Make it work.
It is winding down here at work and I am sitting down for my “break” 30 min before we close. I’ll be out of here in an hour and a half and I find myself trying to time when I drink my sugar free red bull I have stashed in one of the coolers. I’m going to the gym when I leave here because my wife’s car is in the shop and she will need mine in the morning to go to school. So as not to inconvenience her I will be the idiot in the gym running miles, doing box jumps, and sweating out every piece of lettuce I ate today, while the rest of this town roll over in their sleep and burps up pizza.
I don’t have a problem being that guy. I’m that guy at work, I’m that guy amongst my friends, I’m even that guy at home. But is being that guy really getting me anywhere? I’m still working two jobs. I’m still to scared to call up my photographer friend to get in there and take some pics of me. I’m still taking one class at a time to try to get this stupid MBA. I’m just still. I’m doing lots of movement and all of it feels like forward steps but am I taking a million forward steps in a million different races??
I think this is the lack of carbs talking. I’m sure I will deny ever writing this in two weeks but it’s what’s on my mind right now. I’m so excited about my progress at work, at the gym, in class, and even in my home but sometimes doing for self gets tiring. It would be nice to get some type of reward. A thank you, a good job, a RAISE, or even a keep it up the light at the end of the tunnel is getting closer and “BOY IS IT A DUSSIE”!
September 5, 2008 at 6:40 am
Man, thats not lack of carbs talking. Thats life talking to you.
Or maybe I have that conversation with myself often since I hardly EVER eat carbs. Boy is that a beast.
Ha ha, at any rate, you’re probably right. Since you’re doing 1 million different things, you’re taking 1 million foward steps in each of those things. However, the reason it seems like you’re not getting anywhere is because, unfortunately, you can’t take 1000 steps over here because that would be 999 steps you could have distributed everywhere else.
I’m calling it the curse of the ring.
That was part of my problem and well, considering this project I’m working on requires way more nerd powers than athlete powers, then the ring is getting rusty. Might as well let someone that can use it at the moment borrow it.
However, progress is a great thing and at times it can be a little overwhelming. The high of it can just come down crushing on you and you’re like, "damn, I’m tired of this. Can I just relax? Can I cash in all of these work/karma points I’ve made and get something out of the catalog?" I say, enjoy the high because that means at least you’re happy with your life.
Remember this though, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, it is getting closer, and you’re going to be overwhelmed with "wow, I made it" when you get there. However, all you’ll end up doing is going down another tunnel anyway.
For progress therapy, you might just want to take a few hours from life off a week and just sit back and enjoy it all. It works, I’m telling you.
September 5, 2008 at 7:00 am
You deserve this:
A thank you….for being an awesome inspiration and a great friend.
A good job….for busting your ass to make your life better for not only you, but your family as well.
A RAISE…wish I could give you that, but I’m in debt.
and last but not least,
Keep it up the light at the end of the tunnel is getting closer and “BOY IS IT A DUSSIE”!
You have MANY years ahead of you. I promise you will see the payoff. It will happen for you. It may feel like you’re walking through quick sand to get to the other side, but you’ll make it. If I compare where I am now to where I was at your age, I see how far I’ve come (along with my family).
September 5, 2008 at 8:14 am
Have to agree with Mike. It’s not a lack of carbs, it’s life knocking at the door trying to throw you off your grind. It’s hard what we do, but that’s what separates us from the rest. I find that my focus in the gym translates over into every other area of my life. If I can steel my mind enough to get a kick ass workout in the gym, I can steel my mind to do whatever else in ife that needs to be done. We all have our days when we wonder why we do this, but you know why. You have a goal - you’re on a mission. You know that’s just the devil trying to throw you off your game. Look at what you’ve accomplished thus far - you’re not done, are you? You’re not going to let a distraction or two negate all the hard work up to this point are you? You’ve come too far to stop now. So let it out, push through it and get back on your grind! That "I Can Do It" attitude is a powerful thing. If you don’t believe, take a look at my blogs. I’ve been where you are, and I know that I will be again.
But it gets easier every time. Just refocus.
September 22, 2008 at 12:33 pm
Some of what you said I could have said myself… maybe our lives are 99% different in all other ways but the feelings you expressed are ones I can relate to. Thanks for putting it down "in writing" that it’s ok to be overwhelmed by all we’re doing to be successful. It’s worth it.
September 22, 2008 at 12:33 pm
October 1, 2008 at 8:29 am
Why haven’t I read this earlier? You and mike are hilarious?