lulubell1824’s BodyBlog

So…i’m on a downward spiral. I am so busy with everything for the wedding and with the new house I have pushed working out and eating clean aside. My wedding is in 5 weeks, 5 weeks! I need to stay where I am or lose a few pounds so my dress fits!

What the hell do you do - how do you find the time? I’m struggling and afraid I’m going to blimp back up to 158. I loved how i felt at 133, but I can tell you right now I’m probably up to 140. Eating ****ty, fast food whatever is convenient for me to pick up while I"m on the run. How do you do it. How do you (even when it already seems like there aren’t enough hours in the day) stay with it!

Ugh - i’m afraid to weigh myself. I don’t even want to know. I cooked food last monday in attemps to eat better at least, even if I can’t make it to the gym. 3 days I did eat clean until dinner…at least that’s something. the rest of the chicken and veggies = wasted.

what do I do? I need and want to be feeling good, not like a fat bloated ugly person for my wedding and honeymoon. any suggestions? How do i fit it all in? i work a normal 8-5 job and then go to my new house to scrape/paint/drywall. I’ve been doing this for 3 weeks now. I can’t NOT do the house work because then it won’t be ready for us to move into after the wedding. I feel so lost. Anyone?

So I did the first leg day with the new routine on Tuesday. By the time i left the gym I was feeling it. Yesterday I was really sore but still could walk normal, etc. I played a soccer game last night, the full game cuz we had no subs and my shot was just not as strong as usual. Still scored 3 goals though

Today I’m not kidding you - I feel like I have something huge stuck up my @$$. I can barely walk because I have gluts, quads and hammies all sore everytime I move. People are work were like "what’s wrong are you ok" I’m like, yea I just can’t walk. MY legs haven’t hurt this bad since the VERY first leg day I did about 10 weeks ago. Probably just the change in routine but how do I make it stop? Leg press, single leg squats, curls, extension, reverse standing lunges. It’s brutal!

 I seriously can barely walk and I have volleyball tonight so I need to figure out how to fix this before 9:15 tonight. It’s a good sore though, not a sore like I pulled stuff. It’s just overpowering.

Any suggestions?! HELP!

So…the last few weeks have been horrible. I’ve been so busy with work and coaching I have put working out behind me. In my defense over the last 3 weeks I have been eating OK….with the exception of this past weekend.

Well i’m ready to start working out again - I feel like a turd. I know it’s only a 3# gain but I feel huge. Plus i’m bloated from that time of the month.

 I have a new workout routine and am going to stick with the same diet for now. I cut down to a 4x/week workout instead of 5x. 5x burnt me out and after a 2.5 week rest and a 3# gain I’m ready to hit it again.

I hope everyone goes through what I just went through. I kind of feel like a failure but it has given me more motivation now to start again because i have more to lose. and a new workout to follow. I’m hoping I can jump back in like I haven’t missed a beat.

Hopefully it’s that easy….ugh. We will see come weigh in Friday how well I’m doing.

Also known as SHOOT ME IN THE FACE.

Ugh. No energy this week plus no motivation = me not doing very much workout wise. I went once so far this week and did biceps/back. I will go tomorrow to do tri/chest/shoulders. Friday am hopefully I can do my combo day. I pulled my groin REALLY bad in my soccer game tonight so I can’t imagine doing squats or presses or lunges at this time. it hurts when I just sit here. Not good. I’d rather take the week off from legs considering  I have already been slacking a ton this week. Diet has been probably 90%  on this week so that’s good - but I probably will gain at least 2 pounds from last week just from not being as active. The trainer I’m working with is changing the workout up for next week - so I feel like I can just get a new start next week - hopefully my motivation will get back up.

I only have (or had up until this Friday) 4.5 more to go before hitting 130. My initial goal was 135 which i surpassed by 0.5 lbs..haha. But I just need a break. I have to go try my dress on soon - I know it will be big already so i’m not freaking out about taking a week off. I still have 86 days until the wedding so a good 12 weeks. one off won’t hurt - and I’m not off off I’m still doing 3/4 lifting days….just no cardio really besides my soccer game tonight.

Any ideas? Thoughts? I was up to 5x/week for the past 3 weeks and I think I kind of just burned myself out. I need some motivation to get back on it.

Ugh.

Any thoughts are appreciated.

Well the back pain I complained about last blog has resolved now. WOOHOO! I was able to lift biceps/back without a problem yesterday. I met this guy at the gym I’m not sure of his name but he made me feel pathetic as we did our bicep curls yesterday. I’m struggling with my 25 pounders and he lifts up like 65 and goes nuts. We were synchronized though - we joked about how we should make a workout video or something. Kinda fun

 Anyway - good cheat meal of pizza/mac n cheese this weekend - and some salad too. I couldn’t feel ALL guilty…ha. Then Sunday came - mother’s day. My mom made a banana cake for my brother who’s birthday was Saturday. Now….of all the cakes in the entire world my mother’s banana cake with chocolate frosting is the best ever. So I had a piece last night and one this past weekend. It’s gone now, we gave the rest to my brother to take home. SO  a little stumble there. But otherwise good weekend. all clean saturday and mostly sunday (which is better than my prior two weekends!)

Hopefully I can stay focused and hit the gym hard and have good workouts before Friday. One of my bridesmaids wants me to go meet up with her to have a few beers and watch the Brewer game tonight…oh I miss my old ways  - i was supposed to go workout after i got done coaching tonight but I may find myself out with her. 2 miller lite’s MAX tonight if I go. At least it’s something. I can make up the workout this weekend.

