but never to the point that it sounds like whining. lol. I have been lifting for a while but, still not real sure about writing my workouts out and I do have a hard time keeping a workout log book. Any body have any advice on how to keep a better track on myself so I can make the gains I know I can. I have had a log book but it has been a while and i can’t find one that I really like either. Now it sounds just like I am rambling again. lol. anyway, hope everyone has a great week.

i have been under alot of stress lately from work to relationship. It has really taken it’s toll on me. I am nolt here to bitch or moan about it, it is what it is and life is full of stress. I am just stating I think without the gym and being able to workout that I think I would loose my mind sometimes. lol.  The gym is the best stress relief there is I believe. You can go workout and just lose yourself in your workout an dwith your i-pod just make things go away for a little while. Work out all your frustations and benefit in the process. I have been doing alot of that lately. I just wish that life was a little easier sometimes like I’m sure people in the world wished that to. But I do know that stress will kill you unless you have an outlet. I do make the most of myh time in the gym. I have the best time and benefit so much from it. I just wish that more people in the world knew how to take care of their stress like this instead of always turning to medication. Anyway enough of my ranting. lol

The past couple of weeks I have really gotten myself back into the gym. I now can tell how much I have really missed the workouts. I love the way I am starting to feel again. My strength is starting to come back. I am also getting some of my size back. But the feeling that I get just from being back in the gym is just the best. I love feeling healthy. I know that as long as I can stay healthy I will do my best to try and get ready for a show. I have a lot of ground to make up now. But I know I can do it. I have encouragement from my girlfriend. She is my everything and gives me the motivation I need. I can only think her for everything she has done for me. She is my inspiration.

I have been having a tough time getting back into the gym lately, since I had a touch of pneumonia at the end of November. I  just haven’t had the energy or desire at this point. It has really taken alot out of me. I lost almost 20 pounds during the two weeks. Now it seems that I might have lost some of hat fire I had before I got sick. Now I have told myself that I am just making excuses not to start training seriously again. In the past couple of days I have seemed to catch the fire I had before I got sick. I am tired of the way I have been feeling and the rut I have been in. I see myself as more determined as every to get the body I want. I will not let the joy I have for working out be taken anymore. I have my wonderful girlfriend to thank for helping to get the fire back. She has supported me through all this. I know now that for the past couple of weeks i have been making excuses and the time to stop is now. i’ll quit ranting. LOL. good luck with everyone’s training and I hope that you never lose that fire.

Just had a really good workout today. The first in about 2 weeks, just getting over having some walking pneumonia. That stuff really kicked my butt. I have lost about almost 15 pounds. But i still feel strong, even though I have lost some size I have lost some weight around my mid-section. So being sick had some good side effects, lol. i think that having that time off also helped me I felt stronger today doing chest and shoulder. I really thought I might have a down day. I suprised myself even with the weight I lost. I start my diet on monday to hopefully do a show in April or May. I have alot of work to do, especially with my abs and legs. I am going to give it all that I have to get ready. All my time is going to be spent in the gym. I do not have any time to play. Now I just have to get that diet right. I have the workout like I want. It’s all out now.

i had a good workout tonight. worked back and arms. starting to do more abs and cardio. i have already started to clean up my diet. i haven’t had a soda for over 2 years so no problem there. i stopped drinking sweet tea about 2 months ago. i have been cleaning up my diet alot, hopefully it will help me when i start my diet in dec.. i know that it is not going to be easy. i am hoping for alot of support, from family and friends. i will have a really good meal on thanksgiving and try to get all the sweets out of my system by dec 1. not that it is much of a problem, just ice cream. lol.  i have gotten alot of support from the people on this site and i can’t thank them enough for there support.  i know that my weakness is abs and legs. i have added another leg day to try and get them up to par. the show i want to do is in either april or may next year. i know it is not far away and i already have the buterflies. i want to look right when i get on stage. i don’t want to make an ass of myself.  this is something i have really wanted to do for a long time. i at least want to do it for one time in my life. i want to say that i accomplished this goal, this is a personal goal i want for myself. no one can take this from me. this is all on me, i have to do this myself. i’ll stop rambling now.

sitting here at work thinking about my workout tonight. i have had such a change in the way i feel about working out in the last 2 months. i have really come to the decision that i would like to compete one day. i really would like to get to the point where i can do a show next year. i have made all the excuses for not dieting like i should, not doing the cardio or working abs, to the point that i have run out. the older i get i know that some things in life are not given to you and you have to work hard for them. i know that i would love to do a show. i just need that motivation some times. that is why i came to bodybuilding.com. my girlfriend gives me alot of support. i just need some motivation from other people. to see the transformation that can happen when you set and go through with your goals. i cant use my job as an excuse anymore, because i have access to a 24 hr gym now. i am to nervous to put any shirtless pictures on here yet due to i have way to much fat around my abdomen, one day i will when i have made progress. i know that i’m just rambling. not much going on at work right now and trying to get motivated to go work out in a little while.