lorabeann’s BodyBlog

I bet I look like one of those people who jump from thing to thing, diet to diet, etc.  And really, I can be.  I have a disordered eating past, and its not easy to think of food ‘normally’.

I was trying Keto for awhile, but eating foods that I really didn’t enjoy.  And it made me feel very sick, lethargic, and ummm… not regular if you know what I mean.  That was probably contributing to the sick part.  If I dropped cals and did something like that again- I might try the radical diet.  Less fat.  Then I would cycle them back up again.

I need to find my balance.  In eating and everything.  I have switched back to the foods I like and am going to just eat clean for awhile and see what happens.  I cannot tell you how happy I was to have pilaf, cottage cheese, flaxseed and blueberries for breakfast. 

I want to run again too. Last time I started running I got shin splints.  Sooo I will start slow again.  Maybe I’ll go up to my old high school and jog around on the grass.

I ordered custom mix protein powder from another site.   Really excited to see how that turns out!  It might be my cheaper way of getting my PP!

I have had to take it easy because I got shin splints in my left shin.  I started running awhile back because I love it, and started out by taking it easy.  I guess it wasn’t easy enough.  Sooo I took some time off from cardio, and have done lower impact work lately.  I have stuck to lots of walking, some easy elliptical, and don’t laugh- step workouts.  I just want to keep my HR up in some way.

Today’s Workout
70 min full body workout- "Jari Love’s Ripped 1000"
15 min fast walk with dog- it’s so humid, she about died!  I let her cool down when we got back and then threw the ball for her.    The dog has to get a good workout too! 
20 mins Punching the punching bag.  It feels good when you are frustrated.

Nutrition
I am going to be honest here, I have not been eating clean.  I need to get a grip, and keep that grip.  I don’t know what it is with consistency with me, but I need to get it in line.  It’s hard when eating clean and eating the right portions doesn’t feel natural to me.

I see results when I cut out bread- even sprouted bread, sugar, etc.  If I stick to healthy fats, lean proteins, and veggies.  I think I will do something like the Radical diet, because I have to have something hard and intense sometimes.  plus, although it is hard, if I see results, it really helps with motivation.  And I have to keep that in mind.  Motivation is way down, but PMS is right around the corner and I am feeling the effect.

Today
Doing a Keto Day.
Macros are:

Total Cals: 1497
Fat:104
Carbs: 14g
Protein:116

Ratios: 64/4/33

Don’t know what this box is…

That is the question.  I haven’t ever taken a ‘real’ break from lifting and training.  I have also been so focused on trying to lose bodyfat.  And it never seems to happen. 

I am thinking about taking a break from lifting, although I do really love it.  I think I will do yoga, running-clears my head, and go for walks.  I enjoy my exercise videos too… :p  I might even start teaching kickboxing and pilates or yoga at a nearby gym.

I have gained muscle all over.  My body fat has not changed- just remember my body fat in my progress section is messed up.  I just want to make that clear.  Entering the wrong BF the first time makes it look like I have gained bf.  I have gained size on my arms and legs… I really do not want any more muscle.  I know most women on here would kill me for saying that.  I wish I could be one of the ones that has to eat a lot to gain size. 

I want to drop bf.  And now weights are just adding more size, so quite frankly I am wanting to shy away from them.  I have tried everything- training heavy, eating at a calorie deficit to lose fat, changing reps, etc.  This makes me just want to run everything off. 

I always forget how good power yoga feels.  I haven’t been doing it because I am so focused on getting up and doing cardio.  I really need to do it more often.

And speaking of cardio, I really need to do that today.  If I don’t get the chance- eh.  Whatevever.  I feel really good right now. 

On another note, I need to update my stats.  I weighed in at 130 this morning.  This is so frustrating… I also figured my body fat by measurements and an equation.  It came to be 22%.  An aerobics instructor took with calipers and a 3 site test once and said it was 17%.  I was unsure about that because I have seen ladies with 17% and they have much more definition in their abs and all over.

I am not one of those people who will lie to themselves and just go with 17% to make themselves feel good.  Ugh.  Sooooo…. my goal is 17% now. *sigh*

As far as nutrition goes, I am going to eat clean, but I am tired of tracking calories.  I know portion sizes now, it’s just about controlling them.

I usually do well, but when I don’t it’s bad.  This week I am going to focus on ‘hunger’, not appetite.  I am not going to watch the clock and eat just because I normally eat… and I like eating.  I am not going to walk in the door, and start eating(or wolfing down) whatever is easiest, even if it is clean.  I am going to relax, eat slowly, and enjoy whatever it is I am eating.  I may not always enjoy eating dry tuna, but I will do it.  I am not going to feel deprived. If I want a bite of something, I will have it, and stop.  If I cannot stop after one bite, I won’t eat it at all. 

Sometimes when I am bored or stuck near work and don’t want to sit in traffic I go to Barnes and Noble and read.  It’s really like a library for me.  I like looking through (and sometimes laughing at) the newest diet books.  Sometimes I find some that have useful info or recipes.  (I do have to watch this addiction of buying the books though…. working on that).

I was looking through The Skinny Black Dress or How to fit into your black dress… or something like that.  Anyway, it was humorous, and they brought up a lot of good points on eating and how to enjoy life without completely depriving yourself.  Good things to think about when you are starving and craving certain foods. 

So my goal is to enjoy myself and everything I do and eat this week.  I can’t live life by the numbers on my calorie counter.  I want to see results, don’t get me wrong, but I think I need to focus on the psychological side of eating for awhile too…

Monday
35min AM cardio- intervals then steady pace
41min PM cardio- steady pace

Tuesday
41min AM cardio(had some egg whites first- I woke up starving!) This was a tae-bo AMPed video.  It’s fun!  I am such a nerd…. but sometimes I need something to "do" for cardio, not just a machine.

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My legs have been feeling "bulky".  I have been trying to lose fat and I know that will help the bulky feeling.  The thing is during my lifting workouts I like to do squats and lunges to keep my HR up.  I don’t do weighted leg anything because if I did my legs would be huge.  I have freakish legs… I am wondering if I should stick to doing squats and lunges (bodyweight only) or just not do them for awhile?

Any thoughts?

Well, at least I felt blah.  It is that TOM and I fell like I am being punched in the uterus.  Sorry if that is graphic.  Haha.  I hope my blog visits don’t drop…. 

I wasn’t able to get a good WO in today.  I might practice my kickboxing routine. ( I want to try out at a LA Fitness to be an aerobics instructor)  So we can count today as “light activity”- rest day in my mind.

Tomorrow I am going to do a morning cardio aiming for 45 mins to 50 mins.  I have to beat this girl to our apt gym though.  She always puts on a R&B cd and works out to it.  I have nothing against R&B… but it is not workout music!  Especially at 7 am in the morning.  I could try disconnecting the machine… no one would know I did it, and would probably give up trying to fix it.   OR I could cut a cord just enough that it wouldn’t work… ok I have to stop.

This is random- but, we used to have giant rabbit named Mr. Bunny and he would bite in half white cords that got in his way.  Usually this would mean telephone cords (or he wouldn’t have lived as long as he did).  Fried bunny.  We would always be on the phone and he would cut the cord to the wireless unit and we would have to search him down.  He would always be “sleeping” by the time we found him.  Yeah…. :rolleyes: