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I have finally received the products I got for free from bodybuilding.com during my Transformation Challenge 2008. I never received any Gaspary or other sponsors products, and I already lost hope I will ever receive anything from them.

Anyways great people from bb.com staff  managed to get those few supplements to me after few months. what i got? I got me self a Lipo 6, Animal Stack, Animal Flex and some NO product I forgot it’s name but it works. I took those supplements last night and experienced mega pump and also huge euphoria which kept me wake till late, amazingly I woke up this morning fresh as a dew. i also experienced slight sickness but I always do when I take supplements on an empty stomach, and it was gone after few hours this morning.

I will get you people updated how this stuff works on me. I am still in good shape, no strength loss and I even gained some muscle mass. Things are going slow but progress is evident and I am healthy and happy, and that is most important of all.

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Sometimes I hate being me. Sometimes the exact same things pushing me up in the gym, drag me down in other aspects of my life. Being hardheaded as I am helps so many times, but sometimes I just hit the concrete wall and drop down on my ass.

Haven’t  got much to say lately so i stayed quiet most of the time. Even if I am not updating my bodyspace regularly i still visit it every single day, and sometimes even twice for that matter. It’s just that I am under so much pressure because of so many things in life. Most of that pressure comes from my ambitions, which i have too many and fail to achieve any entirely.

"Only when we loose everything we are truly free." I reminded my self of this line when I sat to draw last night. I had so many distractions I just could not concentrate on creating art. I am just not sure i am moving in this or the oposite direction in my life, but I think  both ways can bring me to the same spot.
I met this man he was interior decorator, at least that is the fancy name for someone covered in wall paint from toe to ears. Tall, dark fellow with thick mustaches and wrinkled skin on his face, not so much because of his years, as from constant squinting on the cigar smoke that was never far from his mouths. When I told him, full of inspiration and desire, I was a painter and I also wish to become artist of some level, the only reaction of this man was a faint smile. he than told me a story about his artistic path. You see he wasn’t painting walls his entire life. No, his real passion was painting murals on the church walls, only when the weather is bad and air humidity does not allow to paint on the high walls he does this second job to support his survival. How funny I thought to my self, one day you paint with gold and silver and create epic scenes from the Bible and inspire faith in so many people and the other day you haggle with those same people over a few coins for a days worth bread and watter.

However, this man didn’t seamed to be disturbed by this sad truth at all, and while I questioned him further he gave a jewel of wisdom that obviously kept him sane in his burning need to create art and not paint walls. He said "Being artist is OK as far as creating art goes, but to really create art you have to remove your self from the constant distractions in everyday surroundings." This was mind boggling at the beginning, but more i thought about it the more it made sense.

If I have to think about will I earn enough money to survive and will I have a rent to pay at the end of the day I can not set my mind free and let the creativity roam freely. Oh and trust me when I say I have so many distractions right now I sometimes wonder how can i create anything at all. Must be I have this incredible talent which is not easily stopped by simple mundane things in life, but than I take a look at my art and I get back in reality, which usually comes like a smack across the face with a wet towel.

Even as I write this I am distracted almost three times, first by my financial manager who is a old wench and in the moments of absolute absentees  of intelligence she managed to transfer entire sum of money intended for paychecks to a bank account not connected to electronic paying business server and now it will take about 12 hours for women from accounting department to book it by hand, instead of doing it electronically in like five minutes. Guess who is working the late shift in the IT sector, alone. Yeah, it’s a no brainer, just like my boss. Oh yeah and now they are calling me to fix a machine of which I only know name and model because it is written in big bold letter on a plate screwed on the side of the machine. The best part is they call me to fix it because the machine has a keyboard on it and this means the guy from the IT must know something about it, right…

The way my life goes right now I will never become and artist, and because I am very nervous I am experiencing emotional eating cravings, but the closest place to get food is like 5 miles away so I will resist by force. the good news is I have lost another inch on my waist and still strong and powerful in the gym.

I am currently  working out seven days a week, with four days in the weight room, two days on the bike and two days boxing. I am probably in the best shape of my life as far as mu physical condition goes, I just need to loose another 5% body fat and I will be satisfied.

