Are we there yet?
Do you remember those long car rides as a kid, when there were no portable dvd players or tv’s with vcrs. When kids didn’t have to sit in car seats (ok, I’m dating myself) and there was nothing to do in the car except maybe bug a sibling or be bugged by one? Sheer impatience to just get there! It could be a 20 minute car ride that seemed like forever. That is how I feel now. 12 weeks out of my life is really like a 5 minute car ride… but I’m really to the point that I am done! Still waiting for my fairy godmother to show up with her wand and sprinkle me with sculpting dust!!!! I’m tired of getting up at 5 to go to the gym! I am tired of eggs, oatmeal, chicken, rice, sweet potato and protein bars! I am tired of waking up each morning in hopes that while I slept that the fat melted away or came out in my morning pee (when you drink a gallon of water… you pee a ton in the a.m… actually, when you try to catch up in the pm to drink a gallon of water you pee a lot in the morning). I’m tired! I know that I need to keep moving forward… and I will. I am determined to finish these 12 weeks. This will be the first time I’ve ever completed something like this. I’ve done a 10 day cleanse/fast 3 times! People were amazed that I was able to do that… that was only 10 DAYS! This is freakin’ 84 days! I just want to finish and do something else.
In my misery, I had 2 slices of pizza with black olives. It tasted so good. At least the first one. Half way through the second one I wasn’t enjoying it so much… and since I was taught not to waste food, I finished it. Bad habit I know. So today is my cheat day instead of Sunday. I will have to eat super clean on Sunday. Maybe I’ll have a little chocolate later or some carmel popcorn since it’s now my cheat day. I don’t know. This sucks!
Anyway, tomorrow is a new day. My husband is out of town so I’m home with the kids and don’t know if I will be able to make it to the gym to do my cardio (gotta find a sitter). I’ll try to do it at home on my husband’s bike (he has it on a trainer, but I hate riding it). We’ll see.
That’s enough complaining for now. You all have a nice night.
E
March 28, 2008 at 6:22 pm
Love,
Man, you are awesome! I know you want it to be over and you are like that kid saying "are we there yeeeeeet???" But look at how far you’ve come!!! I have tried to start the BFL challenge 3 times! 3 times and I never made it past a few days!!! You rock. Totally. Your stick-to-it-ness is awe-inspiring. I hope you find a way to really enjoy your food again though. Being sick of what you are eating is the surest way to find yourself elbow deep in a large bag of cookies! (giggle-been there!)
Ok, so hang in there–I know Juls and Amyrose are cheering for you, but a lot of other people are too. (great progress pics btw)
Be well,
jean
March 30, 2008 at 5:49 am
LJ, you have to look at this as the start to a new life, not just 12 weeks and you’re done. I’m right there with you, there are days this sucks!!! But it is a change in lifestyle, one I’m assuming you want for the rest of your life. You know I have some of the same struggles as you, we have to start finding the positive, that this is all a LIFELONG goal. We are retraining ourselves from a lifetime of bad habits. You will find your balance (as Juls says) as I am also searching for mine. Stay strong.
March 31, 2008 at 4:35 pm
i echo amyrose on this one girlfriend…this is the beginning of a lifelong journey….