My weekly weigh-in was today.   Didn't gain pounds but according to the scale I use I gained body fat.  It is difficult to stay focused and positive when one works so hard to achieve the goal.  One week is in reality a short period of time to measure the success of my program but that doesn't make it any less disappointing.  I will admit I had a cheat day earlier in the week last week and didn't even record my calories for that day.  As I have said before, I know what I was doing -it was not mindless eating.  The only thing I will say about it now is that it was healthy food but I know that one can eat too much healthy food too, and that is what I did.

I have increased the weight load I use while working out and I really noticed how it felt in my workout last night in that it felt a little easier to manage even though I was using heavier weight.  That made me feel good because it made me feel as though I had made some progress in that area.

I am trying to stay honest with myself and I know that the eating thing is a problem.  I have been emotionally eating due to other anxieties in my life, I think mostly around work, bills, finances.  Nothing really more or less than most other people have to deal with but there it is.  I also struggle with this time of year in that it is freaking cold out and part of what I really enjoy as my fitness routine is walking, and it's just not possible to get out like I want normally due when the weather is more agreeable.

Finding other outlets to change up my routine has been my focus but when you worry about paying mortgage etc., it seems that almost everything costs more money.  I do know that sitting around isn't the answer because all I think about is food, but what do I do?  How do I spend my time?  Housework, work.....what else can I do?

It has been very difficult to stay positive and focused.  I'm trying...trying to remember all the things I have to be thankful for..my daughter, my loving and giving parents, my job and my most kind boss, I do hav a roof over my head, I did actually lose a little weight this week. Stop feeling sorry for myself!!!!

I don't know what to do, what do I do?