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Hello world,

I start my journey again and now with new wave of fresh energy supplied by entering Body Transformation challenge 2008! Unfortunately one good man, Jeff aka SCT hurt him self and these was an opening for an alternate competitor. I hate the fact I enter the competition through someone else misfortune, but I guess such is life.

I feel I am regaining confidence in success of my initial mission and my motivation is back high after it dropped down in the past month. I have a great feeling about this one and I know I will be the winner. Not because I know I will win the competition, but because I know I will be there all the way through and push my self to the limit.

Hello bodyblog it’s me again.

Have I told about my latest ambition to establish my own on-line supplements store? Well it is one of too many lately and I am trying to balance them all. Like a juggler on a  rope I feel I am going to fall if I don’t loose one of the kegs.

During these last few weeks I was alternating between dropping my workouts/diet and my passion for art. Managing to balance my four jobs. Today I finished the magazine front page, logo and brand for the mag and entire batch of digital photo editing. Now I am left with only four jobs

I also decided to leave pencil and paper alone for the time being. By a misfortune of a good person I am next in line to inherit the position with chosen five in the big bodychalenge2008 race. SCT broke his ankle and there is a possibility I will be chosen as alternate competitor. I am still waiting for admins to contact me, but the fact that I could still be in the big race gave the new and fresh wave of motivation to step up my intensity once again and achieve what I wanted.

I started my cardio sessions again and I am back on my diet regime, all I need now is that admin to give the go sign

OK, this is a post written after several weeks of inactivity. Even bodyspace server is worried about me

Anyways I am getting a lot of work lately and I am constantly in a time knot. This week started OK, I managed to get back in the regular schedule of weight lifting, but still no cardio.

Good news is some of the past years hard work is paying of and I am starting to see some real results. Life can get on my back some times, but I am not complaining.

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I was working some crazy hours for the last two weeks and final result was me getting sick on New years eve. But so much for the bad news, the good news is I was chosen as a male alternate competitor for 2008 Bodychalenge. While I hope no one will quit on their own dreams of getting fit and healthy I still have a great desire to compete and win, I know it is great motivation and I hope chosen five will manage to go through those three months and succeed in their goals.

Yeap I am still sneezing and drooling, but working out on a regular basis. I am not quitting for some measly reasons like fever lol…

Anyway I am getting more and more hyped about entering the bodychalenge2008 I really really would like to be one of the five contestants!

I also can say I finished my cradio session two days ago, after almost two weeks off, I felt better plus I extended the running distance so I will make more progress.

I feel much better today and I hope that by the end of this week I will be in full health and continuing with normal activities.

I have just logged in this morning and for some reason I started googleing natural bodybuilding federations. This is what my search showed m

inbf     and         wnbf        and of course    naturalbodybuilding

You should visit these places, they are great. They have awesome sites, with nice tiled textures and loaded with information, and the overall design is just…professional. No wonder so many athletes use steroids when you have such a lousy support for the natural way.

Australian federation took a step forward and all the cudos to the www.inba.com.au

BTW. I made a first video of me self, and god ill at the same time…how was your weekend

I have just reached my six weeks mark. I feel great for holding on to my goals, even if I wasn’t always right there. Anyways, I just took my progress pictures and measured my self, and realized I have lost a pound and an 1cm around the waist, despite disastrous last week.

My body stats show I made progress but I do not feel so, must be because it is such a small progress, but any progress is better than none at all.

I will intensify my workouts from Monday. I start with the gym and real exercises with some serious weights and I also plan to regulate my cardio. Still not sure how, but I will figure it out.

I also plan to limit my carbs even more, and to start with some good fat burners. When I look back at these six weeks I realize I have made all this just by doing push-ups and dieting, I am definitely positive about making huge success when I start working out in the gym and supplementing with fat burners, I will reach my goal with ease.

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But I am not sure it was such a great idea. I am not sure is it because I slept only 5 hours or this restricted calories fast. I guess it is combination of these two but I will see how things develop today.

I was very tired yesterday, slept the whole afternoon and throughout the night. I woke up this morning fresh, but I am worried about yesterday. Anyway I have this day to go through and I will post updates to my blog several times this day.

I ate a pear and a banana this morning, My best guess is I ate somewhere around 200 - 250 calories. I feel a bit weakness in my muscles but not slugish.