mary2122’s BodyBlog

Okay so a few things i am excited about.

My new way of thinking!!!!!!
My twitter account…please follow me especially in the next week because i will be talking about my journey to florida…raw and healthy food here i come!!! and i will be glad to follow you all as well…finally real people…i usually just get spam twitter accounts.

heres the link….
http://twitter.com/mary2122

okay ANNNND my video blog. Anyone who has a youtube account…subscribe to me…it makes me smile And if you have a you tube account and want to comment on my videos..then comment on youtube rather than here. HOWEVER if you have a comment about something other than my video blog…or do not have a youtube account..go ahead and comment here

here is the link to the video blog….
http://www.youtube.com/user/maryeatsclean

i will update pretty often

So those are a few things i am excited about!!!!!! i love all the comments so keep them coming!!!!

good night its way past my bedtime…1:43 am phew

Okay so i have not been here in a while and it sucks. But hey..things happen. Well here is a little update on what I have been doing. I had a crazy job that i hated and it made me just lose focus on everything that was good in my life. I finally quit even though the money was good and i have so many bills…but really…life is short and i dont want to be in a job that makes me miserable. So i have always been a vegetarian…i think sometimes i would eat some chicken here and there and sometimes i eat salmon so im not a super strict vegetarian but i like to say that i am one. Well then i turned vegan for about a month and then i started flirting with the raw food diet. I was super bored on the raw food diet…and i was tired and moody all of the time. So i want to come back to what always works for me and i want to try to start a fitness related career. I went to school for teaching but i think my heart and passion is in fitness so i figure i should go for it.

My weight went up a bit….139….i used to be 134 at my low point. but not a huge jump. So i am back

I haven’t been on here in a while. But it is not because I do not love you all….I have been sick. Sick enough to keep me away from the gym. My eating has also been crazy….i have no appetite and for some reason all I am craving is donuts. Odd? I dont even really like donuts. haha. Hopefully my cold/flu who knows…goes away soon! I miss u all!

Was in the audience of the tyra show today, it was great and a lotof fun…looks totally different than what it looks like on television…but i swear i was on camera a tons of times!!! whoo hoO!!!

i trieddddddd to eat all my meals today but i went like 4 hours without eat because i wasnt allowed to eat in the tyra show ahhaha o well out of my control…i didnt want to be the girl chewing in the audience probably a snow day tomorrow…if im snowed in then ill just whip out one  of my p90x videos…..

and i ate chicken 2 nights in a row…aaaaghhhhh and it didnt gross me out…

here is an awful pic of me in front of the tyra show…i look 70000 lbs and 12 years old because i had so many layers on

So i really had a fun weekend but was not good….i drank saturday night and at oreos friday night….sunday i had ice cream…i am just admitting it all!!! i am usually soo good but idk i guess my will power just took a vacation…but really what can i do about it except for move on! i had a lot of social event to attend and i just totallly didnt plan to eat healthy…and well thats what i got. Also i havent been feeling well lately….just tired….moody…idk what it is. I recently went vegetarian and for some reason i feel like my body is missing something. Today i woke up and contemplated adding chicken to my diet…but it would have to be like organic cage free no antibiotics…idk what do you all think? any vegetarians out there? i just feel so blaaaah like i have no energy…no strength…that im running out of food options…IDK!!!

so i really need to buy some supplements and everything and better food but i have noooo money its sick…..i just got layed off of my job as a leave replacement WHICH I LOVED and now im in the scary jobless world. A school hired me and failed to tell me…they called me this morning telling me i should have started today…..and i was clueless NO ONE EVER CALLED ME TO HIRE ME…..and then i found out how bad the pay was and i was like eh idk if i can do that i have many bills. So they were like okay u have to come down and fill out a paper saying your quiting TO A JOB I NEVER EVEN STARTED OR AGREED TO TAKE….i felt like i was on Punkd……what the heck do i put down for my reason for leaving?

PHEW so i went to the gym this morning and got a great leg workout in….i am subbing for someone at a day care center for a few hours (gotta take anything right now) and then im going back to the gym to do cardio. I like splitting it up like that. I also want to look into creatine and i may add tuna to my diet hmmm not sure if i can stomach it but ill try.

okay I PROMISED not to weigh myself everyday and i did cut back….but i started at 134 and now im up to 136.  In the last 2 months i probably had 2 times where i cheated….im consistent….can someone please explain this….i dont feel any heavier though. Also check out my first entry for my video blog!

soooo i always made video blogs on another forum i am on…sooo since i love them so much i decided to do it here as well! i put one up on my profile so check it out!
Meals todayyy…..

m1- Kashi cereal w/ soymilk and coffee…flax…and i was about to put peanut butter in it but my mom screamed at me and said peanut butter has bacteria or what not…what the hell i need peanut butter

m2- fruit and nuts…wait are nuts bad too….let me change that….fruit and endamame

m3- whole wheat bread made into "pizzas"

m4- yogurt and granola and honey

m5- not sure yet (i should be sure i need to plan 100% and learn from last weekend)

m6- Smoothie with protein powder

Fridays and saturdays and sunday…….are three days that truly test my will power…last night i had some ice cream ughhh i didnt even want it…OKAY BRUSH IT OFF MARY BRUSH IT OFF…….i learned something tho…i feel like crap after junk food and excellent after clean food…i dont even like the taste anymore…so last night was a positive experience with junk food to teach me that i dont like it

Today I am going shopping with 2 of my girlfriends for some clean and organic food…i love doing this No workout today but im craving one…im in too much pain….starting out needs more breaks i guess…..

Meals:

• Oatmeal protein powder, flax. Coffee
• Yogurt and granola
• gee idk going out to lunch…try to find something nice
• Protein shake
• Gee idk going out for dinner
• Eggwhites on whole grain toast

Going out for meals two times…this is life… i need to prove to myself that i can deal with reality and reach my goals

Just a rant…tried to do a pull up in the gym today and felt totally embarrassed when i couldn’t!!! Even just one! WONDERFUL! Then I went to do some dips…couldnt do many….i need to gain strength! I think this whole jobless situation for me is really getting to me. I got some wonderful offers for online training but I feel guilty adding another bill to my life when I have no income…..grrr….WELL enough with the blabbing…Im reading a wonderful book by Eckhart Tolle and its giving me a lot of realizations.

MEALS!

M1-Kashi Cereal w/ 1tbs peanut butter and 2tbs flax (wierd i know) coffee

M2-  Yogurt and granola (getting tired of this)

m3- Post workout protein shake

m4- 1 egg…1 egg white…fruit

m5- salad of dark greens….with…walnuts..mandarin oranges…low fat feta (eh i couldnt resist) and dried fruit but i dont eat all of the dried fruit…added sugar

m6- not sure yet but weekends give me the munchies…..i passed up drinking tonight but kinda craving a glass of wine….hmmmmm

I need to incorporate more veggies especially because im a vegetarian i need ideas for recipes with them