Just an update. Otherwise things are good. oh - I did burn my pointer finger on my left hand from cooking my egg whites saturday morning before work. 2nd degree baby - blisters and all. Doesn’t hurt anymore just makes me look like a mutant. I still worked out Saturday afternoon and had it covered with a bandage. Hurt like a bitch, but glad I got that 5th workout in.

 Stick with it - even if I don’t lose a lot more weight I am happy with being active and with eating healthy. As long as I don’t get back into my booze and fast food trend I’ll be ok. I do want to get to 130 though, high school weight before my wedding would be super sexy. And Jamaica in a bikini would be amazing then - nothing to feel "ugly" about. *sigh*  - we will see!

So another week of hard work/strict eating. As I said before I had a semi-bad weekend last week…more like 3 cheat meals instead of 1. But I got back on it Monday morning lifting heavier than ever.

 I lost 1 pound in the last 7 days, which I think is pretty good considering the weekend I had last weekend. I feel like my stomach is getting smaller….the pooch I want to get rid of might actually happen! I took pics this am before going to the gym, I’ll post when I get home from work. I can see a LITTLE difference in my stomach area - but it’s only been 2 weeks since I took the other pics. Not gonna change that much.

 In other news my back is flaring up again. I had a lumbar strain last April (over a year ago) that took about 2 weeks to come back from with NSAIDS and muscle relaxants. It has flared up multiple times since then, but not when I’ve been in my workout/dieting zone. I started noting back pain Tuesday night and early into Wed. I’ve been hitting up the ALeve and left over muscle relaxants from my last flare up in February. Not really helping all that much this time . I took Wed off because it was pretty sore, but yesterday went and did my 45 minutes of interval cardio and abs. It was rough. Crunches on the decline bench is not something to do when you have a back flare up - ouch. And this morning was legs - which I did - but could not squat nearly as much due to pain. I still did them, but I felt like I was doing nothing. Anything more than 40 was too much pressure on the low back and I couldn’t do it. Still did 3 sets of lighter weight to get the reps in. The leg press, lunges, curls and extensions were just a tiny bit uncomfortable, but I didn’t have to drop weights on those.

 So I’ll get my 5th workout in tomorrow and have Sunday to rest. I hope the back is feeling better by Monday when I have back/biceps again. Ugh. Otherwise I’ll have issues - I’m the type of person to keep pushing through it although I’m sure if I would just rest it would get better. Well guess what - I don’t want to rest - I want abs and low body fat % so I look sexy as hell in Jamaica on my honeymoon - and so I look great for the wedding. Plus I’ll feel like a fat slob if I don’t workout - it’s a routine now, a habit. I look FORWARD to it, I don’t dred it anymore.

 I guess we will wait and see….

After two straight weeks of clean eating and no change over the past one week I accidently went fricking nuts this weekend. Tailgait at the brewer game and 10 beers later my little self is gone. Followed by hot dog and soft pretzel.

 I also didn’t eat very good yesterday.

 But having said that, I have come from bad weekends plenty of times over the past 12 weeks and just hit it hard all week at the gym. I plan on doing the same thing today.

 I only hope I didn’t do TOO much damage weight wise this weekend. Keep reminding yourself of how much you really want it and those chips should fall right out of your hand before they even get to your mouth….cuz the minute you eat them and realize how tasty they are…is the minute you realized you just screwed yourself over.

 Gotta stop ****ing up so that I can get where I want to be. KEEP ON IT.

So another week of clean eating (besides one SMALL handful of semi-sweet chocolate chips when I needed my sweet craving) has done nothing. My workouts have been hard, as usual and nothing.

 This is normally where I start to give up. I gotta figure out something or somehow to change it up so I can keep losing. Otherwise may end up where I started….

So I posted three progress pics all from this morning. I had to date one yesterday because it made me.

Anyway - I’m happy with how the arms are coming along, but the belly/fat will need to slim down. I’m still 26% BF - which is better than 36% where I started……Just imagine though people - I was 20 pounds heavier than this when I started. So even if I look bad to you now - please envision me HUGE and then when you look again you’ll go, "wow she’s come a ways"

cuz that’s how I feel. Im’ happy with those but disgusted at the same time. Maybe I’ll take them once a month and see the changes….hopefully.

Clean week this week - flawless eating and 3 workouts in before weigh day today. One more to go tomorrow along with my CHEAT MEAL

I’ll try to post more progress pics when I get a chance.

The past two weeks have been pretty bad eating wise. All of my meals have been good, but I’m doing a bit more snacking and going a bit overboard with the nuts and stuff. Also - the Easter holiday and my wedding shower threw things off. In the midst of the two week binge I only gained 1 pound. It’s not like I was eating fast food all day every day - so I’m not shocked it was only 1 pound. However, I do want reach my goal of 130 before the wedding.

I am determined to eat clean this week until my deserved cheat meal on Friday. Wish me luck.

Also - I lost my digital camera so I can’t upload any pics of me - I want to though - maybe I can find it before the end of the week. I have a few from my mac that turned out OK but it’s very dark in the room so hard to see shadows/etc. I will post later this week.

Also - I did post a pic from my wedding shower!

Just remember even when you don’t want to do it, GET IT DONE. It’ll be so worth the high you get after achieving your goals!